Do I really want to go home?
Can I even leave him like this?
I don’t know where these feelings are coming from, and I hate it.
I slip under the covers, and for the first time since I met Colt, I fall asleep without his arms around me, and the distance between us feels heavier than the silence lingering in the room.
***
As the dim light makes its way to my eyes, I feel like I’m floating.
Someone is humming, but I don’t know the song.
My eyes flicker open and shut as the dim light and humming wake me fully. Looking at the empty space beside me, I hear the humming again and follow the tune toward the end of the bed where Colt’s sitting with his back to me.
I look over at the clock—five in the morning.“Colt?”
He turns and smiles. “Sorry. Didn’t mean to wake you. Go back to sleep.”
“It’s fine. What are you doing?” I rub my tired eyes.
“You’re my muse, my inspiration, and I was lying in bed, and the words just kept repeating in my mind, so I had to get them down.”
I scratch my head and yawn. “What are you on about?”
He smirks, and that bright spark is back in his eyes. “This song, Dee, it’s about you.”
I’m completely awake now.
Mouth open like a fish out of water.
Eyes wide.
“Y-you wrote a song about me?”
“Yeah,” he says, rubbing the back of his neck and looking at me with worry lines creasing his forehead.
I’m genuinely shocked and bewildered. “Um… wow! Can I hear it?” I ask quietly.
He smiles brightly, stands, and fetches his guitar. When he sits back on the end of the bed, I crawl my way behind him, placing one leg on either side and holding him in a monkey vice grip. I rest my chin on his shoulder as he tunes his guitar, anda wave of excitement surges through me, waiting to hear the words he’s written for me.
“Okay, so it’s a work in progress, but this is what I have so far. It’s a slow rock ballad,” he informs me, and starts to sing.
She came into my life one night,
And I’ll never be the same.
Her green eyes shone bright,
It was such a delight,
Now, I burn an eternal flame.
I got swept away by her like never before,
And I swear that she’s the one,
I can’t let her know how much I don’t want her to go,
