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Then she said, “No bond.”
I looked down.
Her eyes were closed.
“No bond,” I agreed.
“Tonight was ours,” she murmured, her voice thick and drifting toward sleep. Her fingers absently traced the line of my lowest rib.
“Yes,” I said, my own voice lower than I intended.
She shifted slightly, her cheek warm against my shoulder. “Not biology.”
I turned my head to look at her. The dim light caught the silver tracks of dried sweat at her temple. “Not decided by biology,” I clarified softly.
One eye cracked open, fixing me with a hazy but sharp look. “Better,” she insisted, her breath ghosting across my skin.
A corner of my mouth lifted almost imperceptibly. “It was more accurate.”
Her eyebrow arched. “You’re agreeing suspiciously easily.” The words slurred slightly with exhaustion.
“You are correct,” I conceded, watching the way her lashes fluttered against her cheek.
She huffed a quiet laugh. “That must be painful.”
“It is survivable,” I said, and felt rather than saw her smile against my shoulder before she settled fully into sleep, her hand going slack over my ribs.
I lay awake studying the cracks in the ceiling, counting the slow rhythm of her breathing against the faster beat of my own heart.
Something inside me felt unfamiliar—not peace, because I no longer knew what peace felt like.
Maybe satisfaction.
Maybe fear.
Possibly both, and no way to tell which was which.
Talia had chosen me.
Temporarily.
Freely.
And I had wanted something badly enough to accept it, which should not have felt dangerous.
It did.
Her breathing deepened into the slow, even rhythm of sleep.
I held still, my arm numb beneath her, until I was certain.
Then I began the careful extraction—first my shoulder, then my arm, sliding out from under the weight of her head without shifting the mattress.
She made a soft, questioning sound in her throat but didn’t wake.
I pulled on my trousers and padded barefoot into the common room.
The portable terminal sat dark on the low table where I’d left it.