Eli thinks on it, and then signs to me without saying the words out loud.Have you told her you’ve never had sex before? I’m grateful for his thoughtfulness in only signing, because itisprivate, and I don’t want anyone to overhear more than is unavoidable.
I think back over my conversations with Liaden.No. Not explicitly. I mean, she’s smart enough to have maybe picked up on a lack of experience, but… I make the so-so gesture with my hand.I haven’t told her outright.
“Tell her,” Leo says immediately, and Eli nods his agreement. “Since this is on the cards for you both, itisthe sort of thing she should know upfront. I’m sure she’d never judge, and if she did, well, you shouldn’t be having sex with someone like that, anyway.” He shrugs.
True, I reply. The man has a point: if I’m going to get naked with her, I need to be able to do that in more ways than just physically. It means she’ll know what to expect, or not expect, or whatever. I can imagine she’ll be surprised when she finds out I’m a virgin in my mid thirties, but knowing her the way I do by now, I can’t imagine she’d laugh or mock me. She’s more likely to be scientifically fascinated and document the whole business for an academic paper, ‘Linguistic implications for deflowering the mute adult American male’ or some shit. But I hope she doesn’t.
“OK, I’m only going to ask you this once,” Eli says quietly. “Are you sure this is what you want? Because if you’re genuinely ready to take this step, then no-one will be happier for you than me. But thisisa big step for you, and there’s no shame if you’re not ready yet, or if you want to take more time.”
I think about what he’s said. It’s an easy question to answer, really.It IS a lot, but I feel good about it. And I’m not walking away. And honestly…not to give you guys TMI, but… I WANT this woman. So bad. I think about how her lips felt under mine, so soft and warm and delicious, and how they’d feel in other places on my body, and I ache with pure want. This new, heightened lust is intense and merciless, and I love it.
Eli nods. “Then fair enough.” He clears his throat. “So how did she put her invitationspecifically? Because she might not expect a home run off the bat. We’ll still give you some advice anyway, but…”
She said we could ‘pick up where we left off and see what happens’, I reply with an uneven smile.And guys…that kiss was off the chart. I can definitely see STUFF happening, because…well, it got pretty heated. As much as I need their help, I’m not going to be one ofthoseguys with their bullshit ‘locker room talk’ about private stuff.So maybe something will happened, maybe it won’t. But I’ll be damned if I’m gonna be the guy witha gorgeous woman in front of me and no fucking clue how to make it real good for her. I am NOT going to be the only one having it all.
“Good man,” Leo says approvingly.
So, I continue, doggedly determined,I’m afraid I’m going to need excruciating and forensic detail about what I need to do, cos I’m not a hundred percent sure where to even begin. I mean, I’m not a total dumbass, and I have seensomeporn, but the women in those movies seem to immediately start howling and moaning from five seconds of foreplay, and I don’t buy it. And I don’t want her to have to fake it for my fucking ego, you know? I really like this woman. A whole goddamn lot.
I rub my face, relieved to have finally gotten it all out, and brace myself for what they’ll say.
“Yeah, a lot of pornisbullshit, generally,” Leo confirms. “Some of it is more authentic, like the amateur stuff, but in general take it with fries to go, because it’s made for instant gratification. It’s wank fodder, a bit of fun, but not sex gospel.” He smirks. “Sex gospel. Coined it, claimed it, making t-shirts.”
“No more damn t-shirts,” Eli says with an eye roll, and then turns back to me. “So, we can give you general advice, and the benefit of what we both know from our own experiences, but bear in mind these were with specific women. There’s no step by step guide or one size fits all approach. Just the opposite. You’ll need to figure out whatLiadenlikes, specifically. And although that might sound daunting, that’s actually the fun part.”
“Fuckin’ A,” Leo agrees. “How confident are you with where everything is on a woman’s body?”
I consider his question.So I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to find her clitoris, but I’m not totally clear on the G spot.
“OK, so that actually leads me to my first point,” Eli says. “What I’ve always found useful, especially with new partners, is not to just take my mouth straight downstairs as step one. WhileI’m kissing her and she’s naked, I use my fingers first. Touch different parts of her, all the parts you’ve thought about kissing, from her head to her toes, do it. And do it in different ways, harder, softer, so you can see what she responds best to. It’s a really good indicator of where and how you need to concentrate your efforts when you finallydogo south.”
"That’s good advice,” Leo tells me. “You can see what kind of pressure and speed she likes on her clit, whether she likes circles, a side to side motion, up and down, that sort of thing.”
“And then it’ll help you find her G spot, and it’ll tell you a lot about how she wants it touched.” Eli frowns thoughtfully. “Usually it’s about, what, two inches?”
“Yeah, about that,” Leo agrees, demonstrating by discreetly crooking his finger, “go pad up so you’re touching her front wall, and about two inches inside, you’ll feel an area around the size of a dime, once she’s turned on enough.”
“But the thing is,” Eli chips in, “not every woman gets a lot out of it. I’ve been with women who loved when I played with theirs, and I’ve had lovers who didn’t react. It depends on each individual woman.”
“Yep, that’s true. And if you want to know if your girl is in Team Yay G Spot or not, once she’s all warmed up and wet, do the come hither motion,” Leo mimes the gesture, “gently but firmly where we said, and trust me, you’ll soon know if she’s into it.”
OK, I reply, frantically trying to remember everything they’ve said so far. Knowing we’ve just barely scratched the surface.Sorry, it’s just been such a long time since Callie, and…we only went so far. They nod in understanding.
“Also, remember that the clit is not just the little nub at the top. That’s just the tip of the iceberg. The full thing goes deeper and stretches further.” Eli whips out his cell and shows me an image he quickly Googled of the entire clitoris, both thevisible part at the top and the hidden curves of it under her skin. Whoah. That’s…pretty incredible, actually.
Looks like a wishbone, I say, laughing.
Leo hoots. “Oh my god, it does! Behold, a new marketing campaign…” He grabs his cell and opens an app to make notes.
Eli chuckles. “But yeah, anyway, don’t just concentrate on the top. There’s so much else to explore.” He gets a faraway look in his eyes.
“Damn straight.” Leo wears a similar smile that also speaks of pleasant memories. “One long, slow lick up her pussy can tell you a lot about what’s good for her if you pay attention.”
See, this is useful information. All the stuff I’ve seen so far just tells you to concentrate on the clit, as in just the obvious part you can see at the top. It didn’t mention any of this stuff.
“Doesn’t surprise me,” Leo says, “but I’m just giving the benefit of my own meandering experience. Mileage varies.”
“Oh, while I think about it,” Eli adds, “check whether she likes direct contact with her clit, or whether she wants you to rub her over the hood. Very important to get that right, or you could hurt her a little if she’s too sensitive without.”
