Page 115 of Knot Only For One Night

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I spent the night in Soren’s room. If I thought Neven’s room was barren, well, Soren’s is much worse. The man has a bed, a recliner, a bookshelf… and that's it. He blushed when he brought me to his space, saying he isn’t here much.

But everyone has a right to their space and keeping it how they want it.

Even if it's all bare bones with no character or life.

I giggled and told him we were going shopping for his room. He agreed only if I’d cuddle with him right in that moment, as if that was a real bargain.

I very much want to crawl back into Soren's bed and maybe stay there forever. It’s been awkward in the Pack after our blowup yesterday, and I don’t know how to fix it. It’s my job to fix it, as an omega and the root of the problem, but I don’t even know how to approach Reed.

It feels like he’s mad at me and I can’t take it.

On one hand, it feels like I should be the one mad at him, and cursing him to the moon and back. On the other hand, I know he’s just scared. The big bad biker omega is scared.

I thought… I really thought that we were past the whole omega can't lead a biker gang bit of our relationship, but his doubt has made those thoughts trickle back in.

Maybe he’s picking his MC over us, over me. Maybe he doesn’t actually want to be with me.

I’ve found a quiet spot in the Wolves Dispensary. Lacy took me here, told me it’d be quiet enough for a phone call. IIt’s been entirely too long since I’ve called my mom, and text messages just aren't enough anymore.

Sighing, I finally tap her contact and bring the phone up to my ear. It rings a few times, and my mom’s bubbly laugh comes through the speaker.

“Hi, honeybee! How’s it going?”

“Good, Mom, how are you? Harley and the dads?”

She gives me the update. The dads are noisy in the background, cooking maybe. They tease her and she laughs, and gosh it’s like I’m seeing their relationship in a whole new light.

A door clicks on her end, and the background sounds disappear. “Why so quiet, honey?”

I sigh, knowing she’ll want the gritty details.

“A lot has happened,” I start, and she waits patiently before answering.

“Good? Bad? Do the dads and I need to come up with guns blazing?”

“No, no, nothing like that,” I say, laughing a bit. I know they would. They’d come with the cavalry, maybe even get Dad’s old MC involved if they thought it serious enough.

I’d cause another war. Though that one might end with beers and a makeshift pool party at the back of Wolves Plaza.

“I found my scent matches,” I say and I can’t believe I haven’t told her before now. How long it's been since I last talked to my mom. “I had my heat.”

“That’s amazing, honey! I’m so happy for you! But… what’s wrong?”

“It’s… it’s not easy.”

“It’s never easy.”

“It’s not?”

“Oh my goodness, no, honey. Your dads and I had some steep ups and downs in our relationship before we got to where we are.”

“Like what?” I ask, though surprised she even heard me because of how low my voice is. My mind tries to bring up any times my parents were on the out, but I can’t think of any.

“Why don’t you start with what's ailing you?”

“Well, I have four scent matches. Two alphas, Neven and Asher. They are so sweet and amazing, and gentle. Then there is Soren, who I bonded… just yesterday⁠—”