And once I'm in Seattle, there's nothing to keep me alive at all.
"Go to hell." I say it to the dark behind my eyelids.
He cuts me.
It doesn't hurt at first.
There's a line of cold down the inside of my arm.
Then heat floods in behind it, and blood runs over my wrist and drips off my fingertips onto the asphalt.
I scream.
Colin claps his hand over my mouth and waits for me to stop.
When I do, he wipes the blade on my apron, folds it, and pockets it.
"We'll finish the conversation in the car." He pries the keys out of my fist, one finger at a time, then my phone from my apron pocket. "It's a long drive. You'll have plenty of time to change your mind."
He stands.
His boots crunch away across the lot toward the dark sedan, unhurried.
A trunk pops open.
Plastic rustles, and then comes the soft zip of cable ties pulled off a bundle.
The lot is so empty I can hear the Coke machine humming outside the laundromat next door.
Move.
Get up.
When I roll onto my stomach, my ribs scream, and I bite my tongue to keep the sound in.
The diner is forty feet away.
I locked it, and the keys are in Colin's pocket.
I start crawling anyway.
One elbow, then the other, my cut arm leaving a dark smear on the asphalt, gravel grinding into my knees through my jeans.
Twenty feet.
Tears run sideways across the bridge of my nose and drip onto the asphalt, and I don't remember starting to cry.
My vision goes gray at the edges and comes back.
The owl in the window isn't lit.
Nobody's inside.
Nobody's coming.
I stop crawling and lie there with my cheek on the ground, panting, my good hand closing around a jagged chunk of broken asphalt the size of my palm.
If he wants me in his trunk, he'll have to drag me.