She’d felt the baby moving and didn’t tell me.
Well, she wanted to surprise you, but like the arrogant ass you always are, you brushed her off.
I don’t know if this inner thought is my own or Sparky’s, but I ignore it. Besides, Iwouldhave left immediately if I’d known her surprise was about the baby.
Sadness falls on me like a cloak. I’d have really loved to share that precious experience with her.
Why are you even on Mars? Mingling with people who hated her, mightstillhate her— and you too? It would’ve been a lot less work fortifying the cave on Earth than all the ridiculous code crunching you’ve been performing, nothing more than busy work.
Shut up, I mentally scream, caressing the dagger at my hip.Just shut the hell up.
Do you really think you’re the only one who can find the issue, that you need to be everyone’s savior, protector? Maybe your method is faster...or maybe not, but eventually the problems will be caught and corrected by engineers.
I toss and turn all night, unable to sleep the usual hour or two. Several times, on bare feet, I pad to the hall and stand at the closed bedroom door with my hand upraised, ready to knock.
Every time, though, I lower my fist. I willnotapologize for being away, for doing everything I can to keep her safe.
She should’ve just told me why she wanted me to come home.
I hang onto that anger and return to the couch, stewing in my own dangerous thoughts and tumultuous emotions.
She left me out of the chance to feel Kaden moving against her skin. His hand, foot, or knee could’ve been pressed up against my palm, my flesh and blood only a few centimeters away.
If anyone’s alone, it’s me. At least she has KJ and the baby.
