"This Is the closest to heaven a man like me will ever get." River declared looking down and planting a kiss on my neck, “I might just start my own religion because of how often I find myself on my knees for you."
"You flatter me, Kennedy." I gasped like I was in an episode of Downton Abbey, "Do you speak to your mother with that mouth?"
"No, my love, as you may well know I prefer to use my mouth for other leisurely activities." He whispered and I rolled my eyes playfully before kicking him out of the room.
"You wish." I laughed.
Back at home.
"Welcome home Armani." River said once we were done unloading all my boxes, "I hope you like it here."
"I'll love it here so long as I'm with you," I assured him and he leaned in to kiss me.
He spread a blanket on the floor and I dropped a few pillows as well as he lay down with me and we talked about our future here for hours upon hours, visualising the life we were going to have.
"I love you," I said as we lay next to each other amongst the pillows with the moonlight seeping through the balcony.
"I know." He assured me, caressing my cheek, "Know that I love youmoreif that's even possible."
"I never thought I'd ever hear you say those words, I remember a time when I thought you hated me." I expressed,
"I did, Ihatedhow you made me feel again after I'd gotten so used to being numb from everything. I hated how you awakened this love in me that would never know rest again. I couldn't put it back to sleep no matter how much I tried. I hated the way that when you looked at me, I didn't feel so invisible anymore." He admitted, "I guess a part of me liked the feeling of being so sad, I found comfort in the darkness because it held me when nothing else did." He said shaking his head,
"I know what it's like you know, to find comfort in the darkness, but I always promised that I'd never feel that way again and that I'd learn to see the light in everything- even when it seemed impossible," I told him just as he turned over to check the time on his phone, 23:58 PM and he paused,
"What day is it?" River asked me,
"Why're you asking, didn't you just check?" I asked, sitting up and leaning on the side,
"Armani, what's the date?" He asked again, his eyes serious and panicked,
"I- it's December 24th." I told him and reached my hand out to stroke his cheek, "What's wrong?"
"No no no." He cursed to himself getting up and putting on his coat in a hurry, "I can't believe I forgot!"
I rushed to put on my sweater as well as he grabbed the keys off of the counter and headed into the elevator. I followed him as he was pressing the down floor button frantically.
"River what's going on?" I asked but he didn’t answer me he was just racking his hands through his hair,
"Where're you going?" He asked angrily "Just stay home okay?"
"No, I'm not going to leave you like this." I refused, just as the elevator opened and he stormed out into the lobby and I followed after.
It was raining heavily outside when he unlocked his car and I took a seat next to him in the front seat. I had no idea what was going on at all.
"River, why won't you just talk to me?" I asked but he didn’t even look in my direction,
"I'm so fucking selfish how could I forget, how could I let myself get distracted?" He questioned and I had no idea if he was talking to me or himself when he started the car and started drivingreallyfast.
The car moved rapidly down the street and he even ran a red light while not bothering to put on a seat belt. I reached over and put on his belt for him, before I even did so for myself, his safety was my priority. His eyes were frantic and I didn’t know what the hell is going on.
"River you're going too fast!" I warned him just as he slowed down and parked the car near the Père Lachaise Cemetery.
"I'm sorry Armani, I just I— Iwouldn'tforgive myself if I didn't make it." He apologized and opened up the car door, heading out into the pouring rain and I followed him.
I'd follow him anywhere actually.
Until he kneeled down at a gravestone that had freshly placed bouquets of flowers and letters on it soaked by the rain, I simply stood by and watched.
