“I love you, too.”
“Tell me you trust me,” I needed to hear that like I needed fuckin’ oxygen.
“I’m t-t-tryinnn’,” her lips dragged along my collarbone, and I could tell she was on the verge of unraveling. “I w-want t-to, Xy, but I’m scared.”
Sticking my thumb inside of her mouth, I let her coat it with her saliva before pressing it against her second opening. “I know, but you don’t have to be,” I pushed it all the way in, making her body tense and then relax. “Angel, tell me.”
Our tears dripped onto my chest while her pussy tightened. “I…” her voice wavered. “I trust you…I do… I trust you, Xy…”
In that moment, I felt her entire body surrender to me in a way it hadn’t before. “I love you, Angel.”
“I trust you. I trust you.”
“I love you.”
“I trust youuu.”
It was like a song, her saying one thing that meant more to me than she’d ever know, and me saying the one thing I knew she needed to hear. Her pussy clenched around me, and her body melted against mine while our tears dripped together at a steady pace. Drek’s were falling from pain and release, and mine were from knowing she chose meagaindespite everything. The emotions that were bubbling in my chest were too damn intense, and it matched the orgasm that I felt about to erupt.
We were still repeating the same three words to each other when Drek’s body started trembling against mine. Her cries turned into broken, high pitched moans as her walls sucked my dick into a vice grip, her ass clenched tight around my thumb, and her body shook violently. Watching her fall apart like that because of me caused my own release to explode deep inside of her walls.
“I trust you,” she whispered, her voice starting to fade as her orgasm drained every bit of strength out of her. She collapsed into me with her breathing slowing into a steady rhythm.
“I love you, Angel.”
She released a soft sigh before her entire body went limp, indicating she had fallen asleep just that fast. Chuckling lightly, I kissed her temple repeatedly, easing my thumb out of her as gently as I could without waking her. She trusted me after everything, and I could never break that trust again. If I did, I knew there wasn’t gon’ be a next time, but I didn’t plan to give her any more reasons to walk away from me.
Chapter Eighteen
Dreka
My eyes felt like they were going to fall out of my damn head as I stared at the positive pregnancy test. Grabbing the box it came in, I checked it over to make sure it wasn’t one of those prank pregnancy tests. There was nothing that indicated that this was a fake test, which made my heart thump harder than it ever had in my entire life.
Flipping the test itself over and over again in my hand, I was waiting for ajust kiddingto replace thepregnanton the display, but nothing happened. Nothing besides the word continuously flashing at me, telling me what I couldn’t believe. Because how the fuck was this possible? Every single morning, I took my birth control, without fail. And when it was my week of placebo pills, Xy and I couldn’t have sex because my period was on.
When we were younger, that didn’t mean shit to him. If he wanted to fuck, then he would, regardless of if I was bleeding or not, but now my periods were pretty heavy, so I didn’t enjoy period sex. Therefore, we didn’t do it on my period, and yes, I knew he had been shooting my club up like he had a vendetta, but thatstilldidn’t explain a positive pregnancy test. Not when I’d been doing the very thing to prevent it.
I continued staring at the test as if I were waiting for it to tell me the exact day this shit happened. Nausea barreled through my stomach, and then it slowly started clicking. All of the emotional moments I’d been having, the cravings, the unexplained tears…it wasn’t my period about to start. It was a fuckin’baby. Xyleek’s baby. I loved him, but our relationship was just starting to pan out, so having a child with him was the least ideal thing I could think of. Yet, I knew if I told him I was carrying his seed, he’d want me to keep it, and that was the last thing on my mind.
“Dreka?” Rae knocked on the bathroom door before pushing it open and sticking her head inside. “What’s the verdict, shorty?”
My mouth opened as I slowly looked over at her, but no words came out, only tears. I dropped the plastic piece of betrayal to the floor and started sobbing like someone told me the devil was on his way to get me. Because that’s what it fuckin’ felt like. A gahdamn demon seed had attached itself to my uterus without my permission, and that thought sent me into a spiral.
Rae soothingly wrapped her arms around me, holding me tight. “Shit, Drek. It’s gon’ be okay.”
“No, it’s not!” I wailed in complete shock. “How! Tell me how! Hmm? Since you know everything and got ya fuckin’ degree!”
“Rahdreka,” she pulled away and laughed while shaking her head. “You’re so gahdamn dramatic,” wiping my tears, she squatted right in front of me. “Itwillbe okay. You’re panicking right now, and that’s a normal response,” she touched my knee cap. “But you know that you won’t be alone in any of this, Drek. You got me, Ken, your parents, hell, even Xy’s family. Whatever you choose to do, I got your back every step of the way.”
Putting my face into my hands, all I could do was cry. None of this shit was adding up, and it was even worse because Xyhad been constantly accusing me of being pregnant. Ever since Christmas morning when I had an extreme case of nausea due to the smell of ham, he’d been asking me if I was sure I wasn’t pregnant. And gahdammit, Iwassure, so I didn’t understand why he kept pressing me about it. It was almost as if he knew, but again, it just didn’t make sense.
“Rae, he would want this baby so bad,” I whispered after nearly five minutes of crying.
“He would, but what doyouwant?” She gently tugged at my hands, forcing me to look at her.
“I don’t want this baby. I can’t have it right now, not knowing if in a month or two, Xyleek is gon’ pull some bullshit.”
She nodded in understanding. “I get it. He doesn’t have the best track record, and if you’re not ready, then he can’tmakeyou be ready. You’re allowed to choose you first, and that’s okay. Especially when the relationship is already fragile. Adding a baby into the mix is gonna be the thing that makes it crack for good, orrrrr… it can be the thing that strengthens y’all’s relationship. Either way, your heart and mind have to be entirely sure about raising a baby with him.”
