“Aww come on Jax, what’s wrong with a little dick between friends?” I cooed out, not noticing my misstep in saying the word friends.
Both Ajax and Rykon stilled at that word, looking at each other, then looked away before they both complained.
“We are not fucking friends.”
“Ya, right. Friends with you two idiots?”
I know how they felt, truly I do, but at this moment I realized I didn’t feel the same hurt and pain towards them anymore. I don’t know why. Maybe it was being forced to work with them to save those kids, maybe it was competing with them for Emerald’s attention, maybe I was just plain bored of hating them. When I really thought about it, I could see that my anger back then came from a place of pain and insecurity. That wasn’t really their fault. We despised each other for so long, kept out of each other’s circles, that it’s just natural to not talk or like each other. But someone had to make the first step, someone had to put their pride on the line and I knew it wouldn’t be these two bozos.
“Look,” I sighed out, trying to reason with them and give them perspective. “We are all going on a very dangerous trip to do even more dangerous things when we come back home. The likelihood of one of us dying is kinda high. I…” I tried to think of some clever way to put this, but I didn’t have the right words, so I went with the truth. “I just don’t hate you guys. Six, almost seven, years is a long time, and I don’t feel the same way anymore.” I shrugged my shoulders at their open mouths and bulging eyes. “If we didn’t all just save a bunch of kids together, or weren’t going on this deadly and life altering mission, sure, I might still hate you, but things have changed and I… don’t anymore.”
I let out a sigh. All of that honesty and feelings really took a toll on me as I moved from the center edge of the pool. I sat a couple feet away from Rykon with Ajax on my other side about five seats away. I closed my eyes and laid my head back. Silence greeted me as I thought back to that night.
The sun's rays bursted into the room. Waking me from the best sleep of my life, I spread out, my limbs needing to stretch in the most delicious of ways. I turned my face into the pillow and smelled the scent of gardenias and smiled. My dick got instantly hard, and I grabbed out for my love.
I ended up grabbing a strong broad shoulder instead, and I cracked one eye open. It was Ajax’s shoulder my hand landed on, the spot where Mika was, empty. I sat up, expecting to see her getting changed in the room. If I was lucky, maybe she got some breakfast, but there was no one. I looked down and saw Rykon on his back sleeping where her legs should’ve been, but no Mika.
I looked around the room again for any trace of her or where she had gone, but there was nothing. There was an eerie silence in the air that I didn’t like. That felt wrong.
I spent the past two days with the girl of my dreams; dancing, drinking, singing and having mind blowing experiences with and it almost felt like a dream. I leaned back down and smelled the pillow again, making sure I didn’t dream it up and me and the boys just crashed here for the night after some heavy drinking.
My nostrils filled with that floral scent that was all Mika’s and I knew it was real. All of it was real. Then where was she?
Ajax got up, looked at the missing spot and asked, “Where is Mika?” I looked at him with a worried look.
“I don’t know. I woke up and she was gone.”
Ajax’s eyes went from sleepy to wide awake, looking around the room like I did for any evidence that she was still here, but there wasn’t any. Her clothes and purse were gone. No note was on that table and the door was still shut.
He nudged Rykon, worry entering his eyes as Rykon shot up, mumbling about still being sleepy when Ajax asked him if he knew where Mika was. That got Rykon to focus real quickly as he looked around the room and said he didn’t.
Panic rose in me, my heart pounding furiously against my chest, telling me I needed to do something. I jumped out of bed and shucked on my pants.
“Where are you going?” Ajax barked.
“I’m going to ask the Innkeeper if they saw her. Maybe she’s out getting breakfast or something.” I kept telling myself it was something simple like that. Something innocent.
I ran out of the room as fast as I could, footsteps pounding behind me and I glanced over to see Ajax right behind me and Rykon jumping on one leg to get his pants on to follow. I found the innkeeper at the front, rushing out a jumble of words as I asked her if she saw Mika.
“Oh.” She looked a little embarrassed. “She already left. She said that you all would still need the room and paid me for the day, but she said she wouldn’t be back.” My heart stopped as my whole insides turned upside down. She left. She just left us.
I stared at the lady in shock as Ajax shoved me aside. “Did she say anything about where she was going? How long she would be gone?” The desperation in his voice made her look up at us with pity in her eyes.
She shook her head but offered a small piece of information. “No, she didn’t. But she left with an older gentleman. It could have been a father or uncle. He had a cold and mean look to him, but that’s all I know.” She gave us one last sympathetic look before she turned and went to talk to some other guests.
Ajax and I just stood there staring until Rykon lightly pushed us to the stars, mumbling about our stuff in the room, but I didn’t care. The love of my life walked out on me.
All three of us walked up to the room in a daze. My mind was racing, but my body was sluggish. My stomach was in knots, nauseous and my head was lightheaded at the same time. I could tell I was breaking down on the inside and I didn’t know how to handle it.
We didn’t say one word to each other until we walked into the room. As soon as the door shut, I moved into the corner of the room, not wanting to talk or be around anyone, as my soul was being torn apart from the inside. She left. The person who had made me feel whole, had shown me what I could be like if I let go and just loved a little, disappeared without a trace. Without a goodbye or even a note. She vanished, like she had never been there.
I could feel Rykon vibrating with rage from the other side of the room, his explosive temper getting the best of him when he was stressed out. He opened his mouth and pointed at Ajax. “What did you and her talk about before we went to bed? You pulled her out of the room and said something… what was it!?” His accusatory tone had my back going up straight, ready to defend Ajax and shocked that Rykon would turn on either of us like that.
Rykon’s face pulled tight, his eyes laced with blame, but in the depths of them I could see that it was coming from a place of hurt and pain, the same pain that I was feeling right now. The same pain that I was sure Ajax was feeling.
Ajax sat on the bed, confusion pinching his forehead together as his large shoulders caved in and he thought about Rykon’s question, not even getting mad about the tone he asked it in. “I… I… I don’t know.” He shook his head as he rubbed his chest where his heart was. “All I told her was that I was in love with her. That she was my first, and that I wanted her to be my last.”
I was hurting and confused at the same time; the feelings muddling my brain as I slowly turned my face to him, needing someone to blame for this. Needing someone to pay for the darkness that had crept into my heart. “You did what?!”
