“Girl, that’s just code that he needs his space is all. He probably shouldn’t have put it like that, but knowing you, you probably been on his so…”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Just what I said, boo. You know how you both can be.”
“And how is that, Shane? Enlighten me please.”
“I just feel like you’re just not over him not showing you the time and affection that he lacked before y’all decided to run off and get married. My thing is, you knew Justin liked to kick it when y’all was just dating, and you didn’t particularly care for it then. How did you think you would feel about it now? And please don’t give me no shit about you thought he had changed ‘cause that’s just who he is.”
“So, him needing his space is hanging out with Tate on his off days?”
“Well, not exactly, but I kinda get how he feels, booski. Look, I’m not trying to pick his side, but in a way, I get it. I’m the same way; I hate to date men that are clingy as fuck. I don’t like it. I don’t like it. I don’t like it. It’s a major turn off to me, honestly honey and Justin strikes me as the same way.”
“So, you’re saying I’m too clingy?”
“Yai, yai, yai mamacita, you not getting it. Look at it this way. You’re the leading lady in his life. He goes to bed next to you every night and wakes up to you every morning. Every single thing that he does is centered around you. Is he wrong for wanting to hang with his friends for a little bit? Like, women are so much more emotional than men are. I’m sure you would bea-oh-kay with being with Justin every waking minute of the day, no breaks just Justin, Justin, Justin. But men aren’t like that, sweetie, and right now you’re taking it personal as hell. When I say that you knew what you were getting yourself into, I mean just that. If you knew he was like that, why move forward and marry him? Why not find a man that wants to be around you and only you, is all I’m saying?”
“I personally feel like you putting a ten on a two with it, Shane. Ion feel like I’m asking for too much. I don’t expect him to be with me every waking minute of the day, but I do expect for him to put me before his friends is all I’m saying. Especially with us being married.”
“Well, I’m just saying you might want to loosen the tight grip you have on him before you turn him off completely, then you’ll really have major problems. I don’t think he meant it how you’re taking it to be honest.”
“I’m just not trying to be made the fool of. I just have this gut feeling that he is up to no good when he is gone all of the time.”
“You gotta stop thinking like that. I highly doubt another woman is something you need to concern yourself with. You the only woman for Justin, that is something I wholeheartedly believe, sweetie.”
“Thanks, Shane, I appreciate that.”
“No thanks needed, booski. I hate to cut this convo short, chile but I gotta call you back a lil’ later. I have a little friend stopping by, and I need to get myself together, honey. My hair is all over my head, and that ain’t cute at all.” Shane chuckled, causing us both to laugh.
“You and your friends, I swear you always hookin’ up with someone, but I get it. I wish I could be coupled up right now, but it’s cool.”
“Awww…bestie, don’t feel like that. You’s married now, and married life ain’t easy, chile. Just give Justin some time. Y’all gon’ be straight, and everything will work itself out.”
“I sure hope so friend ‘cause Ion want things to go back to me feeling alone in a relationship again. That’s definitely not what I signed up for, and this time I won’t tolerate it. I can be unhappy and lonely by my damn self. I shouldn’t have to feel this way with a whole husband.”
“I get it, boo. Well, I’ma call you back later if that’s cool. Ciao!”
“Yeah, that’s cool. Have enough fun for both of us. I’ll chat with you later. Ciao, bestie.”
Hanging up with Shane, I kinda felt worse than I was feeling before I called him. For him to say that I need to loosen the grip and insinuate that I was being clingy was not cool. I knew he didn’t mean any harm by what he said, but he was basically siding with Justin in my opinion. It had to be a guy thing because even though I understood where he was coming from, I didn’t think he was hearing me completely. I really didn’t want to bother my sister, but I needed some kind of reassurance that I wasn’t tripping, so I called Dawn in hopes that I would catch her before she left for her date.
“Hey, sissy, I didn’t expect to be hearing from you. Is everything okay?”
“Hey, sis,” I sighed then continued, “No, everything isn’t okay. I wasn’t going to call you, but I need to talk.”
“What’s wrong? It sounds like you been crying. What happened? You were fine earlier. Who ass I gotta kick?”
“Girl.” I chuckled ‘cause my sister stayed ready to go, especially when it came to me. “Me and Justin just had it out. He said some things that really hurt my feelings, sis.”
“About what and what did he say? Was he upset about you having company when he got home?”
“No… why you asked that?”
“‘Cause when he walked in, he looked like he really didn’t feel like being bothered. The look he gave Shane, girl… why you think I hauled ass up out of there like I did?”
“How did he look at him? I didn’t notice it.”
“Chile…” Dawn sang into the phone, and I couldn’t help but to giggle. “Like he can’t stand the sight of his twinkle toes ass.”
