Page 15 of Lash’s Love

All of this is too much, she was put through hell in less than 24 hours and I can’t help but feel anger towards everyone right now too. I know he’s right and I know I should be with the kids because Sophie would kill me if I didn’t make sure they were alright. It feels wrong leaving here. It feels wrong walking out the door when your heart and soul is in a hospital bed clinging to life.

“Will you stay with her? I want to go in and see her for a little bit, but will you stay with her and have a couple of men stay with you as well. I’ll come back periodically, but Doc’s right I have to go check in on those boys. I know they were early, but I’m hoping not too early and they are okay with just a little stay in the NICU. I still want to make sure they are alright. I need to go get my kids and make sure everything is alright with them. Will you watch our girl, please?” I look at Bulldog and he nods his head at me.

“You know I’m not leaving her. I already called Cane and he’s going to have Tillie and Davis stay with him for however long this takes. I feel like a shit father,

I’m letting all my kids down left and right. Especially not being around enough for Tills and Davis. They will come and visit whenever they want to. Until we can move her, hopefully to Richmond.”

With that I nod and look at Doc, “Can you take me to see her please? I want to let her know she’s safe and I’m here for her.”

I follow Doc out of the room with Bulldog walking next to us as we go behind the doors to what I am assuming is the ICU and we head to a room. Doc lets me know that this is her room, until they feel like she is stable enough to get a room on a private floor.

“Wash your hands when you go in. We want to make sure we prevent any infection as best as we can.” Doc lets us know.

I know that Terror is talking to the brothers about who can stay here with Bulldog and monitor to make sure everything is okay. I walk into the room and see my sweet Soph on the bed with wires everywhere. My heart breaks. This should’ve never happened to her. She’s my queen, the club's princess, my everything. She means everything to me and to the club she grew up in and I know all the brothers are worried. All of them are ready for this to be over because now this is a second attack on our family. This time by a bitch we let into our home.

I take a seat next to her bed and try to be careful of the bandaging and the wires and grab her hand.

“Baby, I need you to fight for me. Fight for the kids. We can’t live without you. I want you to know you’re safe now. I’m going to make sure this never happens to you or to our kids ever again. I’m going to kill them all. They are going to regret the day that they thought they could take you from us. They have no idea the storm they unleashed. I promise they are going to pay for what they did to you, to our boys, to Dallas and Dash. I’m going to go to be with the kids, I’m going to take care of everything just as long as you promise me you’re going to be alright. You’re going to fight. I need you to do your part. You’re safe, I remember the names you wanted for the boys, I’ll make sure they get those names. Right now they are safe with Peyton and Knox. I’m going to go get them and bring them home to their siblings. I love you with everything that I am. You are my heart and soul. You know if you leave me, I will be a shell of a man, hollow. Missing the parts of me that make me who I am. The parts that softened me, the parts that taught me how to love and that loving someone like you made me stronger than I ever thought was possible. My beautiful best friend, I have loved you my entire life, since before I can even remember it’s always been you. I’m going to trust your daddy to take care of you while I’m taking care of our babies, but I promise I’ll be here visiting. So you better open those beautiful blue eyes soon. I don’t want to miss another second with you.”

With that I stand up and bend over gently kissing her forehead, her nose and then her lips. I walk out of the room and see Bulldog waiting patiently for me.

“Take care of her. If she wakes up, you better call me first thing. If she shows any signs of waking up, I better be called. I will be back as soon as I can.”

He comes up and pulls me in for a hug.

“You know you don’t have to worry about her, I’d lay my life down for any of my kids. Get to your parents that’s where the kids are, your old man said they are scared and worried about their mama. They know something is not right because she is normally home. I think Peyton is working something out with the hospital in Briarfield to make it easier for you to be there. It sounds like we might just eventually want to transport Sophie there, we can travel the 30 minutes to see her when we need to. So after you take care of those kiddos of yours, get to that hospital and find out how your boys are. Peyton has told me they are strong, which doesn’t surprise me, look at their mama.” With that he smacks my back and walks into Sophie’s room.

I walked to the waiting room and walked past my brothers.

“Let’s fucking go!” I yell over my shoulder and head to my bike.

Chapter Sixteen

Lash

We headed home, I decided it was the best option to get to the six kids that are with Cane and Cannon first, then I’ll head to the hospital in Briarfield. My dad texted me before I headed out that Cane and Cannon came and brought the kids to the clubhouse so that they could be around more family. So I think heading home is the best option to see the kids who know something is going on and to comfort them. I mean I know that Peyton and the Untamed Rebels are with the boys. I need to head there, name them and get eyes on them. I can’t wait for them all to be in the same space. I hope that Sophie can get out of this soon and that we will all be okay. I just want everyone under one roof. I swear that I am going to kill every person that took part in trying to hurt my family. I hate that I’m going to be meeting the twins without Sophie, that I am going to be naming them without her. I know the names she picked out and I know that many of our family members are going to be surprised by the names we decided on. That we are changing up our pattern with the D names. Thankfully we talked about this before she went into labor. I wish that she was here, I know that this is going to be so hard for her when she wakes up. Missing these moments is not something either of us saw happening.

