“No, I’m pretty well versed in that,” I say, smiling. “But Tanner and I sorta accidentally discovered a new…how would you say it? Dynamic? Like, something I haven’t ever done before.”
Wick scratches his head. “Dynamic as in a brand-new position, or dynamic as in kink?”
“Uh, kink? Maybe?”
Sparrow sends me an encouraging gesture. “You can tell us what happened. Wick is a jackass, but you can trust him to keep his mouth mostly shut.”
Wick responds with his middle finger but confirms, “We’re in the trust tree.”
“Without getting too much into it, I started telling him what to do, and he started doing it.”
“You liked that?” Sparrow asks with zero judgment.
“Yes. Like, fucking blew my mind, changed my life,yes.”
“And he liked it?”
The sound of Tanner’s cum splatting on Mrs. Abrams’ garage floor has been playing on a loop in my head ever since, so…
Wick points at my expression and laughs, clapping his hands. “Good man.”
“So, it sounds like domination and submission, right?” Sparrow asks.
I flush. “I was Googling it on a break this afternoon, and…”
Wick holds up a hand. “Say no more. You start Googling that shit, and it’s hard to know what’s good and what isn’t.”
I let out a relieved breath. “Yes. Exactly. I have no fucking idea where to begin. I feel like I know less now than what we did together naturally.”
“I think where you began naturally is the best place to start,” Sparrow says. “So, how did it make you feel to have control like that?”
“It felt…right? Like, I don’t know that I’d want to do thateverytime we have sex, but we both enjoyed what we did together.”
“And you both want to have sex with each other again?”
I nod. “Tanner’s uncle is out of town this weekend, and he invited me to stay over.”
Wick’s fist pump makes me smile.
“That’s awesome,” Sparrow says. “One of the things you’ll find via Google is a bunch of acronyms for keeping things safe.”
“A lot of acronyms,” I confirm. “And, like, I put my hand around his throat because I felt super possessive. Not because I was cutting off his oxygen. Definitely not because I was causing him pain. I don’t think I’d like that at all.”
“What about that made it satisfying for you?”
I blush a little but push forward. “He’s been so brave over the last year.”
Wick and Sparrow nod in agreement.
“You can tell it’s super heavy for him. He’s figuring out that college might not be the route for him, and he’s judging himself. So, the best part for me was when it felt like I’d taken some of that burden off him. I was in control, and he could just give himself over to me.”
“You liked being that for him.”
I nod. “Fuck yes. And that possessiveness? Like a fucking drug.”
Sparrow’s smile makes me think he knows exactly what I’m talking about.
“I just…I want to make it good for him. I don’t want what happened today to be an accident.”
