“I’m taking you from behind,” he says. “Showing you that I’m in control. You need this, Nina. I need this.”
I can feel him get behind me and grab my hips. My body throbs with desire but my mind isn’t sure I want this. I want to look him in the eye. I don’t want to be taken from behind like an animal.
But before I can say anything, Luca brings his erection to my entrance and thrusts into me. There’s a small amount of pain that makes me cry out. Luca enters me before he stops, settling all the way inside my body. I never even knew I had depths this deep.
I cry out when he moves his hips.
“Make me proud, Nina.” There’s a desperation in his voice I’ve never heard before. “You can handle this.”
But I’m not sure I can. It’s too much, this position, for my first time.
“I want to look you in the eye,” I say.
“I am in charge here.”
“Luca,” I cry out as he thrusts particularly hard into me. He’s claiming me all the way and making sure I don’t forget it.
“It’s ok, Nina. You can take this.” His pace increases he fucks me harder. I bow my head in shame. It feels good, I can’t deny, but to be taken this way feels like an attack on my mind. This is Luca’s way of making sure I never forget who I belong to.
He thrusts into me harder and harder until I can barely breathe. I can’t even think. Everything leaves my head and is replaced with Luca’s touch.
He reaches under my body and presses his fingers to my nub. The sudden spike in pleasure makes me arch my hips back, trying to get closer to him.
Our bodies move as one, more frantically. Faster and faster.
Luca presses down onto my nub with a firmness that I need. It makes another orgasm wash over me. I cry out and fall onto my elbows, my face pressed against the mattress.
Luca lets out a low growl before he comes next.
Then everything goes still and silent.
Luca gently pats my backside before he pulls out of me. I wince from the slight pain of it. “You made me proud, Nina.”
“Why did you have to take me this way?” I whisper. “I wanted to look at you.” It’s ironic, since I feel like I’m not allowed to look at him now.
“I know. But we do things my way here. I will always do what’s best for you. Believe it.”
I want to but right now, I’m not sure. While it did feel good having sex with him, I’m also left feeling emotionally… empty. And only Luca can help fill that hole.
Only if he wants to.
After Luca leaves for work the next day, I’m left feeling antsy after what he did to me. Having sex changes everything but I thought it would bring me and Luca closer while all I feel is unsteady.
I know the reason why. Luca wants me to fully give in to him but my mind is still focused too much on my sister. I need to talk to Susanna. She looked worried for me when Dimitri kidnapped me. Is she ready to change? Because I know I am.
I write Luca a note so he knows where I am and then head to my old home. My mom answers the door right away after I knock.
“Nina,” she gasps, pulling me into her arms. It’s a safe space, especially after how Luca has been pushing me past my comfort zone.
When we part, I look over her shoulder to see Susanna standing on the stairs.
“Luca told me you were unharmed,” is her response.
“I wanted to talk with you again.”
She shrugs, always acting cold. “What’s there to talk about?”
“Susanna, please. We should try to put this animosity behind us. I want to move on from it.”
