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“No, but that isn’t even the part that has me pissed.”

“Speak on it,” I told her, leaning against the wall. We hadn't even made it all the way in the damn house.

“She told me Nikki was looking for you while we were gone. Then she told me when you finally came back in the ballroom, you were holding hands with Nikki,” she said, crossing her arms.

“This what you mad ‘bout?” I laughed. “Man, I’m thinkin’ you trippin’ on some shit I did that was bad.”

“Oh, so I’m being dramatic? You the same nigga that be acting a damn fool when Lloyd in my face. You pulled my ass in a private room and kissed me. Then you take your ass back in that ballroom with that girl like y’all the happiest damn couple.”

“Ky–”

She stopped me.

“Then you bring your ass to my house, that I shared with your brother like a fucking possessed person, because I won’t let you in. You force your way in and then eat my pussy like it was the best thing you ever had. You see my issue with you ?”

All I could do was stare at her because I often wondered if this was the feistiness that my brother loved so much. He always talked about how Kyenna would check his ass at any moment.

“I didn’t go back in that ballroom pretending shit. She caught a glimpse of yo’ ass leavin’, and I had to distract her fuckin’ ass before it became somethin’ more.”

“You can’t demand honesty from me, and Lloyd and you move however you want. You were just at the girl’s house, and yet here you are in my damn face. You admitted that you’re bothered when Lloyd is around me. Meanwhile, you have a woman calling you, fucking you, telling you she loves you, and you telling her you love her back.”

“I do love Nikki.”

Kyenna shook her head and laughed. “Then why the fuck are you hounding me, Meek? When I can go do me with Lloyd.”

“Kyenna, you tryin’ to piss me the fuck off?”

She shrugged, and it was something about that that made me back her ass into a wall.

“If you love a woman, this is not what you do to her. Or is that what you tell her to get her off your back?”

I didn’t answer fast enough.

“That’s all I needed to know.” She pushed me to put some space in between us.

“Nah, don’t do that. I been wit’ Nikki for years, so the love is there. That doesn’t mean that what’s happenin’ wit’ us ain’t real.”

“I’m not interested in being the other woman, Meek. I’m muthafuckin’ Kyenna King. The fuck I look like being your side bitch. I know how it feels to be sitting at home while a man you love is somewhere doing something he has no business doing. I will never knowingly put another woman in that position. I don’t give a fuck how attracted I am to you.”

When I heard her say she was attracted to me, it shifted something in me. We both knew something was there, but to hear her say it was different. I moved closer to her.

“Say that last part for me again.”

“This is exactly why talking to you is pointless. I’m trying to tell you why this can’t continue, and your ass heard one part you liked.”

“I heard every muthafuckin’ word you said. I’m askin’ you to stop actin’ like I’m imaginin’ the shit between us. You want me, too.”

“Yes, I do,” she said.

I didn’t have anything to throw back to her. We would usually go back and forth with shots at each other, but there was nothing left to say. We both were clear on what we wanted. The shit wasn’t going to be easy.

“I ain’t tryin’ to make you my side bitch,” I told her.

“Then what are you trying to make me, Meek?”

Still didn’t have a clear answer. We hadn't gotten that far to put a name on the shit. All I knew was I wanted her.

“I don’t kno’ what the fuck this is yet. That’s the truth. I ain’t planned on lookin’ at you different, Kyenna. I damn sure ain’t planned on endin’ up in yo’ bedroom, but the shit happened, and now I’m trying to figure out why I spent all night at Nikki’s thinkin’ ‘bout you. I kno’ the shit ain’t right and I’m not pretendin’ it is.”