He has to move. Now.
With a soft grunt, he holds her hips and thrusts up, making her gasp.
“You feel so good,” she whispers. “God, you feel so good.” Her vocabulary is also operating at a first-grade level.
He rolls his hips up into her again, watching her body respond. She lets her head hang back and he can’t help reaching for her neck, running his hand down to her collarbone and between her breasts, which shake slightly as he moves again.
“Look at us.” He moves his hand to her head, tilting it down. “Don’t close your eyes. Look.”
“Josh!” She tenses around him again. “Shiiit…” she breathes out.
That fucking does it. He has to be on top.
“Hold on to me,” he says, pulling her back into his chest. She rests her chin on his shoulder, clinging tightly as he standsand, for a brief moment, contemplates using the wall, butno. It’s not the right time for that. He turns them around, lowering her down until she’s on her back. He rests his weight on his elbows. Thank fucking God he’s been doing planks.
“Okay? Can I—”
“Yeah.” She wraps one of her legs around his waist, pushing her heel against his back.
Finally, he moves the way he wants to. Not too fast, but deep. Really fucking deep in her. She meets each of his thrusts, the crown of her head just barely bumping up against the headboard each time. It’s a little mesmerizing.
Her left hand grabs at the corner of the mattress, like she needs something to hold on to.
Josh grasps it with his right hand, intertwining their fingers.
She can hold on to him.
They move together without speaking. Not that there’s total silence. He’s quite happy to have only their breathing and moaning reverberate around the room.
Actually,fuck, he’s being pretty loud right now.
Maybe that’s why Ari turns her head to the left, breaking the eye contact they’ve been holding. Is she trying to imagine she’s somewhere else? With someone else? Someone with enough self-control to not lose his goddamn mind over missionary sex?
Then he follows her gaze and realizes what captured her attention. She’s looking at their clasped hands. Her eyes are welling up.
The icy shard of anxiety stabbing at his brain melts into warm water.
She waited for this, just like you did.
Yeah, he’s not going to last much longer.
“I want this, Ari.” Words are tumbling out again. “All of it.”
She turns her head back up to face him, letting out a sob.
“Josh…” she chokes out. “I-I’m…”
He moves faster, losing some control, unclasping their hands to focus his fingers on her clit. His, uh, technique lacks some of the nuance he’d demonstrated before, but he can already feel the pressure building in his own body.
“I know. I feel you. You’re so close—”
She babbles nonsense syllables he wishes he could decipher. Not that he’s making much sense, either.
What a fucking stupid and amazing idea this was. It doesn’t matter that the rest of his life is in shambles, as long as he can have this.We fit together—we literally fit together.
“We’re so good for each other,” he says, opening the floodgates. “I know it. It’s—”
“Josh…”
