Page 22 of Whip’s Wisdom

“Who are they driving with?”

Luca looks over at the kids, “Noah is going to drive. He just got his license so we decided that he could take my truck with all the kids. So they can be together while we ride.”

I nod my head and head over to where Tillie is sitting and bring the chair that is next to her in front of her.

“Hey sweet girl, it’s going to be okay. We’ve all got you okay?”

My heart aches not just for me because my mama won’t be here to see my babies, won’t be here when I graduate med school, won’t be here for me to get married, won’t be here for anymore of my milestones and I look at my sister, my sweet baby sister who is only 11 years old and my mama won’t be there for her high school graduation, she won’t be there to help her with boys or makeup or any of the things that mama helped all of us with. Davis will never have her give him advice on girls and hell I don’t even know if he has anyone right now I wouldn’t fucking know because who knows who he would even tell if he has a girlfriend, Noah? I don’t know. But everything hits at once and my pregnancy hormones are making the grieving so much worse.

Tillie throws her arms around me as she sees me starting to get worked up. I bend my head into the crock of her little neck and just hold her as she cries. I know she’s going to need all of us to get through everything that is to come. She’s going to need her sisters to get through those things in life that mama would’ve been able to help her with. I know dad is going to be there when he can be, but he’s not a mama. Some things you just need a mama for. I rub Tillie’s back and just hug her until we hear the door open and look to see Toby walk in. He hugs all the guys in the room and looks over at me.

“She’s in the car. She didn’t want to pull all the kids out right now. Especially since it’s almost time to head out anyway.”

I nod my head and stand up still holding Tillie’s hand. “Has anyone talked to Levi? Is Cassidy coming?”

Luca looks over at me and smiles sadly, “Yeah, she’s coming. He went over there to pick her up, he texted me a little bit ago and they got into it. So she’s driving herself. I don’t think she’s going to be in the procession. The boys won’t be there.”

I nod my head sadly. That relationship dynamic is so messed up, I know that mama would’ve wanted them to work things out before now. I hope Levi pulls his head out of his ass soon before he loses them. No little boy is going to want to see their daddy treat their mama the way Levi does.

“Alright, well I’ll head out to get in the car with Soph.” I bend down and give Tillie a kiss and a hug. Then walk her over to dad before I go up and give Knox and Cooper hugs and head out. Everything with Cooper is awkward. I don’t know how to act or what to do about that. After mama died I was vulnerable and I needed to get out of my head and I used him. Was it right, probably not, but I definitely didn’t see him complaining. So I head out and get in the car towards where we are going to put my mama in the ground and everything came crashing down and everything felt more real.

Chapter Thirteen

Whip

A month later

The month since laying Missy and Stray to rest had moved at a snail's pace. I decided with everything that happened and the fact that my babies were going to be born soon, I was going to head with Peyton and Knox back to their clubhouse in North Carolina until they move to Briarfield. I talked to all my clients about their bikes and because of the personal family stuff I have going on some of them agreed that they can wait for their custom jobs to be done and the ones that wanted them done sooner decided to go with another one of our employees. That was fine with me. Putting my family first is what I’ve decided to continue to do. Evan came to the funeral and that was an amazing surprise since he had told me that he never wanted to step foot back in Richmond. I introduced him to Peyton again, not sure if she remembered him and then introduced him to Knox.

Evan and I have had conversations about what is going on and even though it’s not something he would ever think of doing for himself, he has told me that if this is what I need and what makes me happy he is supportive of it. It was so great seeing him and he did bring his girlfriend with him and I met her. Turns out they have been together for a year. She was sweet and just what I would want for my baby brother. He knew Missy and she did a lot for him growing up and that was just who she was. He came and paid his respects and then returned to Ashford, where I told him when things calmed down I would visit. I know that he probably won’t come down when the triplets are born because he doesn’t enjoy spending time down here. He doesn’t want to run into our parents or even our siblings. I understand completely and am shocked that I never ran into them when I’m in Richmond.

After everything that happened with Missy, Bulldog went and put it to a vote that his generation step down and pass the patches to the next generation. It was definitely a shock, but he made it clear that right now his focus is on Davis, Tillie and finding the twins. He said that when the twins come home and both Peyton and Sophie’s babies are born he is heading out on the road. He told us in church that he is looking for answers as to what went on back when his dad had all those issues with club whores. He thinks by going to other clubs that still have his fathers generation in it will give him answers, but he wants to make sure that he has all his family back in one place. So I have officially been named chaplain at the table. Terror and Lash, our new president and VP were very understanding about me following my ol’ lady to Devil’s Hollow until she has the babies and moves back. I’ve given my vote to Thorn in case there is a vote while I’m gone.

