I nodded once, choking back sobs. A stray tear escaped my eye, then another, and soon, my face was soaked. “Thank you, Daddy,” I managed in a crackling whisper.
“Of course, baby.” They reached up, swiping their thumbs across my wet cheeks. “Chase told me he’s willing to fly me back and forth, and I have no doubt he’d fly you out if you decided to follow me after I left. So seriously, take all the time you need to decide. I don’t want any anger or resentment between us.”
At that, they leaned forward and pressed their lips to mine.
My heart was breaking, but I needed this connection. I needed to know that what we had was real, that they were real. I needed a memory to hold on to when they were thousands of miles away and living a life I could only dream of.
I moaned as Atlas’s tongue prodded my lips apart, and their tongue danced with mine as they pushed me backward toward their bedroom. I loved the feeling of this much smaller human manhandling me. Not only was it indescribably hot, but it also made me feel tiny in the best of ways. It made me feel wanted, too, special. It made me feel loved.
I loved this beautiful person. I loved the sunshine they’d brought into my life. I loved the way they ordered me around, humiliated me, degraded me before praising me for being their little cum slut. I loved the way they took me in hand and reddened my ass to get me out of my head.
I lovedthem.My heart was unequivocally theirs, and it might always have been, even back in high school when I’d longed for them from afar. That crush I’d secretly harbored all those years ago had finally become reality.
And yet . . .
I’d backstepped all the way to their bed, and when my legs hit the mattress, Atlas shoved me until I crashed backward, falling in both body and soul. I’d fully fallen forthem, and while that was absolutely true, I also knew I couldn’t move across thecountry with them. I would stay here in Gomillion, in my boring life, because that was what I’d always done. That was who I was.
Miles, who never made waves. Miles, who’d always sacrificed what he’d wanted for others. Miles, who always did the safe thing because that was what he needed to do to survive.
Atlas stripped off their beautiful silky suit piece by piece, and my hungry eyes ate up the sight while my stomach rolled. Why did the thought of them leaving without me hurt so goddamn much? I knew it was the sensible decision, therightdecision.
Wasn’t it?
“Miles,” Atlas breathed, and the sound brought me back to the present. I was nearly certain I would be staying here when they left, but they would be gone in merehours, and I determined then and there not to waste them. If this was one of the last nights we would have together, I was going to be here with them completely. I would give them everything I had, even if it would kill me when they left.
Because it was going to kill me whether I did or not.
Chapter seventeen
Miles
Ipushed down my sorrow, misgivings, and pain, compartmentalizing them, shoving them in the box where I’d put uncomfortable feelings all my life. And with a couple of blinks, my mind was clear, and I simply stared at the beautiful human standing bare in front of me. Their dick was hard and leaking, glistening with precum I wanted to lap up.
Launching off the bed and to my knees, I closed my mouth around the tip of their dick and licked and sucked, tasting the delicious flavor of their arousal. They moaned as I made love to their gorgeous cock, but I wasn’t letting up, determined to get as much of them inside me as I could manage.
Atlas’s hands dug into the hair I’d worn down today, and when they tugged on the strands, I groaned, sucking them into my mouth and down my throat. They were cutting off my air, but I didn’t care. I didn’t need to breathe; I just needed them.
“Miles, baby,” they cautioned, tugging on my hair, but I wasn’t listening tonight. They weren’t my Daddy right now. We were just two people in love, though it wouldn’t be fair to either of us to speak that truth after everything, knowing we would soonpart. Instead, we were saying goodbye in the best way we knew how.
But they pulled harder, forcing my mouth off their cock. I gasped when it popped free, sucking in air I hadn’t known I’d been missing. My vision was swimming.
Their right hand dove through my locks to the nape of my neck, and they clutched my hair with the most delicious viciousness. I cried out at the glorious pain as my eyes shot to theirs and their gaze bored into mine, serious and almost angry. “Miles, you couldn’t breathe. You cannot take a risk like that.”
“Atlas—”
“Until you say the word, boy, I am your Daddy. And you listen to Daddy or risk the consequences.”
I gulped, keeping my eyes on theirs. And the words I didn’t know I’d been holding back since they’d told me their horrible news came tumbling out. “You don’t want to be my Daddy anymore. You want to leave.”
Atlas’s eyes flashed, pain slicing across their features. “You know that’s not true.”
My chest started heaving, but I stayed on my knees. Despite my words and the storm raging inside me, he was the Daddy here, and I wouldn’t take advantage of my larger size to try to tip the power scales. Instead, I let my words speak for me. I gave voice to all my fears and insecurities, because what was the point of keeping them in now? Atlas was leaving anyway. “You’re abandoning me,” I choked out, cries cresting and escaping before I could stop them. “You don’t want me anymore.”
“Oh, sweet boy,” Atlas keened before falling to their knees in front of me and pulling me into them, wrapping me in a hug. The minute their arms encircled me, I broke down, sobs wrenching from the very deepest part of my soul.
And as I cried, I pled with them, begged unashamedly, though I knew my words weren’t fair. I just couldn’t seem to stop myself.“Don’t leave me, Daddy. I need you. We were so good together, Daddy. I just don’t understand how you could leave if you care about me like you say.”
They cooed and soothed me despite the inescapable truth that I didn’t deserve it, smoothing my hair until I started to quiet. When I was nearly silent, though my tears were still streaming, they spoke. “Oh, baby. I do care about you, so much more than you know. This is just something I have to do.”
