For showing me what true happiness is.
For teaching me what really matters.
For helping me get clean.
For making me a better man.
A tear drops to the page, and an audible cry escapes.
The weight of everything sits heavy on my chest, making it impossible to breathe easy.
Everything before you feels small now. Petty. Unimportant.
I don’t want this letter to be about me. But I need you to know… I’ve grown. I’ve faced parts of myself I never would’ve looked at if I hadn’t crash-landed here.
I’d take this all back in a heartbeat if I could. Of course I would.
But not for me.
For you.
Because I’ve come out of this stronger. Better.
And maybe you’d say the same thing, that walking away from me made you stronger.
But you were already strong, Alley.
You’re the strongest woman I know.
And I truly believe that together, we can become the best versions of ourselves.
I set the letter down, my vision too blurred to read.Oh my God.I lift the hem of my shirt and dab at my eyes, catching the tears pooling in them.
I know I’ve apologized in every letter up to now.
I’m not going to do that today.
Today, I just want to remind you of what we have. Of the friendship we built. Of the love I still feel for you every single day.
I love you, Alley.
I will never love anyone the way I love you.
And I don’t want to.
I fell in love with you way too fast. God, it was fast.
And I’ve fallen in love with you all over again, every day since.
And I’ll keep falling, every day, for the rest of my life.
If there’s even the smallest part of you that still loves me… that still wonders…
Baby, I’ll be here.
I’ll catch you this time. I swear.
I’m not going anywhere. And neither is the love I have for you.
