Page 26 of Lash’s Love

“Soph, you’re less than a buck fifty, shut the fuck up.”

We walk into the room and all my babies are there. Deck is showing off his new cut that his uncles brought him. He is so cute and so excited about it. Tanner places me on the couch next to my in-laws.

“Hey sweet girl, how are you feeling?” Annie asks me as she places her hand on mine.

“I’m feeling alright, Mama M. Just want to go home.” I smile at her.

Toby looks up from his place on the floor with the boys, “You aren’t going home until the doctor says you’re good to go. I’m not risking anything happening to you.”

I shake my head at him, I’m annoyed, I’m frustrated. “I will heal better at home. We have Doc there, we have access to other people at the hospital. They can send someone to stay at home with me if that is what you are worried about, someone to come and help with physical therapy. I am not comfortable here. You know I hate hospitals. Why are you trying to keep me here? You should be lucky. I want to go home considering all that has happened. I should want to find somewhere else to run away to.” I give into my frustration forgetting about the audience. “Fuck. I’m sorry.”

“Baby, I know you want to go home. Don’t apologize for being frustrated. I get it. I’ll talk with the doctors. I will figure out care staff at home, if it is going to help you then we will go home. I think we should get in touch with our therapist and your therapist so we can schedule sessions. We need to work on making you better and we need to work on making us better.”

I nod my head and I look over at the kids, “Hey babies. How are you guys doing? You enjoying having school with Nana?”

“Yeah mama, she’s teaching us a lot. I feel like I’m gonna be smarter than all my friends.” Daisy answers me.

“You’re already the smartest girl I know, my sweet Daisy girl.”

Declan is standing close to me and hasn’t said much and is looking over watching everything that is going on and I know my outburst worries him. “Come here baby, show me your awesome new cut. Tell me all about your time sitting in church.”

Declan sits down and begins to tell me all about the extra time he has had with the brothers and how he is so excited to be the VP in training. Showing off his new cut and talking to me about how Toby has talked to him about getting him a new dirt bike. He tells me all about how Cane is talking to him about when he turns 16 how he can custom make him a bike of his own. It almost all feels normal and natural like our lives haven’t been full of crazy for the last ten months.

All the kids talk to me about what they are learning with their Nana and the tests they are taking. Annie told me that she feels like they might even be able to graduate early with her home schooling them. Which is amazing, they are all smart kids and I’m happy that this is not something that is impacting them in a negative way. I wanted them to have normal childhoods, well, as normal as they can have with being a part of the club. It seems that what we are doing now makes them happier than actually being in school. I know Declan and Daisy are old enough to be able to communicate with their friends from school and their extra activities. Dare, Dash and Dallas are still little, but they do have things outside of school where they can interact with kids. I know that the club has a bunch of children as well so it is not like they will not have children around. Delaney was never in school, but she was in daycare. I know that Rachel runs one so we will probably have her in that.

I know that everything that has gone on makes everything a little more hectic, but I am glad to know that my babies appear to have not let anything get them down. I know that Toby has continued their counseling remotely, so they have been talking to their child psychologists which I am so thankful for. I know I need to get my act together as well because I am still so frustrated and angry. I’m scared that something like this could happen again.

Toby has told me that he upped security and that Wiz has helped up security around our home, but I thought we were safe behind the walls of the compound before. I don’t understand why someone has to try and do things like this all to try and take a legacy that was never meant for them. This legacy is my family’s. My father built this club up from what my grandfather had it at. He has built relationships with other clubs, mafia, law enforcement and more. He has helped create several legal businesses to help bring this club up to one of the highest grossing clubs. He, despite his faults and his pride that have me screaming at him in my mind, is the one that turned this club into what it is today. We are a family, we are strong and I know in my mind that we can get through anything. I just have to push through the pain, the anger and the frustration that are leading me to not want any part of this family that has already taken so much from me. Despite everything that it has given me, the last year has been difficult and I don’t know how much more I can take.

