Page 58 of Whip’s Wisdom

“How you doin’ man?” Knox asks.

“A little sore, but I’ll be fine. I think we need to talk, all of us, about everything that’s happened. I mean I know Peyton deserves to know everything, but you probably should too. We are going to have this family and I think that it’s important that you all know what I’ve been working with and dealing with. Probably going to be too much bullshit, but it kind of gives I’m sure a nice big understanding of the bullshit I’ve done and put everybody through. Knox got a little bit of a show of some of it when we went to my folks home.”

“Yeah sure got a show, your mom’s a real fucking piece of work.”

“Yeah, well that isn’t even the tip of the iceberg. My childhood wasn’t fucking pretty and I was glad I got the fuck out of there when I was seventeen even though they still kept at it after. Taking Evan with me didn’t help.”

I look over at Peyton and she kind of looks confused, “You remember Evan?”

“I mean kind of, I remember you having a young boy with you when you came over sometimes after you moved out.”

“Yeah that was my little brother. He moved out with me. Despite the fact I wasn’t eighteen or the fact that he was younger there was no one stopping me. I pretty much raised him after that and I think that our parents were okay with it because it was two less mouths to feed and the shit they did to me they never wanted or needed their other children to see all of it. I guess I never really thought that Ray wasn’t my dad, I mean why would I? I guess I knew from an early age I was different to them because even when it was just Travis and I before Amber came they treated me differently.

I don’t have memories obviously from when I was super little, but I never felt safe at home. When I started school it was a relief, finding Thorn was a blessing because that was less time I had to spend with my parents. Both my parents are drug addicts and alcoholics. They were extremely abusive, in all the ways you can imagine. I never understood until this shit came out why. I guess I still don’t understand how my own mother could treat me the way that they did or say the things that were said to me. I was told over and over again I was worthless, nothing, that the world would be better if I wasn’t in it. The amount of beatings I got from my parents for just about anything. My dad, he used about anything he could unless he was sober. Which never really happened growing up.

I don’t think I had a peaceful day one single day living there. Once Travis got older and realized that if he treated me the same way that he would get their approval he started with the beatings and the bullying. The abuse was just non-stop unless I was at Devil’s Chaos. I felt at home there and wished that they were my family. Amber came along and she noticed how things went and went along with everything. As I got older, whenever my parents would have ‘friends’ over they would make sure Amber and Travis weren’t home, but would make sure I was home. I lost my virginity to one of those ‘friends’. My dad would basically sell me to whoever would have me. Anything to get their next fix. I should’ve realized that I didn’t belong to him. I mean what kind of man does that to their son.” I let out a humourless chuckle.

“I pushed you away because I didn’t want to make you dirty. I felt dirty and unworthy. No one knows everything that I have been through. I haven’t shared the sexual abuse shit with anyone. Tanner doesn’t know more than the physical and verbal abuse. I’m sure he could guess the rest. But I felt like getting with you soiled you whenever I touched you, I told you it was a mistake because I felt like someone all my darkness and dirtiness would attach itself to you. I know that it makes no sense to you or probably anyone else, but in my mind I was protecting you. Yet, I couldn’t stay away. I knew I was hurting you, I just couldn’t stop. I’m so sorry for the situation and everything I did to you, more than you would ever know. Tanner knocked some sense into me by telling me that my past didn’t make me someone unworthy of you. There were plenty of conversations with Tanner where he read me the riot act. I am sorry that it took me so long to show you that I am here for you and want to be with you forever. I am so thankful that you both are willing to have this type of relationship so that I can love you, Peyton. So that I can love these babies you have brought into the world. I want you to know,” I look towards Knox.

“The next babies are going to be mine. We are going to have to take turns knocking her up because I want something I never thought I would ever want, I want a chance to have babies and a chance to have the family I always wanted. So that is my story, all sunshine and rainbows as you see. But now I know what I fucking want and I fucking want this.”

Peyton has tears coming down her face and Knox is looking at me with a solemn expression. I have all three babies on my bed with me and I pick up Ronan who is closest to Peyton and move him over and reach for Peyton’s hand, pulling her onto my bed.