As we pull up to the clubhouse the prospect opens the gates for us and we head to our parking spaces and park. Before I get off my bike, I pull out my phone and dial Peyton.

“Toby? Oh my gosh, are you okay? Is Sophie okay? What is going on?”

“Listen, Pey, calm down okay. Sophie is in really bad shape. They have her in a medically induced coma. I can’t go over everything right now, I’ve got to go in and talk to the kids. How are the boys?”

You can hear her sniffling on the line, “They are beautiful, Toby. So strong. They are doing really well for being born premature. The doctors don’t think they need to keep them all that long. I mean they are twins so they were going to be born premature, just not this premature. They are having some help breathing. They could use their mama. We pulled some strings with the hospital and set them up in a private room, once I explained the situation to the hospital and that we were afraid someone was going to be coming for them, the hospital moved them somewhere more secure.

So we’ve got Untamed Brothers here watching the door and the hospital entrances. Knox doesn’t want anything to happen to his nephews. I’ve been staying, of course Knox has come with the triplets and we set up little travel cots for them since I’m nursing the monsters still. Grim did send up some of his men from the Devil’s Hollow chapter as well, not wanting anything to happen to his new great nephews. Whip is also here so you have a brother here. I mean do you want him back? I won’t be torn up to send him back your way? If I'm being honest Toby, the boys are on the VIP floor. I guess that is what happens when your ol’ man is the president of the club that makes lots of donations to the hospital and you’re working to become a doctor. Anyway, I’m rambling. We will move them up to the VIP floor which would give them a suite with nurses right there, plus of course they have me. But that way you and the kids can come up here and stay. There is a bunch of room and beds, couches and all the things. That way you don’t have to be pulled in three different directions. Then hopefully we can get Sophie transferred here so that they can all be under one roof. But really, think about it, do you want me to set that up so it is ready for after you tell the kids? The babies need to have lots of kangaroo time and Knox and myself have been doing it, but it’s not the same. They need their parents and if they can’t have Soph right now they need their daddy. I have some pumped breast milk as well as donated breast milk that we have been giving them. Hope that is okay.”

I shake my head, she is giving me tons of information that I just don’t know what to do with. “Yeah, set that up. It will probably make the kids feel better being close to their brothers. Plus it will have me closer to Sophie when I visit. I’ll have to put a call into the kids' school to let them know that they might not be in attendance the first couple of weeks and if they can send homework. Fuck, at this point I think it might just be best to home school them again like we did for the last few weeks last year. I know they will miss their friends, but they have other activities they can see them at. I just am too afraid to let anyone out of my sight at this point. Your dad is with Sophie, but I’m still terrified. I appreciate you being there to help with the boys right now while I figure everything out. But yeah, we would love to have that suite, if you can pull that off that would be amazing.”

With that we say our goodbyes and I take a deep breath to head into the clubhouse. I don’t know how Bulldog told all his kids about Missy, I know this is not the same situation, but I can’t. My oldest is 10 and he is a protector, not just his siblings, but he goes hard to protect his mama. My youngest obviously now is the twins, but second to that is little Delaney and she is 2. She isn’t going to understand what is going on and where her mama is. She was taking some time even getting used to the idea of having baby siblings. She was most definitely not happy about the fact that she was getting brothers. As I am standing there dreading heading inside I feel a hand on my shoulder and look over and it is my old man, Rocky to the club, but dad to me. He pulls me into a hug and that is when I break.

“It’s going to be okay, Tobs. I promise. Sophie is so strong, she’s going to pull through this and give us all hell for acting like this. You know it and I know it. That girl has too much to live for. She isn’t going to leave you or those babies of hers. You know she fought and she is going to keep fighting. The boys are going to be okay too. Everything is going to work out. Your mom and I are here for you and the kids until Sophie gets out of the hospital.”

“Do you think mama will help me homeschool the kids?”

He pulls back and looks at me, hands still on my shoulders, “You know that your mama would do that for you. It helps that she was a teacher. I’ll call the school, explain everything to them that the kids will be doing schooling from home this year. Then I’ll talk to your mama and get that all taken care of for you. I’m sure you’re mama will figure out what she needs to get for all the kids in order to homeschool them all. Are you going to be here or are you staying at the hospital?”

“Peyton is setting up a suite for us with the twins, so I’m going to take the kids up there to stay with them, plus I will be closer to Soph. If you guys want to come with us you can too. Peyton probably needs a break especially since she has the triplets.”