She’s drawn a winking smiley face underneath it and I’m so going to killll her!
“Everything is filed, Rain. You’re ready to open. Now take that ride with me…please?” He asks softly.
I want to spin on my heel and stomp away. I want to tell him to go to hell but Maggie’s right. I’m about to start a new chapter of my life and I shouldn’t do that with a cloud hanging over my head so I hand him the folder and take the reins from his hand.
Maple steps up to me and nods her head a few times before pressing the flat of her forehead against my chest. My hands come up to rub along the smooth sides of her face and I whisper to her, “Hello, sweet girl. I missed you too.”
Chase comes back from tossing the folder in the barn and asks, “You need a hand up?”
I roll my eyes at him and slip off my flip-flops then tuck them under the back of her saddle. I put my bare foot in the stirrup and grab the pommel to swing up onto her back. I scratch gently down her withers with my nails and take the reins Chase hands to me. Once he’s mounted, I click and nudge Maple to follow him.
It’s unnecessary really as she’s the perfect horse and doesn’t need much guidance from me other than a soft pressure on her sides from my knees. He takes me out across the fields and I sit easy in the saddle when he makes no move to talk. I soak up the beauty of the land as Maple rolls gently underneath me. A sense of peace, of rightness, fills me. It's been ten years since I sat a horse and now I’m wondering how I went so long without it.
He brings his horse to a stop on a ridge overlooking a valley of wildflowers with a creek running through it. It’s a pure God-touched view. We sit on our horses quietly just absorbing it for a few minutes before he starts talking.
“It didn’t break me when you left. It hurt, it hurt so fucking bad I could barely breathe but it didn’t break me. For most of my life I’d look at you and know that you were the one, the forever one but when you didn’t come back, what hurt me the most was finally understanding that I wasn’t your one. You didn’t want the one to be me. What broke me was not losing only you but losing them too. Rex left a week after you did in the middle of the night and then Luke enlisted and left shortly after that. My whole world, everything in my heart - just went away and I was left here all alone. That’s what broke me.”
He finally turns to look at me and I see the devastation I caused in his face. I make no move to wipe away the tears that start to fall. It’s a punch to my chest that he’s brought me out here to tell me he’s done. I knew it was coming but I didn’t brace hard enough. I hook a leg over the saddle and shift so I’m sitting sideways in it. He deserves my full attention and I have to face this head-on.
“When you came back and we found out the truth, it took away the feeling of being mad at you but it didn’t erase the years of pain I lived with, I was relieved to have you here again but I was scared to have you here again, too.”
He reaches across the space between us to cup my cheek and swipe away some of my tears.
“It took me seeing Rex and Luke with you to understand that what we had…have…is stronger than any goodbye, stronger than the years we lost between us. The four of us have always belonged to each other and I know now that to make me the one for you it needs to change from the one to the three. It’s all of us, Rain. It doesn’t work unless it’s all of us. I’m asking you to say I can be a part of that because I don’t think I’ll survive this time without you, without all of you.”
I suck back a ragged breath that this isn’t goodbye and he drops his hand from my face to my ass and with an impressive show of strength, sweeps me from my saddle across onto his lap. I maneuver my leg to the other side of him until I’m straddling him, wrap my arms around his waist and bury my face against his chest. My breath hitches as a sob tries to break free because I can’t, I can’t give him, any of them what they want. His hands rub my back, then my sides as I cling to him but then he forces my chin up.
“I love you, Rain. Nothing will ever change that. You’ll own every piece of me until I take my last breath.”
His lips come down on mine, hard, brutal, and fierce - like he can prove the truth of his words with his kiss. I let go of all the things I can’t give him and offer what I can. His hands are in my hair and his tongue tangles with mine and his hard bulge presses against my core. I take it all, I take what he offers knowing that when it’s over and I tell him the truth, I may never get to have this again so I take it and I drown in him.
My lips slide from his so I can kiss his jaw and down his neck. He presses a knee to the side of his mount and it turns. A quick look shows me Maple following us as we ride across the field. With every roll of the saddle, Chase’s hard length presses against me and I feel a savage desire to take it out and ride him right here on the back of his horse.
His fingers tighten on my ass like he can read my mind and I gasp a desperate breath into my starved lungs.
“Chase…I need you.”
He makes a low growl in his throat that has my pussy clenching in need.
“Slide back, baby.”
I push back until the staddle horn jams into my ass with my hands on his shoulders to keep my balance. He unbuttons my shorts, unzips them, and then those big strong hands grab hold of either side and rip them straight down the crotch. I let out a squeak of shock that has his mount side stepping but these horses are mature and have plenty of experience so he doesn’t spook or move from his steady walk more than that.
Chase pulls my thong to the side and dips those strong fingers through my wet heat.
“So wet for me, baby. So soft and hot. Take my cock out, Rain. I’m not waiting one more minute to find out what it feels like to be inside you.”
My fingers fly to unbuckle his belt and get his pants open. I peel it all back as far as it will go and drive my hand into his boxers to free him. I stroke his hardness, gently pulling a hiss from between his teeth.
“Up, baby, up,” he tells me, putting a forearm under my ass to lift me enough that I can get the right angle. I can’t help but gasp when the blunt head of his cock spreads me apart and he slowly lowers me down on his lap until his cock is seated to the hilt inside of me. We both moan and I kiss along his jaw and down his neck, pulling his t-shirt out of the way so I can lick and nip at his collarbone. The soft rocking of the horse is a gentle tease that has me begging for more.
“Chase, Chase I need to move, I need to feel you move inside of me, please.”
He grunts against my hair,
“Hold on, baby. Hold on tight.”
I feel him kick the side of his horse slightly and then we’re moving faster in a canter. I hold tight to his shoulders and every roll of the horse’s body has me lifting as his hips roll up to meet me. His cock drags over all the right spots inside of me but it’s still not enough so I wrap an arm around his neck to anchor me and reach between us to rub at my clit causing my pussy to spasm and clench around him.