I see the steps the club is taking to try to make up for everything that has happened, the steps that they are taking to try and right the wrongs, but they didn’t notice what was going on around them for years. They did not notice that there were so many snakes in their home. They turned a blind eye to bitches because they were good fucks, they turned a blind eye to employees because they thought they were solid and look where that has gotten us. Look where that has gotten me. My father’s generation might have helped build this club up, but in the few short months they have shattered something inside of it. I know my father is hurting, I know that the club is hurting from the loss of my mother, she was the heart of everything around here, but it is their fault that everything has happened. If they would’ve paid attention, if they didn’t think with their damn dicks, if they would’ve done more research into the people they let around our family maybe just maybe my mama would still be here. Maybe my children would not have had to deal with something so traumatic as their siblings being kidnapped and almost sold into a trafficking ring. Maybe they wouldn’t have had to see their mama so broken and be scared that they might never see her again.

I kept my distance for months to try and protect my heart, but I think now I need to step up like my mama did. Maybe it is my time to whip these assholes into shape and to not be blinded by stupidity. Until Luca gets himself an ol’ lady it is my job to protect this club and the children of it. I am going to work my ass off to get better and then I am going to be working with some women to help me learn more about how to do what needs to be done. I will never be taken by surprise again, I will never have any of my babies in danger ever again. I will kill anyone who tries to hurt my family even if it is someone from the inside. Things are about to change at the Devil’s Chaos National Chapter because I am not letting anyone, not even my father, do something that could tear up this legacy. This legacy will be handed down to my children and my siblings' children and it will be better than it was when the people passed it down to my brothers and husband. I am going to be the matriarch that makes sure this club stands and is stronger than it was when we got here.

Chapter Twenty-Three

Lash

So it has been a month since Sophie has come home, she has been doing well. Her physical therapist is impressed with how fast it has come together. But something else is going on and she won’t talk to me about it, not even in our couples counseling when I ask about it. She’s had visitors for the Sirens and it’s not just Nyx. I ask her about it and she just tells me that they are visiting because they are friends. The situation worries me because those women are deadly. They have a lot of skills and not knowing why they are spending time with Sophie is stressing me out. Something is going on.

I’ve asked the club members that watch my house and they have told me that usually it is just one of them a day. Some days the Untamed women come and visit. Which is crazy since the club they are visiting from isn’t the Briarfield club it is the club from Devil’s Hollow, North Carolina. They are her family so I am trying to think that is not suspicious, but the Sirens, that isn’t adding up. Something is going on and I’m afraid it is something big and bad. Addressing it with Sophie has not been working and more fighting has happened because of it.

What I know about what has been going on with Lips was that Nyx changed her approach after she spoke to Sophie. Sophie wanted her to feel the pain that she has felt since everything has come to light, except tenfold because this was one of the women that attempted to hurt our children. I haven’t been in the cabin because I’m more focused on finding the head of the snake. I have been working hard with Wiz, we still haven’t had much luck.The information we got from Lips didn’t help because not much was told to her. We can’t use her burner phone anymore because they figured out we had her. Apparently daddy is a real cold son of a bitch because he hasn’t reached out wanting his daughter back.

So we do know the man is a psychopath. I mean if that were my kid I’d tear down the world for them. Instead he seems to have hidden himself deeper underground. Which is irritating Wiz and the rest of the members of the club. I just want this shit to end to get back to the way we were before. Wiz is damn good and a lot doesn’t get by him when it comes to shit like this, the man has to have someone working that is just as good as Wiz. Which worries me he’s still working with those fuckers that sell women and children for money. Or he has someone in his club that can do this. I don’t know, but I want that asshole delivered to me on a silver platter and it is not looking like things will go the way I want them.

I walk up to the bar and it looks like the club of helpless men who fucked up over at the bar. I head over there, you’ve got Thorn, Hurricane, Whip, Dragon, Rage, Wiz and Doc all sitting there staring at their drinks.

“What’s with the long faces, boys?”

None of them look up at me and I just get some grunts. “Well that tells me a lot. So who fucked up this time that’s got you all sitting here thinking about your fuck ups?”

“Rage. He was running his mouth to me about his girl after he fucked some other bitch. She overheard him say some things because she showed up at the clubhouse. Now she won’t answer his calls and he has no idea why she showed up here in the first place. So he’s wallowing and the rest of us are kind of enjoying his wallowing because it isn’t us. Plus he keeps acting like its not a big thing, while checking his phone over and over again to see if she has responded to any of her fifty million fucking texts.” Dragon states.

I clap Rage on the back, “I thought you were with Rose exclusively? So you cheated on her?”

“We were never exclusive. So yeah I fucked her and fucked other people. It’s not a big deal.”

“Did she know you weren’t exclusive, asshole?” I ask him.