Resigning from UPCLOSE, the second best. Gail never respected me as a writer, let alone a human being with feelings. I should have left a long time ago.
Pushing away Dex? I’m not sure if it’s right or wrong. All I know is, it hurts and confuses me too much to be near him, so staying away is my only sane choice.
I still can’t believe that I told Dex I was with someone else. And someone I have never met? I can’t believe he believed it. He didn’t even fight me, he just let me go.
As soon as Dex drops me off, I pull up the Misanthrope app and open it. There’s another piece of his picture clearer. I now know he has one perfectly tanned ear. There’s also a message he left before I went to the retreat.
Match 1:I hope the retreat isn’t horrible. I think you’re very brave going. Don’t do anything you’re uncomfortable with. And know I’ll be here if you need to chat.
Jane:I left the retreat. Ends up I wasn’t so brave after all.
He messages back instantly.It’s like he’s always there, waiting for me to reach out to him. I don’t know whether that’s good or not, it’s just what I need now, some sort ofconstant.
Match 1:What happened?
Jane: Whoa. That was a fast response.
Match 1: I was worried about you.
Jane: You’re sweet.
Match 1: So? Tell me everything.
Jane: I left after kissing my ex and I might have implied I was in a relationship with you.
Match 1: Are we in a relationship?
Jane: No, I’m sorry, I know we’re not. I just needed to tell him something that would settle it for good. I don’t want him to think there’s a way to go back to what we had. I hope you understand.
Match 1: I guess maybe I do understand.
Jane: So, what are your plans for later?
Match 1: Are you asking because you’re thinking of meeting up with your favorite local serial killer?
Jane: No, lol. I actually have plans to meet one of my friends for drinks.
Match 1: Your friend Julia?
Jane: No. Someone else I work with.
Match 1: A male work friend?
Jane: Yes, Match 1. A male work friend. It’s Julia’s ex-fiancé.
Match 1: Isn’t that the guy you were into before having a relationship with your ex?
Jane: Yes, but we’re just friends now.
Match 1: Does he know that?
Jane: Yes. He knows we’re just friends.
Jane: If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you sound a little jealous
Match 1: Maybe I am.
Jane: Trust me, there’s nothing for you to be jealous about.
