Wanted.
It was as simple, and as complicated, as that. Gabriel made Joel feel wanted.
The thought of it made him feel silly and weak and he squeezed his eyes closed, willing himself not to cry at the overwhelming simplicity of his own need.
He needed Gabriel to want him. He didn’t know why, and in this moment, he didn’t want to know why it was so important to him for Gabriel to want him, but that was the truth of it. Gabriel’s desire for him meant far more to Joel than the other man could possibly ever understand.
Joel lifted his butt, helping Gabriel pull the tight jeans down. As Gabriel crawled forward, aligning his body on top of Joel’s, Joel brought his feet up, using his toes to grab onto Gabriel's pajama pants and slide them down his legs. Gabriel kicked them the rest of the way off, lowering his weight farther. He hadn’t even realized Gabriel's eyes were still locked on his, and he had a fleeting moment of discomfort before his face heated under the lust of Gabriel's stare. Feeling empowered by the new feelings Gabriel stirred inside him, Joel reached his hand between them, firmly grasping Gabriel's cock between his fingers and giving it a long, slow stroke from base to tip. A drop of pre-cum leaked from Gabriel’s slit, and he used his thumb to swirl it around the plump head. Gabriel dropped his head onto Joel’s shoulder, fucking into Joel’s hand before stopping himself and leaning back to sit on his knees. The movement pulled his cock free from Joel’s hand and Joel brought his thumb to his mouth, eager to taste the salty tang of Gabriel’s previous orgasm mixed in with his current arousal.
Joel pushed himself up into an almost sitting position, searching Gabriel's face for a signal or cue. Unbridled lust resonated from Gabriel’s eyes and etched itself across his entire face. Joel raised himself right up so he mirrored Gabriel, and then used his body to push Gabriel down onto his back. Joel mounted him, running his hands over Gabriel’s heated skin again before sliding his body down to settle between Gabriel's thighs. Joel reached behind him to grab a pillow and handed it to Gabriel, who situated himself to see Joel clearly.
When Gabriel was settled, Joel leaned his face down between Gabriel’s thighs, and pressed his warm tongue flat against the base of Gabriel’s cock and then dragged it in one solid motion up to the tip. Gabriel sucked in a breath as his cock bobbed, and Joel repeated the action, once, twice, three times, before he finally wrapped his lips securely around the head and started to suck. Joel's tongue flirted with Gabriel's leaking slit, and he lapped up the pre-cum, then lowered his mouth farther down along Gabriel's length.
Joel pressed his hands against Gabriel's thighs, using the motion to leverage his mouth farther down Gabriel's cock, until he started to choke from the fullness of it. Joel was determined, though, opening his mouth and taking a deep breath without pulling off, slowly easing himself farther down, past his gag reflex, taking maybe another inch into his mouth. The feeling and motion of Gabriel’s cock bouncing against the back of this throat made Joel convulse, and he ripped his mouth from Gabriel, taking deep gasping breaths as Gabriel's cock bobbed in front of him, red and covered in pre-cum and spit.
Gabriel stroked his shaft once, collecting what lubrication he could, and then reached up to Joel and wiped his wet hand across Joel's swollen and parted lips. He grasped Joel by the neck, pulling him back down to his cock, and he fucked into Joel's mouth with quick and short thrusts. Joel noticed Gabriel never once pushed himself farther in than he’d been when Joel choked, and Joel realized hewantedthat moment where he was physically overwhelmed by everything that was Gabriel. He tried to lower himself to take in another few inches, but Gabriel immediately stopped him with a firm squeeze on the side of his neck. Joel glanced up at Gabriel, ready to beg and plead for him to allow the intrusion into Joel’s throat, but the look in Gabriel's eyes stopped him in his tracks.
Gabriel's entire body was taut and tense. He was practically vibrating with tension and lust, and Joel thought Gabriel looked like everything he’d ever dared to hope for in his life. Joel had never been lucky enough to get things like this before. He had never wanted somebody this way before, and he’d never had somebody want him this way.
Joel pulled himself off Gabriel's dick with a wet pop before lowering his face to the junction between Gabriel's shaft and his heavy balls. He sucked the skin into his mouth, nipping at it gently with his teeth. Gabriel's hand tightened in Joel’s hair as he sucked one of Gabriel's balls into his mouth. Joel brought his hand up, and wrapped his fingers around Gabriel's straining shaft, pulling up once, then twice. Gabriel moaned out a curse and fucked himself into Joel's eager hand as Joel sucked both of Gabriel's balls into the warmth of his mouth. He watched Gabriel come unglued with the sensations Joel was causing with his mouth, and it empowered him in a way he had never experienced before. He raised one eye, searching out Gabriel's face, and as their line of sight connected, Gabriel came, exploding with a roar.
