And it gave me courage.
I went shopping with one of the female guards Ellie had hired to watch over me and the other Graves women who were recently given their freedom. Apparently, a company that solely hired female guards had reached out and offered their services at a discounted rate given the situation.
There was much more to it, but I didn’t understand it all. Ellie and Theresa both agreed they were on the up and up andtheir company could use the exposure after the sexism of that industry had hurt them. So it was win-win.
But they had been less than thrilled when I’d checked with Creed.
Yes, well, he was to be mymateand this would be someone around him as well. Of course I should have checked. It didn’t mean I doubted them or needed to ask his permission. It was simply how relationships worked.
Even I knew that and I’d beenboughtand forced to marry.
I was grateful when Ha-joon had interjected that he’d be upset if Ellie had hired a guard from a company and not even discussed it with him. Someone new in his life and he didn’t have a say in it like she didn’t trust his judgment.
Exactly. That was exactly it and I thanked him, glad when they both backed off.
Brats. Seriously, they were both a bit too bratty at times.
But after I mulled over what Alexis said, her words and faith giving me courage, I decided to just jump right into moving forward with the man who said he loved me.
No, the man who did love me. I felt it. I knew he was true in his words.
“How was shopping?” Creed asked as he worked on something. “My stomach is growling at whatever I’m smelling.” He shot me a quick look but then reached for his drink. “Leave the bags and I’ll be there in two seconds. I just want to finish—”
“I would like more of the kissing,” I blurted. “On my body. What you offered last night. I would like that kissing. The kissing you said you would do if I was ready. I think I’m ready.” I huffed and tried to channel Alexis. “I’m ready to try it with you. The oral sex.”
Creed dropped the mug he’d been holding as his mouth fell open. I winced when it shattered on the floor knowing that wasgoing to be a mess with his sweet coffee he liked and I’d really liked the mug.
But it was absolutely my fault given how crass I’d behaved.
I yelped as I was suddenly in his arms and we were moving towards the bedroom. He ripped his shirt again getting it off and started growling his words.
And I couldn’t hide my fear. He was acting too… I wasn’t sure the word. Aggressive? No, he clearly wasn’t threatening me.
I had no idea how to characterize it, but he seemed to hear me or sense my worry because heinstantlycalmed down and regained his sanity. He took in and let out a few breaths and explained.
Which I adored him for. He always did. He didn’t brush things off or ignore anything and that was… Amazing. Especially after what I’d been through, but I’d heard several times from other women in relationships that they were jealous that he always addressed things and handled any matter even if it was small.
I was a lucky woman.
And that wasbeforeI experienced how ridiculously pleasurable having Creed kiss and lick my body was. Nothing could ever compare to that.
Except he said sex could. I couldn’t fathom that, and I was glad that he admitted he didn’t know from the women’s perspective, but he would always,alwaysmake sure I had as much enjoyment from oral sex as I could handle.
I replied something crass about getting that in our mating agreement.
Luckily, Creed found me amusing and promised he’d write that part in his blood so I knew he was serious. Silly man.
But it helped me trust him. He was so genuine and adamant in this area—even more than normal—that I had faith in him that we could be normal.
Better than normal even.
Which helped us progress.
I received another round of oral sex before bed, and he also showed me why I wanted to be braless around him. I was completely convinced.
He woke me asking if he could touch me with his fingers and he wouldn’t penetrate me. It wasverypleasurable and then I received more oral sex.
Except I didn’t want it to be all about me.
