I give him a gentle smile and thread our fingers together, feeling the strength in his grip, even if he’s not at his best. This man, so perfectly lost and tormented, andmine.
“I want you to have whatever you want, Ignacio. Amore Mio. If you want to get on your knees and suck Jayden’s cock, if you want to be his plaything,”—his breath hitches and I smile—“then I want that for you, too. I don’t know much about what he wants or expects. I guess you’ll have to speak with him. I know he’s a sadist, not just on the job, but in all of his relationships, but I’m not sure what that entails. You might want to talk to Donovan? He seems to be happy as Jayden’s pet.”
Ignacio huffs. “I don’t want that. I mean…occasionally, if he wants me to be, but I just want what he can give me. The sweet pleasure-pain that comes with denial, with being hurt in all the best ways. It’s not something I had to think about with Il Padrone, and it's something I can live without. It’s not aneedlike it is with Lio.”
“But it’s a want.” He nods and I smile. “Then offer yourself up, My Love. I want to see it.” He sucks in a sharp breath. “I want to see Jayden bring my Chaos to his knees. I want to see you get what you crave. Don’t you want me to be happy?”
He groans. “Watching Jayden use me like his plaything will make you happy?”
I laugh a little and nod. “Yeah, it would.”
Setting a hand on his thigh, I slide it up until my fingers are brushing against his soft cock. “Don’t you want that, too? Knowing I’m watching you get what you need? That I’ll be there to help pick up the pieces when he’s done with you? Just think of all the fun we can have when he’s had his wicked way.”
Ignacio groans when I set my hand on his dick, and as it hardens for me, I grin. “You’re a minx. Temptation wrapped up in an innocent package.”
“Nothing about me is innocent…unless I’m in trouble.”
He snorts and I brush our lips together. “You’re really okay with something happening between Jayden and me?”
“Yeah.” I kiss him hard and then pull back. “He called you my boyfriend, he knows what you are to me. He has his own pet, as I said. He’ll be your…Dom, your Master, your…whatever you want to call it. He’ll have pieces of your heart I never will, but that’s okay. I don’t want them. Not when I have the rest.”
“All of it, Little One.” Ignacio removes my hand from his hardening cock, but doesn’t let it go. “You’ll have all of me, forever.”
“Then nothing else matters. You’re mine and I’m yours, and when Jayden wants, you're his.”
Ignacio blows out a breath. “What if he doesn’t? What if this is all some elaborate game because he gets off on it?”
I snort and shake my head. “If he said he’ll let you earn his cock, he meant it. Jayden doesn’t say or do anything he doesn’t mean. He’s an asshole, but he’s not cruel.” I grin wickedly. “Unless you’re into that, of course. Which I supposed you are.”
Ignacio groans. “You’re trouble.”
“Yes, but you knew that before you slept with me.”
His face softens and he gives me another sweet smile. “Yes, I did, and I love every bit of it.”
“Good.” I press a firm kiss to his lips. “I can’t wait to see what Jayden does to you.”
Ignacio groans and rolls his eyes, but there’s a lightness there that wasn’t present when I first walked into the room. Maybe I should have figured that something was up with him, but there’s been so much going on, I haven’t had time to give my love the attention he deserves. That has to end. This whole fucked upmess we’re in…it needs to be over soon, because I want Ignacio and I to continue to grow our relationship. I want to see him blossom under Jayden’s touch.
There’s so much I want with all of my lovers, and with the rest of our family. If nothing else, I’m determined to end this for that reason alone. Because wealldeserve a chance to live, and not just survive.
Waiting in the foyer of the mansion I used to call my home is surreal. It doesn’t feel that way anymore. The comfort has turned to toxicity, and every inch of me screams to leave, to go back to where my real home is—to the men who saved me. Blowing out a breath, I try to force the anxiety away from me. Everything is so fucked up, and I can’t figure out a way to resolve it.
The door opens and Dr. Ranlen strolls inside, her signature high heels hitting the tiled floor with precision strikes. For a moment, I just stare at her. She seems to have aged years, despite only seeing her a few months ago. Her white coat is as pristine as ever, and those kind gray eyes belies a sharpness that others too often overlook. Of course, her razor-edged tongue puts us all in our place, and there’s a damn good reason not to fuck with her. I’m fairly certain the only two people whohave ever earned her smile, outside of her family, have been Allesandro and Lio. And it’s that I’m pinning my hopes on right now.
“I don’t have much time,” she says in a clipped tone, before studying me carefully. “You look better. Doc, as always, has done a great job.”
“At least, some people recognize my genius,” Doc grumbles as he joins us. I smother a smile at his grumpy attitude. I’ve become immune to it, but I almost fall over at the wide smile Dr. Ranlen gives him. It appears there are three people who have earned her respect. I’d be shocked if I didn’t know Doc was a damn good doctor as well.
“Of course. How is the patient?” Dr. Ranlen’s smile slips immediately when Doc shakes his head.
“Poor still. I’ve had to ban his uncle from visiting. Although, at least when his uncle is there, he has a reaction. Unfortunately, it’s only agitation. I’m not sure what to make of him anymore. I thought perhaps he’d snap out of it, but he’s so…docile.”
“I looked over the medication regimen you’re giving him. It’s in order, although I’m slightly surprised he’s willing to take them. He’s always been against medications, and mental health medications? I’m shocked he’ll take those.” Dr. Ranlen purses her lips as she cocks her head, unasked questions right there.
“He fought it, at first, but now, he just takes them. To be honest, I could probably give him anything and he wouldn’t care. It’s…are we sure he shouldn’t just be put down? It seems a slight waste, but at the same time, he’s not up to running a Family, even if he was allowed to keep one.”
I shake my head. “No. We’re not putting him down.”