“Don’t be sad for me, baby. I’m okay. Look I got myself a beautiful family and I am so glad that I have Knox who knew that we all need each other in different ways. I am glad I got a brand new friend and a man that I can go forward with in the future and share the love of a beautiful woman.” I look over at Knox and he smiles and grabs Rowan from off the bed because he was trying to climb down anyway. So he grabbed him and then Rebel and Ronan placing them on the floor to let them run around on the floor. “I also have a new family that I am so grateful I found now through Devil. I am excited to get to know my new siblings. I have never felt loved until recently and I have never been more grateful for you bringing that into my life.”

Chapter Thirty-Six

Whip

Seven days after I woke up from the hospital I was finally released. The Untamed men went back to Briarfield after I woke up. Peyton hasn’t left my side since Devil requested that they give us a chance to talk. Devil and Liz visited the hospital regularly with my little siblings for the week that I was in. Devil has made comments about heading to my parents trailer to pick up my mom for a little chat, but I don’t know if that has happened and I think it might be better off for me if I didn’t know. Tanner has really stayed close for the time I have been in the hospital as well and now that I am out he doesn’t go very far. He really is a chosen brother. Speaking of brothers, I had to make a really messy phone call to Evan and he was not happy that I did not call him sooner than I did.

I’ve been put in a brace to support my shoulder while I continue with physical therapy. I fucking hate that I can’t fucking ride and if I’m being honest once I get a moment where Peyton goes to school, I’m ripping this fucking thing off and getting back on a bike. I’ve got to fix mine up because that jackass I call a brother fucked it up. I know the boys brought him back and have kept him in our little hideaway where we hold all our friends, so I think that at some point, if Peyton gives me some leeway, I will be making my way over there to see him.

Right now we are spending time in the common area and I was shocked to see that Sophie was here and actually at the clubhouse with all her kids. What also shocked me was even though I was sitting her with my ol’ lady, the president, the VP and his ol’ lady, the huge horde of kids, Barbie still had the balls to come over here and try and sit in my fucking lap. I began to push her off, but it didn’t take long before she was grabbed by the hair and yanked off my lap. When she started spewing nasty shit at Peyton again about how apparently I always go back to her, not only did I laugh at the thought of that, but so did everyone else. Comments were made, Peyton got pissed and Sophie chimed in with how this is why the brothers need to make some changes with the club girls because if they keep letting this shit go on without taking care of it all these bitches are going to think it is okay.

So after Sophie stood up for Peyton and told the brothers all about how their easy pussy is hurting their families they made no objection when Terror decided to throw the bitch out. She was kicking and screaming all the way back to her room where she was forced to pack her shit and get out. Everyone was warned that she was banned from all club property and all club owned business. Sucks for that bitch because she was working at one of our clubs.

Finally, two hours later, Peyton brought the kids up to my room so they could go to bed. Knox had to head back to Briarfield for some club shit that the Untamed had to deal with so he was staying there tonight. I decided now was as good as ever to go pay my little tiny dick of a brother a visit.

“Yo, Thorn, you want to head over and pay our visitor a visit with me? I really want to say hello to the limp dick.”

“I’d be happy to come with you while you pay him a visit, brother.”

We started walking out to where we have keep our ‘friends’ when I notice that most of the council brothers are following behind us as well as Devil. Finally strolling inside to see the asshole and he looks like he had other visitors before me. He was being hung up by his arms chained to the ceiling. His head was drooping and he looked like he took a bit of a beating. When we got close he finally looked up. I’ll give the guy this he does have some balls to try and intimidate me when he’s the one being held captive.

“Oh if it isn’t my good for nothing little brother. Good to see that you made it through. I was a little worried there when your pussy ass passed out after I stabbed you that final time and the shot to your shoulder didn’t wake you up. But hey, I guess next time I’ll have to try a little harder.”

“Sorry to say Travis there won’t be a next time.”

“Of course there will be, my buddies will come and get me out and when they do I’ll get my chance to get you again. It’ll be just like old times. Maybe mama will help next time. I’m sure she was so bothered that she didn’t get to take a shot at you. Or hell even dad and Amber. It can be a whole family affair. I’ll just have to go find Evan.”

With that I walk over towards our table of supplies that are by the wall and grab the knife I am looking for. Nice serrated and long. I remove the sling from my shoulder and place it on the table before I walk over to Travis and take the knife and stab him in the gut with it.

“Like I said big brother, there won’t be a next time.”

He starts coughing and almost laughing with blood coming from his mouth.

“Yeah, you might take care of me, but what about the rest of the family? Once they know that you’ve done this shit to me, they’ll come for your ass. Especially dad.”