“No, because having a silicone plug shoved inside my ass is so relaxing,Declan.”
He infuriates me. “If you don’t want to do this, we don’t have to. We can stop now.”
“No, I want to. I just want to be allowed to be nervous.” He huffs.
“You are allowed to be nervous. What’s freaking you out the most?” The entire time we’re talking, I’m taking the toy and gently rubbing it up and down the underside of his hard shaft.
“I think it’s the not knowing. I don’t like the anticipation.” He brings his vulnerable stare to me.
“Okay, so how about we won’t use it tonight? We’ll start smaller. Turn over onto your stomach and just trust me, okay? I’m not going to hurt you. You say stop, and we stop.”
He turns onto his stomach and I position myself so I’m straddling his calves. My hands gently massage his hips as I pull them until he’s up on his knees. I pop the cap on the lube, which causes him to jump.
“Easy, Chaos.” I chuckle.
“Shut up and do whatever you’re going to do.” He’s so fucking grumpy when he’s nervous.
I coat two of my fingers in the lube and, with my other hand, reach around and begin stroking his perfect cock. He groans into the mattress, and with my fingers I slowly begin to probe and massage as they push inside of him. He tenses as soon as I pass the first ring of muscles.
“Relax, baby. Let me in. It’s just me.”
I feel him force his muscles to relax.
“You’re doing so good, baby. You’re being such a good fucking boy for me.” The entire time I’m talking, I’m slowly stretching him out.
He groans in pleasure as his dick twitches in my grasp. Icontinue to stroke him while stretching him out until I find his prostate and gently apply pressure.
“Who does this body belong to?” I groan out. The noise sounds almost animalistic.
“You.” He pants as I work him over. “Always you, Declan.” Jake moans loudly, and that’s all the warning I get before his ass squeezes my fingers and his release coats my hand. His sets off my own, and before I know it I’m coating his lower back with my release. He collapses from under me, causing my fingers to slip out from inside of him. He’s trying to catch his breath as he’s still floating into the abyss of his post orgasmic high. Meanwhile, my mind is reeling. This man just made me come without anything but his pleasure setting me off.
I get up and quickly clean myself up before coming back with a warm washcloth and cleaning him off as well. When I’m done, I toss the cloth into the laundry basket, put our untouched toys away, and lay back in bed beside him. His head finds my chest as soon as I turn the light off and lay back down. This isn’t how we usually sleep, but he just tried anal play for the first time, and that can obviously leave people feeling vulnerable. I wrap my arms around him and hold him tight to me.
“You did so fucking good, Chaos. I’m so proud of you.” He practically preens under my praise as he snuggles in closer.
“I don’t think I’ve ever come that hard. I saw fucking stars.” He yawns as his eyes drift shut.
I smile into the darkness. “So you liked it?” I ask out of curiosity. If he doesn’t, I’ll never try again. I’ll die before I let him feel uncomfortable with me. Nervous to try something new? Sure. But flat out uncomfortable? Never.
“Yeah, Ireallyliked it.” I can feel his body relaxing into mine.
“Go to sleep, Jake. We can play more later.”
“I love you, Dec.” He yawns out.
“I love you, baby.” I rub his back softly until I feel his body completely relax, and then I follow shortly behind him.
* * *
The next day I’m walking into my office when Owen calls my name as he jogs to catch up with me. I hold my door open for him before walking in behind him and making my way to my desk. Getting comfortable, I notice that Owen is looking everywhere but at me.
“Can I help you with something, Owen?”
“Yes, sir. It’s uh– the body found this morning.” He forcibly clears his throat.
“What about it?” I ask, curious as to what’s going on.
We found another body this morning on the side of Z13. He was young, probably about the twins’ age. From what we know, Liam Kelly wasn’t associated with the BOCG or any other crime group. We aren’t sure if this was a random attack or the group of kids that we’ve determined are just trying to get noticed by the big dogs. We don’t know what they want, but it’s pretty obvious that they want to be noticed.
