“Right, but you’re with Isaac now, too.”
I rub my hands down my pants legs, my fingers moving restlessly. “I don’t know how to explain this, so be patient with me.”
He nods.
“Have you ever met someone you had an instant connection with?”
“Hunter, I guess.”
Not loving that answer, I dig my nails into my leg so I can go on. “And what did that look like?”
“We were fast friends. We started inviting each other everywhere we went, and then we kind of stopped going places just to hang out together, and then it turned into more.”
“Did you always want it to be more?”
“Yeah. I liked him right away. I mean, he did, too. He was just—sort of determined to be straight for a while there.”
“How long did that last?” I ask.
“A few months. And then he kissed me.”
“What was that like?” I ask, positive I’m leaving bruises on my thighs.
Evan grins to himself. “Like the spark finally reached the stick of dynamite.”
I hate the implication, but I appreciate the visual. It’s the kind that’s easy for me to understand on a more visceral level. “That’s what it was like for me and Isaac the first night,” I can say with certainty.
“Yeah, I kinda figured.”
I make myself let go of my legs. “You never said what it was like for you and him.”
“You want to know?”
As much as I hate picturing Evan and the faceless Hunter together, I know what it looks like to see him with Isaac, and it’s mostly only turned me on. There was a twinge of jealousy a fewtimes, but it’s not the same kind I get when he’s talking about Hunter. Not even close.
“It was really horny,” he says.
That makes me chuckle.
“We were in the office late prepping for a board meeting, and our knees kept brushing, or he’d reach over and rub my shoulder, and I’d lean a little too close, and I realized he was hard, and that made me hard, and I was kinda like fuck it—I’m going for it. So I ran my hand up his thigh, stopping just before I got too close to anything, and he just…leaned back in his chair like —go for it. So I went for it.”
“Did you have sex?”
“No, I just blew him. Came in my pants.”
I laugh.
He shrugs, not ashamed at all. “We had sex the next day.”
“And what was that like?”
“Feeding frenzy,” Evan says.
“After the board meeting I’m guessing?”
Evan nods, shoving another forkful of his pancakes into his mouth.
“He said you guys never kissed much.”
