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She turned her head to say so, and found Will now looking at her.

He was close. The crowd had pressed them nearer than she’d noticed, and his shoulder was against hers, dark wool on dark wool.

And the carolers sang, and the snow began again, drifting down past the garland and the lantern posts into the gold light of the square, and again, neither of them moved away.

Chapter 34

While Maggie had helped plan almost every hour of this weekend, she had never truly visualized it.

That was the thought that came now as she drifted down Main with hot chocolate warming her palms, and no list open in her other hand for the first time in days.

She and Will had walked this street at dawn and at midnight and in the snow, measuring load-in windows and estimating crowd flow and worrying about a grandmother going down like a bowling pin, and somehow Maggie had missed the thing itself - the whole point of it, laid out now under the falling snow and glowing back at her like a memory she’d been given the chance to stand inside.

The cobbles ran silver-white beneath a fresh dusting, packed soft by a thousand boots, and the warm lights strung between the storefronts burned down into the dark shop windows and doubled there, so that the street held twice its own light. Woodsmoke came down from the chimneys at the top of Main, clean and sweet, and laid itself over the cinnamon lifting off the cider cart and the deep dark chocolate off the cocoa urn, and through all of it, threading everywhere, the sugared molasses breath of The Flour Jar from Willow Street.

A dog in a tartan coat went by at the end of a lead, delighted with itself. A child rode past on someone’s shoulders with a candy cane fisted in one mitten, and behind them the toy shop’s window train went round and round its little snowed-in village to a ring of upturned faces.

At the corner of Federal and Main the carolers had now taken their official post, four of them in their Victorian best - the top hats, the muff, the woman in the poke bonnet with her folder of music - and their voices rose up full and round over the crowd, the old harmonies Maggie had known since before she could read, while people slowed and stopped and stood in the cold to listen with cocoa steaming under their chins.

Down the way, the horse-drawn carriage came clopping along Centre, the big bay’s breath going up in clouds, its bells shivering, a full load of bundled visitors packed under the plaid rugs and grinning at everyone they passed, and everyone they passed grinned back and lifted their cups.

Maggie watched the crowd move through the merchant corridor and felt the planner in her sit up, because she couldn’t help it, and what the planner saw was this: the flow was clean.

Cleaner than she had ever seen it, cleaner than the diagrams she’d sketched in Helen’s kitchen. The pinch points weren’t pinching. The current came down off the wharf and split and rejoined and never once knotted, and the pharmacy’s table sat inside its chalked line and let the whole tide slide past it.

And Maggie also knew exactly whose hand was in that - the secondary risers repositioned, the load-out rerouted, the whole ground quietly re-laid by a stubborn woman with a red stylus who had never once expected to be thanked for it.

Marianne’s practical sense, running underneath the weekend like good plumbing, invisible when it worked. And laid over the top of it, holding all of it together, was everything Helen had refused to let go of.

The handbell choir warming up their brass down by the harbor for the close. The lampposts hung with the fat balsam wreaths Helen wound herself every year, wired to the iron and dressed with a single red bow apiece, because that was how they had always been dressed.

Santa sailed in to the crowd banked six deep along Straight Wharf, exactly as he had every year of Maggie’s life, waving from the bow while the children screamed and the harbor threw the light around.

None of that was efficient. None of it would ever have made a diagram cleaner. But it was the reason over three thousand people had chosen to stand here in the snow, and Maggie understood, watching it all breathe together, that the Nantucket Christmas Stroll weekend needed both - the woman who kept it running and the woman who kept it meaning something.

Now, she stopped in front of the bank steps where the wreaths hung heavy and gold-lit, and for a moment the years folded.

Twelve, in the hat she’d hated. Her mother dark-haired and laughing at something off to the side. And her father between them with a hand on each of their shoulders with the whole of Main lit up behind and the snow on the awnings.

As she stood in the actual place that photograph had been taken, in the actual snow, she felt the whole warm weight of her beloved dad come down on her shoulder the way it had that night.

He would have loved this one, she thought, wistfully.

He’d have had a cocoa in each hand and a wreath to straighten and a joke for Tom Morgan, and he’d have found her mother in the crowd and stood behind Helen and put his chin on her head, and Maggie’s eyes stung suddenly. The cold, she told herself, only the cold.

“Well,” said a voice at her elbow. “Now you can stop pretending you’re not enjoying it.”

Lucy had come up beside her with a cocoa of her own, cheeks pink, hat pulled down over her ears, and she followed Maggie’s gaze up the glowing length of the street and let a beat go by.

“I’d forgotten how good it could be,” Maggie said gently.

“Well, everyone’s saying the same thing,” her friend replied. “Every shop, every corner, all day. Best one yet.” She took a drink. “Even Dorothy Hatch said it. Dorothy Hatch, Maggie, who was ready to pull her whole shop off the map two days ago, and now she’s telling anyone who’ll stand still that it’s the finest Christmas Stroll in years and she should know because her mother sold candles from that counter at the very first one.” Lucy shook her head, fond. “You helped with that.”

“I patched a schedule.”

“You and Will did a lot more than patch a schedule and you both know it, but I’ll let you have it.” Lucy nudged her shoulder against Maggie’s, warm even through the coats.

From the doorway of Sea Glass Bridal, where a run of white lights framed a window dressed in ivory and evergreen, a woman leaned out into the cold.