“Fuck! Fuck, Rain, don’t stop, baby. I need to feel you come apart on me. Fuck me, when I get you back to the house I’m going to suck that pretty little pussy into my mouth and lick you until you scream for me to stop.”
My head falls back as the horse goes into a dip and surges back out causing it to feel like his cock is in my stomach, he goes so deep. His heavy breathing is a roar next to my ear as his fingers dig deep into my ass, spread my cheeks and run over my back entrance. My eyes see the dark clouds above us as a storm builds to match the one inside me.
“Come, come now for me, baby!”
He presses against that secret spot and fireworks go off throughout my body as I claw at him through his shirt.
“C-Chase! Fuck, Chase!”
I cry out as the power of my release rocks through me like lightning. Thunder cracks in the distance and the skies open up, sending rain down on us. I bounce limply against him even as he’s still rock hard inside me and then his strong rough hands are lifting me up and off him. I whine for the loss of his furious heat inside of me and then he’s passing me off to other hands and I’m sliding down a different hard wet body.
I stagger back and glance around. The cool rain is soaking me, clearing the orgasmic haze from my eyes and I realize that Chase has brought us back to the barn. He slides down from his mount tucking his dick, still wet with my release back into his pants and zipping them up.
Luke and Rex are there waiting for us and as I meet each one of their eyes one by one, I see that look, the one that says they’re going to ask me for more, demand more than I can give to them. I start shaking my head and take a step back.
“Rain, don’t!” Luke says softly and the yearning ache in my chest for him, for all of them…it almost brings me to my knees.
“Baby, this will work. We can be together, all of us,” Rex tells me with hope in his eyes and I take another step back.
“You’ve always been our girl, Rain. Let us give you everything.” Chase says as he reaches a hand to me.
I shove my wet hair from my face and growl out a frustrated noise. I can’t fucking do this!
“And then what?” I scream. “We just fall right into the old pattern? Because we would. I love you so much that I wouldn’t be able to help myself.”
I look to Luke. “I would make sure you were okay, safe, loved. I’d sacrifice everything to make sure it stayed that way.”
My eyes go to Chase even as Luke opens his mouth to dispute that.
“When I wasn’t doing that, I would put my all into soothing you, managing you to make sure you didn’t wind yourself so tight that you’d snap and lash out at the rest of us.”
I turn to Rex.
“Reining you in, making sure you didn’t do some wild thing that would get yourself hurt or worse. I would change myself piece by piece to be perfect for what you all need because that’s how strong my love is for all of you. I’d give up all that I am, all that I found in myself to make sure the three of you never know another day of pain.”
I swipe away the rain from my face and spin away from them screaming to the storm in frustration.
“Change the way I speak, the way I dress, what I eat, how I spend my time. Piece by piece I would go back into that box to fit others and lose ME again!”
In the back of my mind, I know I’m not being fair to them by lumping my baggage from Jason in with the bags I carry from them but it’s all wrapped around me, tangled in a vine of fears.
A hand on my shoulder spins me back around and Rex gets in my face. His ocean eyes are equally furious and desperate.
“That would never fucking happen! None of us will ever want you to change. We don’t need you to be perfect, Rain, we need you to be you, any version you want to be as long as it’s real! Laugh as loud as you can, curse every other word, wear whatever you want to wear because all three of us can fight, baby. Eat cake for every fucking meal and give us more curves to grab on to. As for my wild ways, the only wildness I want is you in my arms. We just want you, every version of you and that’s perfect to us.”
Luke pulls me from Rex’s grasp.
“I don’t want you because you take care of me, Sunshine. I didn’t fall in love with you because I was lost or broken. I fell in love with you because nothing made sense without you. You are my home wherever you are, whoever you are. I don’t need you to fix me. I need you to let me love you. That’s all I need from you.”
My tears mix with the rain pouring down my face as Chase takes his turn. Luke lets me go so he can wrap an arm around my waist and pull my shivering body against his. His eyes are as calm and certain as I’ve ever seen them before.
“Trust us with you, Rain. Trust us with everything you are and build a future with us where we will never try and mold you to fit into any box. We’ll burn all the boxes, we’ll stand on the ashes, lift you high on our shoulders and support you so you can be any person you want to be. You will never have to choose between loving us and being who you want to be as a woman because all three of us choose you.”
I throw my head back and let the rain pour over me, washing away all my doubts, all my fears and just like my namesake is doing, I let myself fall. When I pull my head back to face them again, I know the only answer I can give.
“Then I choose you all right back.”
Rain
