“I know, B.” I dabbed at the blood sliding down his chest and licked it from my finger. “But Luca is our brother. He’s family. And our family needs us to forget about her. It’s the right thing to do.”
I was rarely the coherent one. Bash usually told me what we needed to do, rather than the other way around. But he was struggling with the loss of Alex. He was looking forward to there being an us someday.
So was I.
Disappointment crashed into my chest as I flattened my tongue over his skin again. Whenever I needed a release, Bash let me do this. I’d tasted his blood dozens of times and had never gotten enough of him.
His fingers slipped through my hair. “Damian, look at me.”
I lifted my head until our eyes met.
“I think I’m in love with her.”
My heart nearly stopped at his confession. He’d known her for months, but still… Bastian couldn’t love her.
Anger furrowed my brows, and I was thankful it was dark in his room so he couldn’t see my reaction. A part of me had always been jealous of what Bash had with Alex.
He wasn’t afraid to express his feelings toward her in public. They weren’t lurking in the shadows, hiding their dirty deeds from the world.
“What does love feel like?” I asked because I had no idea.
He ripped the hunting knife from my hand and dropped it onto the bed. “It feels like… the way I feel about you, but different.”
“How is it different?” I slid off him, annoyed. “Because she’s a woman, and that makes everything right in your head?”
“No,” he growled. “Fuck, Damian. What is your problem?” Bash leaned back against a stack of pillows, blood dripping from his wound and sliding down his stomach. “I don’t have different feelings for you because you’re a man. That doesn’t matter.”
“Yes, it does,” I challenged. “It matters. Public perception is important to you.”
“We have to protect our family,” he fired back. “If The Founders Society ever found out about us, they would never let our dad and brothers join. You know that. So fuck…” He tugged at the ends of his hair. “Stop giving me shit about it.”
“Sorry,” I blurted out, but I didn’t mean it.
“Luca will never love her.” He scrubbed a hand across his jaw and sighed. “And I hate that he gets to keep her.”
I moved beside him, shoving a pillow behind me to prop myself against the headboard. “What are you gonna do about it?”
He shrugged. “What can I do? After everything Dad has done for us, I can’t fuck up his chances of getting into The Founders Society. Alex is their only option.”
“We’ll always have each other. I’m not going anywhere.”
“I know, D. Don’t worry.” His head snapped toward me. “I’m not leaving you either. But I need some time to decompress. Luca’s got my head all fucked up over her.”
“I can kill him,” I suggested as a solution to our problem.
He laughed, thinking I was kidding. Luca was my brother, but Bash was my everything. I would do anything for him. And I didn’t want to see him upset or hurt.
“I doubt Luca would be that easy to kill. That motherfucker is a demon straight out of Hell. Thanks for the offer, though.”
I lay back on a pillow, and Bash curled up beside me. He threw his arm over my stomach and breathed on my neck.
“I can’t give you everything you want,” he said. “Not now, anyway. But you and me? We’re forever. Nothing will ever change that. It’s always been us against the world.”
CHAPTER 18
DAMIAN
Alex was so fucking beautiful, lying beneath me with a sweet smile on her lips as I pulled out and slammed my cock back into her again, fucking her tight pussy until she screamed for me.
