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“Boston.” He nods. “Good franchise. Good defensive culture for someone like you.”

Someone like me. I note the phrasing. I don’t react to it.

“What about you,” I say. “Post-draft, which team —”

“Oh, wherever the money is.” He grins. “I’m not precious about it. You go where they want you.”

Margo’s hand finds my knee under the table. Not romantic — steadying. Like she’s holding something down. I put my hand over hers.

The main course arrives: pan-seared beef tenderloin, medium-rare, with a red wine reduction, alongside haricots verts and a gratin dauphinois that smells like butter and cream and took someone several hours to make correctly. The caterer knows their job. The Ashbys know their caterer.

Maddison sets her fork down before she’s finished.

She looks at Michael. The look that has been building all evening, the one I caught the moment we sat down — the held thing, the planned thing, the look of two people who agreed on a moment and have been waiting for it.

“We’re so glad y’all are here,” she says. To the table. To her parents. Her eyes bright, her smile running at full output. “We have news.”

Caroline’s hands come together, just slightly, in the way of a woman who may already know but is prepared to be delighted anyway.

“We’re engaged,” Maddison says.

The room comes apart in the best possible way, which is to say the worst possible way.

Caroline’s hands go to her face first — both of them, up to her cheeks, the gesture of a woman receiving the thing she’s been hoping for. “Oh, sweetheart,” she says, and her voice does the warm undone thing, and she’s already half out of her chair. She goes to Maddison first — her arms around her, the full embrace, the kind that says I’m so happy for you — and then she pulls back and takes Maddison’s face in her hands the way mothers do, and she’s beaming. Genuinely. Completely. I’ve been in this family for four hours and I already know that Caroline Ashby does not perform warmth — she just is warm, reflexively, without calibration — and every degree of it is pointed at Maddison right now.

Richard stands. He’s more contained than his wife — he’s always more contained than his wife — but his face does something real and unguarded when he crosses to them. He shakes Michael’s hand and claps him on the shoulder and says “Welcome to the family” with the quiet certainty of a man who means what he says, and then he kisses Maddison on the forehead and squeezes her shoulder and says something low and private that makes her laugh.

“Where’s the ring?” Caroline asks, already looking at Maddison’s hands.

“We’re still looking,” Maddison says, glowing. “I want it to be perfect. We’re not rushing it — I want the ring, you know? The one I’m going to wear forever. Michael said I can take as long as I need.”

“Of course,” Caroline says, like this is the most wonderful answer she’s ever heard. She takes Maddison’s hands in hers and squeezes them. “We’ll find it. We’ll go together.”

Michael is smiling. The easy practiced smile of a man who has done a thing correctly and is being rewarded for it. Richard raises his bourbon and says something warm about the future, and Caroline is still holding Maddison’s hands, and the whole table is lit up in a way that has nothing to do with the candles.

I read all of this. I read Margo sitting beside me, very still, watching her mother hold her sister’s hands the way she always holds her daughters’ hands when something matters. Watching her father stand and welcome a man into the family. Watching all of it with the brightness assembled over whatever is actually happening in her chest, and the brightness is perfect, and nobody at this table can see through it except me.

I congratulate them. It comes out clean and I don’t feel a single thing saying it. I’m watching Margo.

She’s watching her sister. She’s done up the bright, all the way up, the complete performance of a woman who is happy for her sister and means it and is not thinking about two-and-a half-years and a neutral that destroyed something. She’s very good at this. She has been doing this her whole life. It’s the most expensive thing about her and it costs her everything and nobody at this table except me knows she’s paying it right now.

Maddison looks at her parents. The glow sharpens. She reaches for Michael’s hand, and she says it — the other thing, the second thing, the thing that has been sitting loaded in the chamber all evening:

“That’s not all.” She pauses, calibrated, the timing of a woman who knows how to hold a room. “I hope y’all don’t mind being called grandma and grandpa in the near future.”

One second. One suspended, salt-air, candlelit second in this dining room on Sullivan’s Island with the Atlantic three hundred yards away and the She-crab soup bowls already cleared.

Caroline’s hands go to her mouth.

Richard sits back.

Margo goes rigid beside me. Every degree of warmth draining out of her posture at once, like someone pulled a plug. And then —

The knife and fork hit the plate with a sound that cuts through every other sound in the room.

Caroline looks over, startled. Margo’s face is already — she’s already doing it. Already sliding into the skin. The one that fits so well you can’t see the seams unless you know her. Unless you’ve been watching for months. Unless you know what she looks like when the real one is somewhere under it and she’s decided to cover it. Because covering it is what this family needs from her. She has been supplying that since she was old enough to understand she was the easy one.

“I’m sorry,” she says, bright, easy, the laugh coming out clean. “Slippery fingers.” She picks up the cutlery. She sets it back correctly. She looks at her sister. “Maddison.” A beat. “Congratulations.”