“I can’t let you continue to ruin me, Aubry… if you said this shit a year ago, I’d be dumb enough to go along with it. I’d probably be happy as hell and jump for joy to have you back. Now, I don’t want you. I want my daughter?—”
“In order to have her, you’ll have me…fall back in love with me.” He cut me off abruptly.
Who the fuck do he really think he is?I asked myself; I shook my head in disbelief.
“You drugged me weeks ago, Aubry.” I stated lowly.
“I gave you ecstasy to enjoy me…I hate when you get all in your feelings when we fuck. I just gave you something to loosen up.” He admitted.
The look on his face said that he’d do it again if he had to. I became disgusted with myself for ever falling in love with this man.
“Your manipulative, and abusive…You’re not the man that I fell in love with when we were young.” I confessed as more blood from my nose seeped into my night shirt.
“I can go get help.” He stated, with a slight edge of desperateness.
“That won’t work either, Aubry. Because of you, our daughter got secretly abused because of the hate that your wife had for mebeing your child’s mother…because of her unfaithful husband not being able to keep his community having dick in his pants. I’m sick of you, tired of being subjected and controlled by you.” I sighed and laughed mechanically.
“You ain’t got shit, and you can’t go against me in court.” His voice elevated.
Ahh there goes the real him!
“You should feel honored, cause on some real shit you lazy as fuck. Me wanting you, is like taking on another kid. You’re not stable, and not a good role model formyLo Lo.” He sniped.
“I got five thousand dollars saved…” I smiled tightly.
“Once I save up enough money from doing hair, I’ll be able to get my own place. I’ll be able to show the courts that I am a stable fit parent. I’ll take your dumb ass back to court and at least get fifty-fifty in custody.” I quickly stood to my feet.
“I’m going to saw off the chain that you keep wrapped around me... When it comes to my daughter and my pussy, you will no longer fuck with me.” I spat.
Shamelessly, I took off my night shirt and used it to wipe the blood off my chest, mouth, and nose.
“I love you, Truly.” He uttered firmly.
“I loved you too, I was super in love with you…loved you more than I did myself. My love was never enough for you. I overlooked a lot and always used the little bit of good you showed from your parenting to Lo Lo to blind myself to all the bad and ugly that radiates off of you. You can threaten me; talk to me all fucked up and try to make me feel low… none of that shit will work anymore… the only thing that has kept youhitting this was you using our daughter against me…keeping her from me really sped up the process of me getting over you. Fuck closure, and fuck knowing the why’s…I just want to see my daughter more so she can feel my love like she gets to feel yours.” I spat out with so much conviction I felt high.
I felt high off of courage, it felt like the bricks that weighed me down had been lifted up off of me. I stunned Aubry to silence, and I rejoiced in it. I silently moved around my room with him sitting in the same spot sulking and probably plotting.
“Oh and, Aubry,” I turned and waited for him to look up at me before continuing. “Next to that fake flower, I installed a camera.” I lied smoothly.
“Calissi loves to come in my room and steal my things.” I smirked evilly.
“That camera is connected to my phone so when I leave, I can watch my room and listen to what the fuck is going on. It’s something like a ring camera; I can save and process footage. You just admitted to your wife abusing my daughter which makes you unstable as fuck to have custody full time.” I raised both arched eyebrows at him.
“I guess we can say fuck the courts after all…the only difference is I’m not fucked up like you…I’d never keep our daughter away because I know how much she loves you.”
“That was Ashely, not me! It wouldn’t hold in court.” He spat.
Maybe he was right, I searched my brain quickly then continued my antagonizing smirk.
“That may be true, but…you also admitted to drugging me as well.”
His bottom lip hit the floor.
“Stop fucking with me, the threats stop…all the bullshit that you do stops!”
Fuck him and his feelings… I thought before grabbing my clothes for the day and walking out of my room to handle my hygiene so I could be with my Lo Lo. Sure enough, I knew that Aubry was searching his brain to go up against me just because he wanted to control me. He could call my bluff, but something inside of me whispered he wouldn’t.
The surprised look in his eyes, told me that he believed every word I said about the camera being planted in my room. I just hoped that my little big lie would bring a little bit more peace and time with my Lo Lo.
