“I’m trying to figure Jasper out. One minute, he wants to make sure I know he’s only a friend for you, but then he brings you such cute things.”
“Just friends.” I managed to speak through a yawn. “He’s okay for a friend.” Considering I never wanted them.
“He’s great for that, yes.” I felt like abutwas coming.
“His girlfriend…. leaving him.” I settled in.
“Long distance is hard, or so I’ve heard. Just know he’s not…right for you to date right now though.”
“No.” I shook my head too fast. “Dating means sex. No thanks.”
Dawn spluttered out a laugh. “Alright. Glad I can skip the safe sex talk with you.”
I huffed, folding the stuffed animal against my chest between my arms. I did not need that talk. That was like ten years too late.
Chapter 33
Dawn sat in the only chair in the room while I got the grand spot. Right dab in the middle, the paper crinkled with each and every movement. I loathed nothing more than sitting here.
The last doctor’s appointment I had was a year ago, and everything had looked to be fine, for the most part. Just another reminder that I needed to eat more.This would at least, be the last time for a little while to check for certain diseases that could have possibly been given to me.
Surprisingly, it was clean there in that department. I wasn’t sure how, with how much I was passed around. Not all clients used condoms.
In a sick twisted way, I hoped that each man that had touched me was suffering in some way. I wanted them all to feel the pain they put me through. I wanted them all to never have a happy moment again.
Dawn had noise canceling headphones on, making herself as invisible as much as she could in the situation. Despite all the efforts I’ve been working towards, being in a small room without her wasn’t going to be something I won the award for this year.
She wouldn’t be able to hear a single thing I wrote down, or the answers that’d be given.
But having her with me helped keep the panic at bay. It was just barely there, simmering, but manageable at the moment. There wasn’t much I could ask for, unless it was that I got out of this stupid appointment.
“Good afternoon,” the doctor greeted, entering the room. Dr. Seivers was the same as last year, and the one I saw maybe one other time when I was sick with strep sometime the year before that. Her black hair was twisted behind her head in a bun, and she always had a no-nonsense type of look about her. “How are you doing?”
It took her a moment to remember that I didn’t talk. “Alright, the nurse already took samples for STD’s, blood tests for sugar and all that jazz. You're still underweight.”
I lifted a shoulder. I was ten times healthier than I had been four years ago. What more could she ask for?
“You should be eating three healthy meals a day.”
Sometimes. Mostly.
Not really. She didn’t believe me.
“Three meals, Koda. I want to see some weight gain before your next appointment. If there aren't any good changes there, I’ll request you start drinking protein shakes.Actually, you should start those now anyways. I’ll make sure your aunt is aware of that.”
I made a face that wasn’t blocked from her, or Dawn. My aunt took her headphones off.
“Everything okay?”
“Koda needs to start drinking protein shakes.”
“I’ll make sure to pick some up after this.” Dawn put her headphones back on, easily blocking us out once more.
“Otherwise, everything looks good as far as I can tell until the blood tests come back in a few days. If anything is of concern, I’ll contact your aunt.” The doctor glanced at Dawn before turning back to me. “Now, a bit more of a sensitive topic. But one that needs to be brought up. You are halfway through the birthday year, and after everything you’ve been through, you have grown remarkably well. But I must ask, have you had an erection and/or ejaculated. Any pain while doing so?”
I could only stare at her for a moment before blinking and heat rushed to my face. I quickly dropped my eyes for her to the notebook and pen at the ready in my lap.
How the hell was I to answer any of that? Was there even a right answer?
