Calder wanted to tell him he could stay forever if he liked, but he didn’t. He just closed his eyes and forced himself to try to sleep.
Robby sat up with a start, glancing around at the shadows of the room, his heart hammering against his ribcage, his body coated in a fine sheen of sweat. He gulped down deep breaths as he willed his body to relax. It was just a nightmare. He wasn’t even sure what he’d dreamed about, all he had was a lingering uneasy feeling and a body that didn’t quite realize he wasn’t actually in any danger.
At some point, he’d rolled away from Calder, but now he tucked himself in close, pressing his head to the older man’s furry chest, letting Calder’s heartbeat lull him. He tried to fall back asleep, but his brain was working overtime, playing the greatest hits of every embarrassing thing he’d done since birth. He hated nights like this when self-doubt and guilt gnawed at him like little bugs.
He distracted himself by letting his fingers trail along Calder’s chest, mapping a line between his nipples that hardened to tight peaks at his touch, down over the muscled plains of Calder’s abs to the happy trail that disappeared beneath the waistband of his boxer briefs. He bit his lip, glancing up at Calder’s face, his lips slightly parted as he took deep rhythmic breaths.
He ran his hand over the top of Calder’s underwear, squeezing his soft cock and sucking in a breath as it hardened at his touch. Was this okay? Should he wake Calder and ask his permission? Robby sighed, dropping kisses on Calder’s chest before resting his head on his belly, gently stroking him through his underwear.
“Whacha doin’ down there, angel?” Calder asked, voice gruff.
“Just playing,” Robby said, pushing Calder’s underwear down just enough to reveal the head of his cock, before licking over it carefully. “Is this okay?” Calder groaned, and Robby froze. “Is that a yes or a no?”
Calder stretched, arching his hips upward. “Yes. It’s an enthusiastic yes.”
Robby took advantage of Calder’s lifted torso, shoving his underwear down to his thighs. He got on his knees, once more darting his tongue out, tasting Calder’s skin with tiny kitten licks as he tried to figure out the proper mechanics of a blowjob. Calder’s fingers curled around Robby’s leg, his thumb skimming over the sensitive skin of his inner thigh. It wasn’t like Robby didn’t know what a blowjob entailed. Well, he at least had a general idea, but Calder’s touch was definitely a distraction he hadn’t planned for. But maybe he should have.
All Robby could do was try. He took Calder into his mouth, pressing down until his nose skimmed against the springy curls of Calder’s pubic hair and his cock shoved past his tonsils, triggering his gag reflex. He pulled off, eyes tearing as he glared at Calder’s erection.
Calder chuckled, his hand teasing at the skin on the back of Robby’s neck. “Easy, angel. Not so much.”
“I just want to make you feel good,” Robby muttered, grateful it was too dark for Calder to see him blushing.
“You don’t have to blow me to make me feel good. Your hand works too. Hell, just you half-naked and squirming your hot little body on top of me has been more than enough.” Robby knew Calder was trying to make him feel better but good wasn’t good enough. He took Calder’s spit-slick erection in his hand and jerked him a few times. Calder hissed, his hips coming up off the bed as he fucked himself into Robby’s tightened grip. “Yeah, like that, angel.”
Robby wanted Calder to enjoy their time in bed, but he wanted to know what he was doing too. Calder’s mouth had felt so good on him in that bathroom. Robby wanted to make Calder feel that good too. He pressed his mouth back down over Calder, keeping his fist at the base so he didn’t go too deep. He tried not to blush at the loud sucking noises he made as he bobbed his head.
Calder moaned. “Oh, fuck. That’s it, baby. That’s so good. Good boy.”
Calder’s praise emboldened him, and once he found a rhythm, he had Calder fisting the bed sheets and making the sexiest noises Robby had ever heard. He wanted to make Calder come. Wanted to taste it flooding his mouth, but before he could figure out how to take him deeper, Calder was tugging at his hair, pulling him back up to capture him in a kiss.
Robby found himself underneath the heavy weight of Calder’s frame, his wrists captured by Calder’s hands. “My turn,” Calder growled, biting at Robby’s jaw and throat.
Robby shivered as much over Calder’s raw snarl as his words. Robby yelped as teeth tugged at the bars through his nipples until it was just this side of painful before Calder was biting at his ribs, his hip bones.
“Roll over.” It wasn’t a request.
Robby did as Calder demanded, panic consuming him when Calder gripped his hips and yanked them into the air. Had this all suddenly escalated faster than he’d planned? He wanted to go all the way with Calder, more than anything, but weren’t they skipping some steps? He forced himself to relax as Calder spread him open.
“Damn, even your hole is pretty,” Calder muttered.
Before Robby could even respond, Calder’s tongue teased across his entrance. Robby gave a strangled moan, arching his back, pushing himself closer. “Oh, my God. Oh, my God,” Robby heard himself whispering as Calder’s mouth did things to him that were probably still illegal in most states. How could that feel so fucking good yet feel like it wasn’t enough at the same time?
Calder laved over Robby’s hole with his tongue before pushing it against him. “You like that, baby?”
Pleasure caused goosebumps to erupt along his skin and his hips swayed closer to Calder against his will. “Yes. Yes. Yes.”
Calder massaged Robby’s hole with his thumb before letting it slide down to massage behind his balls while his tongue went back to flicking over his entrance. When Calder’s hand closed around his cock, jerking him in time with his tongue, that was it—Robby couldn’t stop himself from falling over the edge with a surprised cry, streaks of cum landing on Calder’s worn blue comforter.
When Robby felt Calder shift his weight, he flipped over, careful to avoid the wet spot he made. Calder settled himself between Robby’s legs, kissing him thoroughly. “I guess you liked that, huh, angel?”
Robby could feel Calder’s hard cock, wet at the tip, pressing against his inner thigh. It occurred to Robby then that this didn’t have to be over for the night. Just because he’d come didn’t mean there wasn’t more they could do. He made a decision then. “Fuck me,” Robby said, ignoring Calder’s question.
Calder gave him a startled look. “What?”
He wanted to bury his face in Calder’s shoulder as he spoke, couldn’t bear the thought of looking him in the eye as he begged for what he wanted. But Calder needed to hear the words. He needed to know. “I want you inside me. I want you to take my virginity. I won’t tell anybody. Nobody will ever have to know but us. Please? I want it to be you. It’s supposed to be you. I’ve known it since the second I saw you.”
Calder stared at him, a thousand emotions seeming to flit across his face before he settled on a strained look. “I don’t want you thinking that you’re my dirty little secret. You deserve better than that.”
