Page 1 of The Billionaire’s Nanny

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CARRINGTON

The casket dropped six inches before the winch caught, and twenty people flinched. Carrington did not.

She stood at the edge of the plot with her hands folded at her waist, spine unbending against a wind that came straight off the water and tried to take the pins out of her hair one by one. Below the cliff, the ocean moved in long gray sheets, indifferent, the color of unpolished steel. She had chosen this cemetery herself, years ago, when their mother died and someone had to choose something. Clara had said then that she never wanted to end up here—too cold, too exposed, no trees. Carrington had signed the paperwork anyway, because someone always had to sign the paperwork, and now her sister was going into the ground on a hill Clara had hated, in a box Carrington had picked without asking anyone, because there was no one left to ask.

The priest was saying something about rest. Carrington heard the shape of the words without receiving their meaning; the way she sometimes tuned out a junior associate mid-pitch while still nodding at the correct intervals. It was a skill. It was, perhaps, the only skill she had left standing this morning.

Behind her ribs, something she could not name and would not have admitted to under oath continued to come apart, quietly, the way a hairline crack spreads through glass long before anyone sees it break.

She did not cry. She had decided that in the car, watching the cemetery gates come up through the windshield, and once Carrington Cole decided a thing, it stayed decided. Grief could happen to her privately, later, in the mansion, alone, where no one from the Phoenix Ridge Business Journal had a telephoto lens trained on the widow's walk. Grief in public was a liability. Grief in public was a headline. “Cole Developments CEO Breaks Down at Sister's Funeral.” She could already see the photograph they'd run beneath it, could already hear the board asking, gently, over the next quarter's numbers, whether she was quite herself.

She was quite herself. She intended to remain quite herself for as long as it took to get through this.

A hand touched her elbow. She did not startle—she never startled—but she turned, and found Deborah Okafor at her side in a black coat that had clearly once belonged to a taller woman. Deborah had been Clara's oldest friend, back from the years before Clara had stopped introducing Carrington to anyone as my sister and started introducing her, when she introduced her at all, as my sister, the one from the news.

"You look like you're holding the cliff up single-handed," Deborah said, low and careful, the way a doctor might deliver a diagnosis.

"Someone has to."

"You could let it fall, Carrington. Just this once. Nobody would think less of you."

"I would think less of me." It came out flatter than she'd intended, and she watched it land on Deborah's face as something closer to sadness than offense. She softened, fractionally, the way she softened for perhaps four people on the planet, three of whom were now dead. "Thank you for coming, Deborah. Clara would have wanted you here."

"She wanted a lot of things she didn't get." Deborah's eyes went to the casket, then back. "Including you, most years."

It was not an accusation. It was worse—it was simply true, delivered without malice.

Carrington let it sit. She had learned, in thirty years of negotiation, that the person who spoke next in an uncomfortable silence usually lost the room. But this was not a boardroom, and there was no room to lose, only a hillside and a hole and a woman who had loved her sister better than she had.

"We hadn’t spoken for the last two," Carrington said.

"I know."

"Before that, it was… infrequent."

"I know that too. I was there for most of the reasons why." Deborah pulled her coat tighter as a gust came up over the cliff edge, carrying salt and the smell of turned earth. "You remember the birthday? Grace's fourth?"

Carrington did remember. She remembered a private room at the Wren Hotel that Clara hadn't asked for and hadn't wanted, remembered handing over an envelope thick enough to embarrass a four-year-old, remembered Clara's face doing something disgusted and furious before she'd said, in front of eleven other mothers, “She doesn't need your money, Carrington, she needs an aunt.” And Carrington, who did not know how to be the second thing and had therefore never adequately offered the first, had left before the cake.

"I remember," she said.

"She talked about you more than she let on. Especially this last year." Deborah's mouth twisted, not quite a smile. "She used to say you two just picked opposite doors out of the same house. She went for the messy one with all the noise in it. You went for the empire. She said it like it was a joke, mostly."

"Mostly."

"Mostly," Deborah echoed again, and let it go, because there was nowhere further to take it, not here, not with the box still descending an inch at a time into rock that had taken three separate crews to blast level enough for a cemetery.

It was then, scanning the gathered mourners without meaning to—a habit from board meetings, always know who is in the room—that Carrington saw the child.

She stood eight feet back from the grave's edge, apart from the small cluster of Clara's book club and yoga friends who had arranged themselves protectively, uselessly, around her, as if proximity alone could substitute for whatever a seven-year-old actually needed at her mother's funeral. She wore a navy dress with a white collar, the kind of dress a well-meaning aunt of a book club friend buys in a hurry from a department store the night before, and her dark hair—Cole hair, unmistakably, the same near-black that Carrington saw in the mirror every morning—had been braided by someone unpracticed, the plait crooked at the crown.

She was not crying. She was watching the casket the way Carrington watched a hostile acquisition: perfectly still, assessing, waiting to see what it would do next.

Carrington's chest did the fracturing thing again, sharper this time. She had built a career on reading a room half a second before anyone else in it, and that instinct told her, flatly, that she was really looking at her niece for what amounted to the first time in the seven years since her birth. Grace had been four the last time they’d been in the same room. Somewhere in between then and now, an expression had settled onto her face that Carrington scarcely seen before, because it belonged nowhere in a boardroom but perhaps in the mirror at three in the morning—a child contemplating, in real time, whether the ground beneath her could still be trusted to hold.

"Go on," Deborah said quietly, and it took Carrington a moment to understand she was being pushed, gently, toward the child.