The warmth moved through me like a gentle river, caressing each fiber of my being as it continued to spread from my core outward. All of my concerns and fears were dismissed from my mind, and it was almost as if I could feel them being ripped away from my subconscious as they faded away. With each passing moment, I felt more and more relaxed, until finally, I was at ease.
“Next, I want you to pull all of the light you feel within your body right now to where your power resides within you. Picture the two morphing into one.”
I gently pulled the light to fuse with the faint glowing purple ball in my mind’s eye. The violet energy pulsed steadily in time with my breathing.
“Good, now I want you to use that energy and imagine your dream home being built with it in as little or great detail as you desire. This will be where you return to in your mind when you need to ground yourself, so ensure you feel safe and warm within the home.”
That was easy. I’d always been a dreamer, and as I pictured the home I’d always imagined for myself and my monsters, my heart began to soar at how real it felt. The house itself was actually one on a street I had passed after leaving my childhood home. At the time, I’d just graduated high school and was going to my new dorm at college. The moment had always stuck with me since I stopped in front of the house and admired it.
I told myself that one day I would live in a home like that, no matter what life threw at me next. Even if I lived in it alone, a place like that would be my refuge.
The modern cottage-style home was a beautiful sight. Its white stone walls and black roof were in elegant contrast to one another, while the black-framed windows around the house gave the building a sharp, sophisticated edge. A white, brick chimney on the roof completed the look, giving the house a timeless look. A small porch extended off of the front with a few steps descending down.
I swore I heard a soft gasp from Ariel, but I ignored it, too happy to be mentally with this home.
“Now…” she started to instruct, but paused. After a long, quiet moment, she continued, “Now, I want you to picture the inside.”
Shifting my focus, I was suddenly transported inside of the home and was met with a blank space to work with.
Within moments, it came to life with a cool, neutral palette of white, gray, and beige covering the living room. Exposed wooden beams ran the distance of the cathedral-style ceiling, making the entire room feel massive. Next was a fireplace that connected to the chimney I pictured on the roof. Flames roared to life in the hearth, giving off comforting heat instantly. A large, leather couch sitting on a woven, beige area rug came next, flanked by two cream armchairs.
I continued through the home, giving the kitchen vintage fixtures and a farmhouse sink but leaving the shelves open on the walls. When I reached the bedroom, heading through an arched doorway, white-washed wood paneling adorned the large wall opposite of me. Next, I placed a massive bed with a rough, exposed-wood headboard and a white down comforter. I mixed in a burnt orange throw to the bottom corner and matching throw pillows, scattered with cream ones, to the head of the bed.
Satisfied with the details, I murmured, “I’m done,” while falling back onto the bed and imagining myself bouncing slightly.
“Very good, Alexandra,” Ariel praised. “I can see how detailed you made your space. That’s great. The details will make it much easier for you to connect to the safe space next time. Now I want you to feel the joy being in this safe place gives you.”
My chest exploded with gratitude in abundance.
“Next, I want you to repeat these affirmations after me, but to yourself in your mind. Let your mind be open to any thoughts that come along with these. Do not force them away or suppress them. They just are. Throughout this process, I will slowly allow your emotions to return to you.”
After clearing her throat, she began. Her voice was soft and comforting as she said, “I deserve to feel the peace this home provides me, not just when I am inside of it, but everywhere.”
I deserve to feel the peace this home provides me, not just when I am inside of it, but everywhere.
It would be a dream to feel this centered and whole all of the time.
“I am surrounded by loving and supportive relationships.”
I am surrounded by loving and supportive relationships.
My three monsters flashed through my mind first, making me smile in an instant. Next came Alora, Alina. My gratitude only multiplied as I thought of Ama, Zurie, her mates, and Ris. Their unwavering support and the way Zurie came to my defense when Ariel announced she was taking me from her home, like a mother bear protecting her cub.
“I am powerful and capable all on my own.”
I am powerful and capable all on my own.
Goosebumps covered my body as we continued.
“No one can stop me from achieving my dreams. They are mine to control.”
No one can stop me from achieving my dreams. They are mine to control.
“Alexandra, with the knowledge that all of those affirmations are true, tell me what you want to manifest.”
My answer came to me instantly. I’d never had outrageous goals, just simple ones from the heart. “I want to be in this home, surrounded by my mates, friends, and family at the end of this, celebrating the new life ahead of us that is ours to build.”
Her next instruction was short, but I immediately felt the power in it. “Now change the wording from want to will and remember how strong and capable you are when you say it.”
