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Before that afternoon I had often wondered how men and women became traitors. How could they one day wake up and say, “Everything I believed was wrong and now they have to pay.”

I never even considered for one moment that Miranda Goya was lying; me, a man who didn’t even trust his own clients, a man who had experienced betrayal on almost every level.

I walked down to Port Authority and stood on the corner of Forty-Second and Eighth trying to feel my way back to Montague Street and its mild indictments of big business and human nature. I wanted the worst problem to be my daughter’s choice of dresses or some traumatized white man thinking that I was abusing A.D.

“You okay, sir?” someone asked. The words were friendly, but the tone was not.

It was a beat cop who patrolled the sidewalks surrounding the giant bus station. I didn’t recognize him. I did wonder how he picked me out of all the junkies, pickpockets, prostitutes, and runaways.

“Yes, I am, Officer,” I said. “It’s just that I had to stop a minute and put my head together.”

“Can you walk?” the shorter, white cop asked.

I smiled, nodded, and then moved away from the big building that made humanity seem like the last dying colony of prehistoric ants.

I could have taken the subway, but instead I walked up to Eighth and Seventy-Third. Down Seventy-Third, about half a block, stood a seven-story brownstone apartment building that was very old.

I climbed the stoop, pulled open the outer door, and then searched the list of names for Thurman Hodge. I pressed the button for twenty-seven, Thurman’s designation, and waited.

“Who is it?” a gravelly voice asked over a staticky intercom connection.

“Smith,” I replied.

The address and the names Thurman and Smith were all sent by text to me by Melquarth. The fact that I was there meant that I had abandoned and very possibly betrayed the world I’d known.

“Be right down,” the rough voice told me.

The vestibule smelled of mold. Some people might have been put off by the odor, but for me it was a pleasant reminder of the apartment building where I lived with my mother, brother, and sister after our father was sentenced and before I was old enough to run away.

“Yeah?” a man said from the other side of the apartment building’s windowed door.

He was five eight in shoes, with coarse salt-and-pepper hair that he brushed equally to either side. Wearing a paint-stained, once-white artist’s smock, he looked like some villain from Dick Tracy in the old newspaper comic strips: Flattop, or maybe, because of his scowl, Gruesome.

“I’m here for the bargain basement,” I told the beady-eyed comic strip villain.

He squinted a little harder and then opened the door.

“Follow me,” he said.

We walked down a slender corridor to a flight of three steps, out a door that led to an especially small courtyard, and across the yard to another door.

While Hodge, if that was his name, searched a large key chain, he said, “You can tell Moran that this is the last time I can rent the place. The owners want to put some kinda IT center down here and ain’t nuthin’ I can do about that.”

I had no idea who Moran was, but Mr. Hodge didn’t need to know that.

He found the key and worked it on the lichen-crusted white-enamel-painted door.

He gestured for me to walk in and turned on the light after I realized that there was a series of stairs leading down. I stumbled only slightly but was reminded of the day before, when, on a similar set of stairs, I shot a man in the head.

Fifteen steps down, I found myself in another cellar. This one had been transformed into a studio apartment designed for men and women on the run. This reminded me of Mel’s connection to the Underground Railroad; made me think that I was fighting a war beyond the laws that once claimed my allegiance.

“No TV or radio reception down here,” the man who might have been named Hodge said. “The hot plate works, but there’s no good ventilation so don’t cook anything you don’t want to smell for the next few days. The space heater works. And here’s the keys for the apartment and the front door. There’s a bell for the super up front, but don’t call her. It’s me you deal with.”

I nodded and handed Mr. Hodge one of the hundred-dollar bills that Antrobus’s purple-garbed goon had given me. Hodge took the tip with an expression of surprise.

“Anything you need,” he said. “Just ring.”

“Do you get cell phone reception down here?” I asked before he could depart.