Gabriel's orgasm leaked down Joel's hand, falling in streams and drops across his face. Joel pulled himself free from Gabriel and sat back, panting with a combination of completion and need. Gabriel reached forward so that he was sitting, and he collected the cum from Joel's face on his fingers before rubbing it slowly across Joel's lips. Joel's tongue flicked out to taste it, and with an eager groan, he threw himself forward, slanting his lips over Gabriel's. Gabriel wrapped his arms around Joel, pulling him closer without breaking the kiss. He slid one of his arms between their bodies, firmly grasping Joel's cock and starting to stroke his needy erection. Joel's lips fell slack, and he moaned deeply into Gabriel's mouth. Gabriel continued stroking Joel's cock, which was now impossibly hard and in desperate need of release.
Joel couldn't think straight. He was emotionally overwhelmed with the feelings that stirred inside of him because of Gabriel's want. It was as if all of the blood in his body was centralized in his cock, aching for, and reaching toward the release that would solidify whatever this thing between them was. Joel's breath caught in his throat as Gabriel sucked another bruise into the side of his neck, and his entire body arched into Gabriel's embrace as he came.
And came.
And came.
What had to have only been seconds, felt like hours. It felt life changing. Joel's entire body collapsed, limp and stated from his release. He squeezed his eyes closed, but was unable to stop a single tear from falling and sliding down his cheek. Joel was refreshed, renewed and rejuvenated, as though he could conquer the world if only he could remain forever in Gabriel's arms. Joel buried his face into Gabriel's chest, trying to wipe the tear away unseen. Gabriel rubbed his cheek across the top of Joel's tousled hair, and lowered both of their bodies to the bed. Joel twined a leg between Gabriel’s strong thighs, and wrapped his arms around Gabriel's waist, trying to push himself as close to Gabriel as he could. His cum smeared between their torsos, as Gabriel’s fingers softly ran lines up and down his spine. Gabriel held him that way as their breathing slowly returned to normal. As they basked in the afterglow of their orgasms, Joel was certain something monumental had shifted between them.
Gabriel took a steadying breath. “Joel, there's something I need to tell you.”
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Gabriel Doesn’t Want to Spill the Beans
Gabriel pressed his head back into the pillow and Joel’s entire body stiffened against him.
“Okay,” Joel said, making an effort to untangle himself from Gabriel's long limbs. Once Joel was sitting, Gabriel reached a hand out and grasped Joel's. He traced his fingers down the back of Joel’s hand before twining their fingers together and resting his hand palm up against his thigh. Gabriel’s face tightened in response to the tense mask that had taken residence across Joel’s normally smooth and youthful face. Gabriel tugged Joel’s hand in an attempt to bring his body closer. Joel resisted him.
“What is it, Gabriel?” Joel's voice was sharp, and Gabriel winced. This was definitely one time he didn’t like the sound of his name on Joel’s lips.
Gabriel paused. What the fuck had he been thinking, blurting that shit out after they had both come? Gabriel didn’t have anything to tell him. Well… that was a lie. Not quite a lie, maybe only an omission. Yes, let’s go with that one. It was an omission. Joel didn’t need to know Gabriel had a hand in orchestrating some of the recent problems in Joel’s life, and Joel most definitely didn’t need to know Gabriel had been watching him so closely for the past year. And most importantly, he didn’t need to know that Gabriel's younger brother was the man who’d raised him. Gabriel figured he could explain the other parts of it away, somehow, but the omission of relation by marriage? It might be the sticking point in this tentative new development between the two of them.
Gabriel wanted to tell Joel, “Oh, nothing, never mind,” but he understood Joel wouldn’t let it go. As it was, Gabriel already watched the beautiful calm of Joel’s face hardening back into that of a scared and abandoned little boy.
“I just,” Gabriel started, “I want you to know I’m truly happy you decided to stay with me.” He hoped it would be enough to make up for opening his big mouth in the first place.
“That’s not really something that warrants the kind of ‘I need to tell you something’ bombshell you dropped, you know, when we’re both covered in my fucking cum,” Joel snapped at him, trying to tug his hand free, but Gabriel resisted. Here was the Joel he wanted. The tenacious and vibrant red-haired boy in front of him had so much fire inside, and he bottled it up like he was going to sell it for a premium one day. Gabriel wanted this Joel to be the normal Joel, the Joel who was confident of what he could offer, and sure of where he was going. Gabriel wanted to get him there. If he had to fuck Joel three times a day to keep him in this mood, he would do it. Gabriel would bear that cross, gladly.
“What I mean is, I like having you here. I want you to know that. All of this aside.” Gabriel gestured to their nakedness. Again he made an effort to tug Joel back down to his chest. “It’s important to me that you know that. And that you believe it.” Gabriel smiled up at Joel and watched a piece of the mask fall away. Joel shrugged his shoulders.
“Why do you care?” Joel asked him, trying to pull his hand free to push his hair back from his face, but when Gabriel didn’t let go, Joel made a half-hearted attempt with his other hand before dropping it back into his lap.
“You remind me of me.”
“You don’t know anything about me,” Joel countered, and Gabriel gave their hands another tug, but Joel still resisted.
