I wonder what she’s doing now?I glance out the top of my living room windows, the part that isn't blocked with the privacy shades that rise from the bottom. It’s dark, and across the street on the second floor, a couple walks into their living room with bowls in their hands, before sinking down onto their couch. Blue light from a TV glows in the room, and I wonder what it would be like to grab a bowl of ice cream and settle into watching a show with Morgan.
The way I’m craving her presence, the sound of her voice, and the sight of her here where I’ve never brought another woman, feels way more intense than the sexual connection I initially thought this was. I don’t just crave her physical presence; there’s a closeness there that I haven’t felt in forever. She’s making me want things I’ve been certain, for the past decade, that I don’t want.
Yet somehow, I think maybe I want them with her?
I pick up the remote and pause the video footage of Washington’s preseason games that I’m supposed to be watching but have completely zoned out on. Before I can think too much about all the reasons this is a terrible idea, all the things that stand in the way of Morgan and me being together, I pull out my phone.
Aidan
Hey, what are you doing?
NerdGirl
Working. You?
Aidan
Same.
NerdGirl
Oh yeah? You out on the ice already warming up for the game two days from now?
Aidan
No, smartass. I’m watching some footage of Washington’s last few games.
NerdGirl
Smart.
Aidan
How would you feel about working over here? I’ve gotten used to having you around.
NerdGirl
And the solution to that problem is to have me around more?
Aidan
Maybe I don’t see it as a “problem.”
NerdGirl
Maybe you should. It feels like you’re breaking a lot of your own rules here.
Aidan
How so?
NerdGirl
Having me around all the time sounds a lot like monogamy.
Aidan
Would you rather I call someone else to come over?
