I saw him the minute I stepped inside the office. He was behind his desk with his elbows on top of it. Our eyes met, and he raised one of his eyebrows. I gulped, not liking the look I saw on his face. I deserved that, but I hoped like hell I could make it up to him.
Nash rose from his seat and came around to greet me. “Wassup? What are you doing here?” He gave me a sideways hug since I had the stuff in my hands.He’d hugged me, so that is a good sign.
I licked my lips. “Uhh, I’m here to apologize. I owe you a huge one.” It was best I be honest and get that out. I shifted from one foot to the other.
Nash had said nothing. He only stared at me. I grew nervous, trying to hold it together.Is he making it difficult for me or something?
“Hmm...”
I frowned and jerked my head back, wondering what he meant by that. “What’s hmm?”
He shrugged, sitting on the edge of his desk, watching me. “It’s whatever you want it to mean.”
I dropped my head to my chest, knowing this wasn’t going how I thought it would go. “Uhh... I got you a few things to show how sorry I am for the way I walked away from you.” I held up the basket and bag for him to see.
Nash folded his arms across his chest and glared at me. “You think you can buy me stuff and expect me to sweep what you did under the rug? Nah, it doesn’t work like that. You told me to stay away from you, and I tried calling to fix whatever the hell I did, but you blocked me. I granted your wish after trying to contact you for a day. I stayed the hell away from you. Now you’re here with stuff like it’s going to move me. Nah...” He shook his head. “I have feelings too.”
My lips trembled, causing me to pull my bottom lip between my teeth to keep them still. My eyes watered as I swallowed the lump that grew in my throat. I thought this would be easy, but I was wrong.
“You’re right, and I deserve all your anger and the way you feel about me.” I dropped my head and sighed deeply as a tear slipped out of my eye. It was my fault, and my heart broke all over again. I had caused this. “I don’t know how to fix this.” My voice cracked as I sniffed.
“I mean, what’s there to fix, Kenzlee? You walked away from me for no reason and then blocked me. You didn’t even tell me what the hell I did. How is that fair to me?”
I lifted my head to look at Nash, and the look on his face broke my heart. I was the one who caused that downcast look that was on his handsome, light-skinned face.
“Yeah, you’re right. I didn’t think about you when I walked away. All I saw was that girl my ex cheated on me with and got pregnant. You were with her, and all I saw was red. I don’t know how you know her, but you looked cozy together. Then you were shopping for baby things. I should’ve handled the situation better, but at that time, that was the furthest thing from mymind. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.” I held the things up in my hands again and tried smiling, but that was hard to do. “Here you go. I bought this for you. Take care.”
I set the stuff on the chair Nash had in front of his desk and got the hell out of there. I’d wait until I got home before breaking down. As much as I tried holding it in, the sob escaped when I made it to my car. I just knew I had to hurry home.
Why did I even think Nash would forgive me so easily? He seemed like the type that would, but I guess I was wrong again. Gosh, I felt so embarrassed by my gesture, and it didn’t work. That was what hurt me the most. I put myself out there and got shamed. Nashton hadn’t forgiven me.
On the drive home, I wiped at tears repeatedly so that they wouldn’t cloud my vision. When I pulled into my driveway, I wasted no time getting out of my car and into my house. With long strides, I made it to the couch, laid down on it, and gave in to the tears. I heard Pinks purring, and she jumped on the chair to curl up next to me.
“Pinks, I think I lost out on a good man. It’s my own fault too.”
She only purred.
I cried myself to sleep.
My eyes fluttered open when my stomach started hurting. I groaned, rolled over, and wiped the sleep from my eyes. I wondered how long I had slept. I got up from the couch and padded into the kitchen. Before I could look for something to eat, a knock came at my door. I turned my head toward the door, and another knock came. I groaned, hoping it wasn’t Farrah.I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone, not after what had happened today.
I ambled to the door to see who it was and froze. It was Nash with his hands buried in his gym shorts, waiting to be let in. I didn’t want to keep him waiting, so I opened the door and moved aside to let him in.
“Hi,” I greeted him.
“Wassup?” He came in, and I closed the door behind him.
“Umm, do you want anything to drink?” I offered. Hell, I didn’t know why he was here. I thought he said everything back at the gym.
“Nah. I just came here to talk. Now that I’ve cooled off, I can talk. If I had talked sooner, I’d probably have said some things I’d later regret.”
I nodded. “Fair enough. Okay, we can talk in the living room, but let me feed Pinks first.”
Nash nodded and went to take a seat in the living room. I took my time feeding Pinks, not knowing what was about to happen between us. He came over here, so that must mean something. Hopefully, he wasn’t here to hurt my heart again. I came back into the living room, and he had his phone out, scrolling on it.
When I came to take a seat next to him, he put the phone back in his pocket. Nash tilted his head and stared at me, making me a little uncomfortable. I shifted in my seat but stayed put.
“Let me ask you a question,” he started.
