I was surprised that my wolf and I were not opposed to sharing her with my brothers-in-arms. I knew all of us were broken in our own way, having given up on love and settled for scraps of the feeling. Satisfied with the taste. Only now that I have had Celine, had my mouth on her and tasted her core, I never wanted another to even come near me. I just wanted her.
My wolf kept telling me to go back down there. To apologize and to make it right. Although I knew what he wanted me to do, I just couldn't do it. Signing her up for this life was too much for me to ask. I needed to be okay with how it was now.But you want more.
My wolf always made it difficult if it wanted something. If I wanted something. Always trying to find ways to get it for me, but I couldn't tie her to me like that without telling her the repercussions. Without explaining that if I bit her, that would be it. She would be mine, and I would be hers. We would be mates and forever tied together.
My wolf kept calling out,Mate. Mate. Mate. Mate.It was hurting my fucking head to keep him in check when he was pushing against me so loudly. I turned off the water and took a deep breath before I got out and got dressed.
A piece of me wanted to go downstairs, find her, and apologize profusely. Tell her that it wasn't because of her, that it was all my fault. Then I would remember how her body felt when I spotted her or the sweet smell of her sweat or the cute puff of air she let out when she worked herself hard, and my wolf came right back to the forefront, demanding we finish the job we started.
No, I needed to keep my distance from her right now. I needed to get this situation with my wolf figured out before I even attempted to be around her. My cock throbbed to be inside her. My body begged me to reconsider, tempting me to just go down and take her, the risk of the bite be damned, but I needed to be the stronger one here.
I looked out the window, seeing Gears heading to the shop, and that gave me an idea. It was an easy way to get out of the house and keep my mind and hands busy. Then, once I was entirely myself, I could go apologize. Beg her to forgive me and to maybe try again. This time, I would make sure to keep myself in check.
Now that I had a plan, I swung my door open and walked carefully down the hallway and to the front door. I paused when I heard fighting, but then I heard Celine's breathing and Dino’s cussing, and I got the feeling they were fighting something out. Good for her. It would be a lot better for her if those two started to get along. Every time he said a snide comment or talked to her in the wrong way, my wolf and I both got angry. My wolf wanted to bite his face off, but I made sure to keep my reactions on the inside. Not letting Rabid or Dino know how much it bothered me.
I followed Gears, kicking up dirt as I quickly made my way to his shop. Gears was one of the men that I felt understood me the most. Both of us kept quiet and to ourselves most of the time for different reasons. I did it because I no longer had a voice, but he did it because his mind was always thinking, always on overdrive. He didn't want to say anything he thought in case it was wrong or too much or not enough. He was always thinking so much all the time, so when I saw them together that first night, I hoped that he wouldn't ruin it, like he always did, with his thoughts.
I had selfish reasons for watching, too. I liked seeing her on display, watching her coax him and control the situation. I liked to watch her tits rise and fall. Her back bent when she was being fucked in the right spot. The silent scream she gave when she was getting close to cumming. I enjoyed watching all of that more than either of them knew, though what made me appreciate and respect her more was the fact that she didn't shame or treat Gears differently when he confessed to his disability. In fact, she was so fucking perfect that she made way for both of them to enjoy it. I know he had never had a woman do that for him.
He and I were the same like that. Broken in a way that you could easily see, that it couldn't be ignored or hidden, and it made it that much more obvious when a woman didn't like it. They would pretend they wouldn't hear us or see the signals I gave them. They would just fuck us fast and quick to get it over with, entertaining us because we were part of an MC gang. It made it hard to enjoy any of it. I had started to pretend that I had cum and then finished myself off in the shower. It didn't make me feel good and made it so I was particular about who I slept with.
Since both of us were busy with our duties to the club, we both purposely did not partake in a lot of the partying. Then she ran into the booth, and I felt something shift when I looked at her crystal blue eyes. I had the feeling that Gears also felt the same way. I had been catching him watching her with less of a critical eye and more of an interested one. One that spoke of how he might also want to make a claim on her. That's why I needed to talk to him. To sort this out before anything happened accidentally.
I got to the open garage door, heard some banging in the back, and went straight there. I nodded to the boy, Billy, who was cleaning some parts. He was a good boy, always wanting to do whatever he could to help, as he wanted to be a prospect when he turned eighteen.
I saw Gears’ ashtray on the rolling work cart, three cigarette buds all set at a perfect ninety-degree angle against the lip of the bowl. I hadn't even seen the top of his head before I heard him say, “Hey, Bricks. What brought you here?”
I sat down on the seat of some bike he had when he stood up, cigarette on his bottom lip, and looked at me with those emerald, green eyes that caught everything.
I lifted my hand and signed to him,It's about Celine. Gears nodded as his cigarette bobbed up and down. I formed the words with my hands slowly so he could get each word.
We were working out, trying to get her mind off what was going on, and it went fine up until the end.I ran my hand through my hair before continuing,I almost bit her. Gears’ eyes went wide as the cigarette dropped out of his mouth. He tried to catch it, but it was already long gone.
He straightened up, “Did you?”
I shook my head and signed,No, I stopped myself and then ran out of the room as fast as I could. He blew out a breath as he looked away for a second then looked back when I signed,I think she’s my mate.
Gears just stood there looking at me, no expression, no words, just stared at me for a full minute. I wanted to ask him what he was thinking but knew better. He would tell me once he figured it all out in his head. At the moment, I bet he was running through several different scenarios, trying to figure out which one would be the best outcome for the club. I wanted that, too, but I also just wanted advice from a friend.
Gears did the last thing I thought he would do. I watched as a big, slow smile crept along his face, his eyes shining a few shades lighter as the ideas in his head made him happy. “I think you're onto something, Bricks. I have a feeling that she might be more than just the assassin that we had to partner up with for a job.”
Then he looked in the direction of the house like he could see through walls and mumbled to himself, “But what if she isn't ready? She doesn't seem like the type to let you in easily… but maybe it will just take more of us to get through to her, not give her a chance to build up her walls. Some of us take it down brick by brick, while others just make sure any that she builds on the other side doesn't get built. Yeah. This could work, but we need time.”
Gears stared at the floor, his eyes flicking back and forth at a rapid pace as he was lost in his thoughts, letting his mind run wild with possibilities. I snapped my fingers, reminding him that I was here, and he turned back around. “Sorry, man. Sorry, but I think you did the right thing. I don't know if she is far enough in to be able to make that kind of commitment, but I think she would be open to it. We just need more time to get to know each other.”
I nodded, liking his plan already since it seemed that he also wanted to keep her. I knocked on the bike, waiting for his attention before I signed.What about the others?
He shoved his hand into his pocket to take out another cigarette and lit it up before he talked out of the side of his mouth. “Duce is already on our side right now, so that only leaves Rabid and Dino.”
Only?I signed as I gave him a look, letting him know that I knew those two would be the hardest.
He shrugged. “They might not be her mates like you, Duce, and I, but we still need to convince them that she is good for this club, that she would be an asset, and it was better to have her here than without. Once we do that, then we can tell her about it all. Up until then, we need to keep this to ourselves. I don’t want to spook her.”
I nodded again.Agreed, I signed. Feeling better about the whole situation already.I'm glad that I came and talked to you.
Gears nodded, his typically stoic face back on, though his words were a touch lighter than they normally were, “I’m glad you came to me, too, Brother.” He clapped my shoulder, squeezing it before letting go. “Who would’ve thought that you and I would find a mate, let alone one so perfect for us?”
I shrugged as I signed,Not me. I thought I was only going to only have your four ugly mugs for the rest of my life.
