My shoulders climbed toward my ears, and I wished I could shrink to the size I actually felt.“I would not be cool about it.”
“No, you wouldn’t.And you’d be dead to nuts right not to be.You’d be having a come to Jesus talk with me so fast.I’m worried for you.”
“I know.”
She sniffled.“This is what you want?”
“So badly,” I admitted through the tightness in my chest and the vulnerability of admitting it.
“Okay, then what does this mean?Is he moving here?”
“I think I might stay ...”
“InMichigan?Hours away from me?”
“Maybe?”
“I’m going to kill him.He doesn’t get to take you away from me.”
“It’s not just him.I’m really starting to love it here.He offered to move, but I travel for work, so it doesn’t make sense for him to uproot his life.”
“But it makes sense for you to?”she demanded.“Listen to yourself.”
“We haven’t fully decided,” I argued.
“Okay.”She heaved a sigh.“Okay.I don’t like this, I think you’re being ...I don’t know.Spontaneous and chaotic and reckless.”
“Jesus, don’t hold back.”
“I will not.”
I chewed on my lower lip, this was about how I expected this conversation to go but it didn’t make it any less uncomfortable.
“But that’s who you are, and I love you for being so wildly messy.And I’ll have your back ...always.I’ll wear a bridesmaids dress if you marry himagain,or I’ll hold your hand if he makes you cry.”
“Sadie,” I whispered her name, my throat too tight to say more.
“If he fucks this up, I will wound him.”
I let out a watery laugh.I was fighting back my tears like my life depended on it, because she was not going to make me cry standing outside the fence of a playground.When I could trust my voice not to wobble, I said, “That was slightly more threatening.”
“Threatening implies that I don’t actually mean it.”
“How’d I get so lucky?”
“Because amazing people find amazing people.”
“Ugh.I freaking love you.”
“I freaking love you too.”
I started walking back toward my car parked at the library with its giant stone bricks and pillars flanking the front door.It was an incredible building.I didn’t know how it ended up being built here but it was obviously loved by the community.
“Congratulations, by the way,” she said, her voice a little more normal.
My eyebrows shot up.
“Not for whatever the hell is going on with you andRemi—”
