I smile. I can't help but wonder whether that will be the case.
"Still. Will you go out on a date with me tomorrow, Sebastian?"
"Yes, Daddy!"
His smile is blinding, and despite everything, it pulls one out of me too.
Fuck, he's beautiful.
"Oh, and boy?"
"Yes, Daddy?"
"No sneaking into my room to suck my cock at night."
Sebastian's jaw drops, and I chuckle at his expression. It's precious, shocked, and innocent at the same time.
"You- you were awake?" he stammers.
"I wasn't at first. But I woke up with my cock between your lips and the sound of your soft whimpers. It was the sexiest thing I've ever experienced."
"So… you liked it?"
"I did." I brush my lips against his cheek. "I want to possess your body, but I don't want you to be just someone I fuck. That's why I'm putting the brakes on tonight. Do you understand?"
He nods, smiling. "It's okay. We have forever. We'll go at your pace, Daddy."
Forever?
The word scares the hell out of me.
Deep down, I've always dreamed of my forever. I thought I had it once, until it burned to ash and left me scarred. I rose again, but not the same. My forever now looks darker, like something most would never dare to touch.
Forever feels like an illusion I'll never have.
But holding Sebastian in my lap, I wonder if maybe, just maybe, it's possible.
Even if it makes me a terrible man. Even if he deserves someone who feeds his light instead of trying to possess it.
Because the truth is, I don't think I can ever let him go. Not unless he tells me to. And even then… not without a fight.
Somewhere along the way, Sebastian became the center of my focus. And now it's too late to go back.
I don't even want to.
All I want is to do right by this angel in my lap.
Even if, in the end, I make him fall, and tarnish his light with my darkness.
Chapter eighteen
Sebastian
I'm so, so happy.
I thought I'd have to work hard for years to get my Daddy, but he surprised me by claiming me first. And oh boy, did he claim me, with those kisses and the command to not call anyone else Daddy.
After our conversation, Daddy wanted to sleep on the couch and for me to take his bed, but I refused. He can't expect me to sleep separately from him anymore.
