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“Yeah, bitch. You better double up, Bubba. That snatch has got to be riddled with some nasty shit.”

“Son of a bitch!” she screams.

“Oh and buddy, think twice before tasting that shit too.” He nods and pushes her forward without another word.

“That’s some fucked up shit.” Hawk says.

“Yeah I know. I hate the fucker she brings out in me. But, man, all I’ve been dealing with from her over the past few months is her bitchy attitude and stepping out of place.”

“She’s in love with you.” He tells me.

“That’s on her.” I shake my head "I’ve never given her any more attention than I did the rest of them or promises that feelings would be returned.”

“Yeah.”

I nod towards the sound of Bubba’s bike. “You think he’s doing alright?”

“That I know of. But he’s been distant for the past while. So I can’t be a hundred percent sure.”

“That’s what I’m afraid of.”

“You think he’s up to no good?”

“Well, he just left with Kara, so that should tell you something. That bitch is always up to no good.” We stay quiet for a bit, taking in the peace of the evening air. “I’m gonna head in.”

“Yeah, Savannah's in your room. She came back from your mom’s house a while ago.”

“Thanks, man.”

“Hey, Sin.” He stops me. “You in a good place? With her?”

Am I? For the past two weeks, it’s been damn sweet. I’m still struggling with the fact that I don’t feel good enough to handle her heart. She’s putting so much trust in me and I worry I’m going to screw it up. “Yeah I am. My heart is all in; I just need to get my head to catch up.”

“You’re a good man, dude. Always have been. You’ve got just as much goodness and light in you as she does. You’ve just got to be stronger than your demons.”

Be stronger than your demons. Easier said than done.

I lock the door to the bedroom. I’m going to try this rabbit out. I may have lied a little to Jenni and Bianca, I’m starting to feel bad with all the sex my body is requiring of me at this point in my pregnancy. The hormones coursing through my body have me all riled up. I need constant releases and Sin is always more than happy to oblige, but we’re still new and I don’t want to wear out the spontaneity of our relationship so soon.

Changing into one of Sin’s t-shirts, I take my panties off. Is there directions? Jesus, I’m pathetic, I’m in my early twenties and I have no clue how to get off with a vibrator. I shake my head as I open the package and toss the plastic to the floor. Of course, it has speed settings. Oh, my God, it shows a picture of both a turtle and a rabbit. How cute is that. I flip it on, deciding to take the turtle for the first test run. You know what they say, slow and steady wins the race and this is a race that I need to feel victorious. I feel the movement vibrate through my hand as it comes to life. The constant pulse coming from the gadget turns the tips of my fingers numb around the soft rubber.

Lying back on the bed, I gaze to the door, double-checking to make sure it’s locked. I slowly push the cotton of my shirt up over my stomach, and run the vibrator over my flesh. Just the feeling of the beat on my skin makes my toes curl. Jesus. Closing my eyes, I picture the face of the man I love. Dark brown hair, an unruly beard, fierce crystal blue eyes hovering above me. The way he looks at me is so intense. He bites his lip, trying not to smile because he hates smiling, while I live for those smiles. My hand moves lower until I hit my clit, the sensation causing me to jerk a little. My eyes pop open, startled. I look around the room, making sure it’s just me. I lie back down and I continue to massage myself. Working myself until my legs begin to quiver as my pleasure builds. I push the vibrator in and out, lubing it with the wetness of my desire. I can’t believe I’ve been without this for so long.

I slowly push the trembling device further into my pussy. Moaning in pleasure, I grab the headboard with my free hand. My legs push tight, digging the heels of my feet into the bed as I continue to work myself. I bite down on my lip, trying to muffle the sounds of gratification. I feel my climax building up. “Holy shit.” I curse as I jerk when I hit my peak. My entire body tightens in pleasure. I squeeze my eyes, watching the white stars pass over my lids. My body jerks, uncontrollable as I whimper.

“What are you doing?”

I yelp in shock. My body reacts as I toss the offending vibrating device across the room. It hits the wood of the dresser, lands on the floor with a thud, and then continues to hum. I feel my face flush as the embarrassment crawls its way up my neck. The clearing of a throat and footsteps coming further into the room has me opening my eyes. I gawk as Sin bends over and catches the contraption that’s currently dancing along the floor. I’m mortified, totally mortified. He stands and examines it before switching it off. The room is silent and more embarrassing as it is, I’d rather have the buzzing of the vibrator than the quiet I hear right now. “Sugar?” He turns and lifts his eyebrow. “Are you going to answer me?”

“Argh!” I throw myself back onto the bed.

“Even if you ignore me, I’m not going to go away.”

“It’s Jenni’s fault.” I complain

“You think?” He takes a step towards me.

“Well, I can’t say it’s your mother’s fault because that would be a lie.” The bed dips at my feet.