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That’s the difference.

Before, they gathered the way rot gathers—hungry, obedient to whatever scripture still clung to my skin. I was a signal flare. A wound they could smell from miles away. Now they linger at the edges of things, bodies half-formed in shadow, heads tilted as if listening for a song that no longer belongs to me.

They’re learning her shape.

The thought settles heavy in my chest. Selah doesn’t call to monsters. She doesn’t command them. She simply is, and the world adjusts around that fact whether it wants to or not. Fire listened. Iron yielded. Faith collapsed.

Why wouldn’t the Hollowborn pay attention too?

I turn my head at last, staring at the warped ceiling until the lines blur. My breath finally evens out, not because I’m calm, but because my body has accepted that no one is coming to tell it what to do next. There’s no doctrine left to brace against. No cage to press my back into and pretend restraint is safety.

Choice sits where obedience used to live.

It’s heavier.

She left me alive with nothing but myself to answer for.

I don’t know yet whether I’m strong enough to deserve the gravity she carries, or if standing beside her will finish tearing me open in places I don’t know how to close. I only know this—if the Hollowborn are watching her now, it’s because they recognize what the Iron Gospel never did.

Some truths don’t rot.

Some fire doesn’t need permission.

And some saints aren’t meant to save anyone.

They’re meant to change the shape of the world so thoroughly that monsters have to decide what kneeling means all over again.

I close my eyes, not in prayer, not in surrender, but in preparation.

Because when Selah Crow walks back into my life, whatever follows her won’t be scripture.

It’ll be a consequence.

XLIV

Cold Water, No Mercy

The cabin doesn’t look wrong from the outside.

That’s the first thing that unsettles me.

The lantern by the door burns low but steady. The shutters are latched. No sign of struggle. No blood on the steps. No scripture nailed where it doesn’t belong. If I didn’t know better, I’d think this place has been holding its breath, waiting for him to come back and tell it what to be again.

Shadow stops before the porch, watching.

His body angles—not toward the door, but toward the window, head tilted like he’s listening for something that isn’t sound. I follow his gaze and feel it then, a subtle pressure in my chest, the same way the air felt right before Marrow Ridge caught fire.

Malek is here, not sleeping and not hiding, but existing in that careful, half-conscious way wounded things do when they don’t trust beds to hold them.

I open the door without knocking, and the hinges stay quiet, as if the cabin has already learned the shape of me. As if it knows I belong here enough not to warn him.

Inside, the cabin smells like iron and soap and something old that hasn’t forgiven him yet. Firelight flickers low in the stove. The table is bare. The walls look stripped—not cleaned, but emptied, like he scraped himself out of the space and hasn’t figured out how to put anything back.

I move deeper, footsteps quiet without effort.

Shadow pads ahead of me, nails whispering over wood, stopping again at the bathroom door. That’s where the heat is, not steam exactly, but body heat, fever heat, the kind that makes a room feel occupied before you see who’s inside.

I push the door open.