Robby blinked rapidly as he teared up, his heart shriveling in his chest. “If you don’t want to, I get it. I’m sure having sex with a virgin is probably boring and awkward.”
Calder grabbed Robby’s hand and brought it to his cock. “Does this feel like I’m bored? Every fucking thing you do turns me on. Three hours ago, I told you something I’ve never shared with another living soul. This isn’t about me not wanting to be with you like that, it’s about me not wanting to have to lie about what you are to me.”
Robby was almost positive his heart stopped beating. “What…what am I to you?”
Calder brought his forehead to Robby’s. “Fuck, angel. I don’t know. Special? Important? Cared for? More than you should be but too much for me to push you away?”
Robby swallowed the lump in his throat. “I didn’t mean to push you. I just want to be with you in all the ways before this goes away.”
Calder dropped a soft kiss to his lips and then sat up. Robby’s stomach sank. He bit down hard on his lip to keep himself from crying for the thousandth time. Then Calder was reaching for something on the side table. Robby frowned as Calder’s phone lit up. Was he making a phone call? Now? Robby had never been so confused. He heard the gruff greeting, even with the phone pressed to Calder’s ear.
Calder only uttered two words. “I quit.” Then he pressed end and tossed the phone aside, catching Robby’s mouth in a kiss. “If we’re going to do this, we’re going to do it my way. Understand?” Robby nodded eagerly. “I need you to trust me. Can you do that?”
“Yes. I trust you.”
Calder stared down at him for a long minute. “Fuck, you’re so sweet. I don’t know where you came from, because I don’t deserve you, but I’m glad you’re here. I need you to believe that.”
“I do.”
Calder may have just blown up his entire life, but he found it hard to care with Robby gazing up at him with those huge green eyes, swearing his trust with the solemnity of somebody swearing a lifelong vow. He kissed Robby’s forehead and then his eyelids, pushing a sweaty lock of hair off his face, before laying beside him. “Turn on your side. I want to look at you.”
Robby did as Calder asked, doing that lip biting thing that was always Calder’s undoing. His cock was already throbbing but there was no way he was rushing this. Calder rested his head on the pillow beside Robby’s, just looking at him as he ran a single finger along the curve of Robby’s hip and up the ridges of his spine up along his cheek and down again. With each pass his fingers drifted slightly lower, coasting over the generous swell of Robby’s ass, sliding up the cleft between his cheeks. Robby’s lashes fluttered, and he gave a contented sigh.
“Fuck, you really are so fucking beautiful,” Calder whispered, giving the boy an almost chaste kiss.
Robby smiled even as he looked at Calder with confusion. “What are we doing, exactly? Are you seducing me? ‘Cause I already said yes.”
Calder shook his head with a smirk. “I just want you relaxed.”
Robby buried half his face in the pillow, peeking out at Calder. “I just came my brains out. If I was any more relaxed, I’d be unconscious.”
Calder arched a brow before rolling away, kicking off his underwear that were still caught around his thighs before rifling through the bedside drawer, retrieving lube and a condom and setting them within reach. Even with only half his face revealed, Calder could see the moment the situation became real for Robby, his eyes going wide. “See, it’s okay to be nervous, but I do sort of know what I’m doing.”
Robby’s tone was salty as he muttered, “You’ve had enough experience.”
Calder gave him a playful swat on the butt, noting the way Robby’s pupils blew at the contact. He tucked that bit of information away to explore sometime later. “Listen here, sass mouth. You said you trusted me. Besides, isn’t this why you were so hellbent on putting yourself in my way? ‘Cause you thought I’d rob you of this pesky virginity?” Robby opened his mouth, his expression of denial almost comical. Calder shook his head. “Nope. Don’t try to deny it. You and the wonder twins are about as subtle as a mack truck.”
“Maybe at first,” Robby said.
Calder leaned in close, dragging his lips across Robby’s in a barely there kiss. “But not now?”
“No. Not now,” Robby whispered, deepening the kiss.
Calder continued his caresses as they kissed, addicted to the way Robby gasped and sighed and moaned into his mouth whenever Calder found a spot Robby liked. As his hands mapped the plains and angles of Robby’s body, Calder’s mouth wandered to his jaw, his ear, his neck, whispering once more everything that made Robby sexy in Calder’s eyes.
Robby’s kisses became needier, his sighs turning to groans of frustration. Any other time Calder would have grabbed him and thrown him down, burying himself deep inside, riding him rough and hard the way he’d fantasized about, but he wanted Robby’s first time to be everything he’d imagined it would be. If that meant Calder had the world’s worst case of blue balls, so be it.
But Robby was clearly losing patience as well. He was already hard again, and if he kept wiggling his hot little body like he was, it would be over before it started. Robby might have a twenty-one-year-old’s rebound time, but Calder didn’t.
Finally, Robby hooked his leg high on Calder’s hip, whining as their cocks slotted together, rocking against him frantically.
“You ready for more, angel?” Calder asked between kisses.
“Yes,” Robby moaned. “Please.”
“Fuck. I love when you say please.”
Calder picked up the lube, coating his fingers before tossing the bottle back onto the bed. He hitched Robby’s leg a little higher to slip a hand between the boy’s thighs. Calder kissed Robby once more as he slipped his fingers between his legs. Robby sucked in a startled breath as Calder massaged his hole. Robby whimpered into Calder’s mouth.
