“No. Not tonight. We have the rest of our lives. We can take this slow,” he promises me.
“Your restraint is admirable, but I don’t want to wait anymore. I have wanted this for weeks now, but I was too scared to tell you. I’m not scared anymore, Mac. I love you. I think I started falling in love with you the day I stepped out of that truck and met you. I am going to keep falling even more in lovewith you. I don’t want to live with regrets when it comes to you. I already have too many. I want this with you right now. Please don’t deny me.”
I lick my lips, waiting for his response. It was scary as hell to admit all of that to him, but he was right. I can trust him, and I know he won’t let me down. He won’t make me feel like a fool for feeling the way I do. With him, I am free to finally be me. I like who I am now.
“Only if you are sure. I will never deny you, but you can always deny me. This isn’t about the physical for me. I have been in love with you for a while now because of the person I watched you blossom into. I know you are still growing, but I want to grow together.” He presses a soft kiss to my lips.
“I want to grow with you too, and right now? I want to experience something I have never felt before,” I tell him.
He frowns. “What is it?”
I smile at him. “An orgasm?”
He damn near chokes on his tongue. “You’ve never had one?”
I shake my head. “Outside of with you, before on the couch when I molested you, no. It never felt right. It feels right with you.”
He leans in, kissing me hard. “First of all, you didn’t molest me. Second, we are going to do this the right way then. The way you deserve.”
He kisses me again, this time slowing the kiss down. I feel like he is making love to me with his tongue as he leaves me breathless. My body is writhing against him as I feel the heat only he evokes in me race through my body. My pussy is tingling, something I have never really felt it do. It feels amazing yet torturous at the same time.
I need something, and I don’t even know how to ask for it.
I should know better, though. I don’t need to ask. Mac knows what I need because he knows me. Quickly and quietly, heremoves the shirt of his I put on to sleep in, then he peels down my sleep shorts, leaving me bare.
Reaching onto the nightstand, he flips on the light.
I wince up at him, making him smile.
“Sorry. I want to see every inch of you. I want this moment seared into my brain for the rest of my life.”
His words have my heart pounding faster. I want that too. I want this moment to last forever.
Then he gets to work, kissing his way down my body. He stops and worships my breasts until my hands are tangled in his hair, my pussy damn near throbbing with the need to have something to clench around.
When he makes his way down between my legs, nerves hit me.
“What’s wrong?” he asks, looking up at me.
I let my lip fall from my teeth, now knowing that it is a tell for me.
“I’ve never done this before. No one has ever…” I trail off.
His eyes gleam. “Good. I plan to be your first and last then. You wanted an orgasm. Well, you are going to get one.”
At first, it feels weird having him between my legs, but then he hits a spot that has my toes curling. I let out a little moan, so he presses against it again with his tongue.
Soon, he is hitting all the right places, his fingers sliding easily in and out of me. My entire body feels like it is electrified. I feel like I need something more, but I don’t even know what it is. All I know is that I feel this pressure inside of me, and I need it to go away.
My orgasm hits me, making me gasp. My eyes grow blurry as I let out a long groan, my knees clamping around Mac’s head. It lasts for several seconds, Mac continuing his assault until my body grows lax.
When I look down, I see him looking up at me with a goofy smile, his face glistening with my release.
Mac.
The only man who’s ever cared about my pleasure more than his own. The only man who let me use his body to get off without asking for something in return. The guy who then showed me what it’s like to be touched, to be desired, to feel wanted. The only man who’s ever brought me to pleasure.
In this moment, I know I made the right decision.
