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Big Sal is heartbroken
Soren tried to pretend he’s always known UR gay
I blinked down at the screen, my brow furrowing.
Me
I’m not gay. I’m bi.
what do you mean about Sal?
Why’s he ?
Pauly
BSFR right now.
Me
I am
Pauly
Sal’s had a thing 4U since high school.
U know this, dawg.
My jaw literally dropped, my brain scrambling to reframe what I thought I knew about our friendship. Sal had only ever dated women, and he’d never given me any indication he liked me as more than a friend.
But even as that thought came to me, I recalled that one night our junior year when a few of us had gone back to my house after a dance and done shots of cheap vodka someone’s cousin had picked up for them. I’d sat on the floor with my back against the couch, Sal’s head in my lap, telling me I was the only one who truly got him. His girlfriend had broken up with him only a couple of hours earlier, so I thought he was just being a sloppy, brokenhearted drunk.
Had he actually been trying to tell me how he felt?
Me
I didn’t know.
How do YOU know????
Pauly
When u left for Bizmarck, he told me
He thought u were never coming back. Said you’d forget us
Don’t tell him I told u!
Me
Does everyone else know he’s …?
Pauly
Pan? Yes.
Me
He’s out???