Being here in Devil’s Hollow has been an experience. The way things are done here is so different from back home. The women of Untamed have big roles in the club, in fact they are a part of the club. They sit in on church, they are all designated the roles that their old men are. They ride their own bikes, they are a bunch of bad ass bitches. There is no ‘club business’ that they don’t share with their ol’ ladies because they are all members of the club all the same. They even have their version of the club insignia that they wear on their cuts.

Meeting all the men and women of this club that we are allied with, not just the aunts and uncles of the Jacobson’s has been a real treat. I’ve loved seeing how everything has gone. Although, the club girl that I used to make Peyton back off when I was here last year is still here. When I got here she started some shit because she seemed to not know that Peyton was also my ol’ lady and she didn’t know when to back the fuck off. The Untamed members don’t have a relationship dynamic like us at this point in time, but they have had it before. So the club girls that are here right now don’t think it is a thing. So when I expressed that Peyton was my ol’ lady she didn’t believe me and continued to push me to take her to my room and fuck her. Only leading to upset Peyton. I swear I make one step forward and all my mistakes come back to bite me in the ass pulling me ten steps back. Finally Grim took that bitch aside and told her that I was off limits because I had an ol’ lady and if she wasn’t going to abide by their rules she could find the door. Part of me wished that that was something that Bulldog did when he was president and I hope at some point in the future Terror does with the women at our club who don’t think they need permission to touch members.

Today is a lowkey day, I am sitting in the common room waiting for Knox and Peyton to come down because Peyton wanted to take a nap. Knox and I talked and we decided that for the time being I would stay in a separate room while I’m here at the clubhouse. Then when we all move to Briarfield we will get her very comfortable with me being around her all the time. I told Knox under no uncertain terms that I will be helping with those babies because they are mine too. I don’t care who put them in her, I am their father too. Knox agreed and it was one of the things we had sat down and discussed about how this was going to go. We both know that right now Peyton is dealing with a lot more than a woman pregnant with triplets should be dealing with. She’s got the pregnancy, she’s finishing up her last semester and will be graduating in May, she is dealing with the loss of her mother, the stress of not knowing what is going on with her niece and nephew, a move, becoming the first lady of a chapter, and dealing with two men who have laid claim on her, one of which she has yet to forgive because of all the stupid shit he did.

I decide while I’m waiting I’m going to get in touch with Thorn. He has been going nuts since Cassidy dropped a bomb on Hurricane before Missy’s funeral saying a bunch of shit about Cassidy. Hurricane of course can’t get any more information out of her because he pissed her off and said a bunch of dumb ass shit he shouldn’t have said. But Cassidy told Hurricane that Thorn cheated on Lizzy with Sadie and that she continues to receive pictures and videos of them together to this day. It’s fucking with his head. He doesn’t know how this is happening and he wants to know where Lizzy is, but from my understanding Cassidy isn’t talking. So I click the contact I am looking for and put my phone up to my ear and two rings later the call connects.

“Hey.”

“Hey brother, what’s going on?”

“I just got into it with Hurricane, Skunk and Pitbull.”

“Oh yeah,” I say as I rub my hand down my face, “what about, Thorn?”

He sighs over the phone and I know he is probably pacing, “You know what about Whip.”

“Care to share anyway, brother?”

“The three of those dipshits were sitting at a table in the common room drinking, you know because they have nothing better to do than sit around and get drunk. I wanted to talk to my brother and see if Cassidy had given him any more information about Lizzy. Like how often do they fucking talk? How did I not know they were so close that they still continue to stay in touch even after all this time. I want to know what the fuck was said to her to get her to bolt and how the fuck does someone have pictures of me with someone I have never been with in my life. I was a virgin when I got with Lizzy and I haven’t been with anyone since. My dick don’t even twitch for another bitch. If it did, I still wouldn’t go there because I am still so fucking in love with her that it hurts thinking about her. I am glad she is still alive and okay, but why the fuck can’t I find her. I’ve got a PI working on it, I’ve got Wizard working on it. How is it that one woman is so fucking hard to find?”

I interrupt him because he’s rambling and spiralling. “Thorn, brother, breathe. You’re rambling and no longer telling me what the fuck happened. You can get back to all of that once you tell me what went on with you, Hurricane, Skunk and Pitbull.”

I hear him take a breath and I think I hear a creak like he sat down in a chair. “I walked up and told Hurricane I needed to talk to him, needed to know if he got anything else out of Cassidy. I mean fuck, I would, but she doesn’t have a high opinion or me or any of the Jacobson men from what Hurricane told me. Skunk and Pitbull had to put their two sense in about Lizzy. How they are glad she left, how they hope she stays away. Calling her names like saying she’s a greedy bitch who ran when things got hard. Calling her a patch chaser, saying she always acted like she was too good for the club. You know her Whip, you went to school with her, you were her friend as much as you were mine. I know that you said some shit last year to piss me off, but these guys believe the shit that is coming out of their mouths with conviction. I just fucking blew. You know how I get when she is brought up about Lizzy and people talk shit about her.”