Page 42 of Rage’s Rose

Isabella giggles next to Twister and puts her hand on Domino’s thigh. I swear their relationship dynamic is interesting. Both men are in love with her and they are also in love with each other.

“Okay, well I’m sorry baby brother. I won’t be mushy in my own home with my husband. Now Cane, tell me what the hell is going on? I hear you’re going to be a daddy and you kind of already took on two boys as yours as well.”

“Okay, listen, yes Liza is pregnant.”

“And how come you didn’t know? Also how did we not even know that you were seeing someone seriously that you’ve basically said those boys of hers are yours? I have so many questions and I want some answers. You didn’t think I invited you all here to eat my food. If I didn’t want dirt, I would’ve just invited Mason.” She turns and looks at me with a smirk, “No offense, Caleb.”

I chuckle at her, “No offense taken, Soph.”

“Alright, Cane, talk.”

Dragon runs a hand down his face and sighs.

“Well, I was seeing this woman for a while before everything that happened with mama. I met her through school with Peyton and Parker. I fell hard and I fell fast. When shit went down with mama, I was afraid of not being able to protect her and the boys. I mean she wasn’t even my ol’ lady and she didn’t have any type of protection from the club. Even with that protection I didn’t think that there was any way to protect her with everything that happened with mama. So I came up with a plan to push her away until I felt like everything was safe. It was messy, but nothing happened. I made her believe I was still fucking other people and she walked into my home where another girl was there. It was a girl you went to high school with, so I knew her and she did me a favor. I said some fucked up shit to her to make her think that I had been fucking other bitches the whole time we were together. It was a whole fucking thing. I haven’t seen her since then, until the other week where I bumped into her and the boys at the grocery store. I about swallowed my fucking tongue when I saw that she was pregnant. Apparently the night I pulled my shit to protect her, she had come to tell me about the pregnancy. Then I guess she must have decided not to tell me.

I haven’t gone over to talk to her. I don’t know what the fuck to say to her. I mean I think it makes sense what I did and I did it for a good reason, but will she see it that way? Probably fucking not. I messed up and I don’t know how to fix it or even get her to talk to me.”

“Well Cane, she isn’t going to be able to forgive you if you don’t make an effort. You haven’t even gone to her? You found out she was pregnant and you haven’t gone to see her?”

“I was in shock for the most part and then come on how do I even explain myself?”

Sophie shakes her head, “I’m going to listen to what this one has to say and then I’m going to give you both some hard truths. So what is going on now Caleb? I want everything. You’ve always been able to talk to Toby and me. So talk to us now. Stop keeping everything to yourself. You don’t have to be strong for everyone all the time.”

I sigh and look around at the people that are with me. This family has been there for me ever since I was brought here. This is my found family, my people. I know that I have kept a lot of shit close to the chest with everyone and I know they will not judge me. I rub my hand down my face and lean forward so that my forearms are resting on my thighs. Looking down at the ground because really, I am ashamed of how I have acted and the more time I go without seeing Rose, the worse that feeling gets.

“I was seeing Rose, Peyton and Parker’s friend. I met her the same time that Cane met Liza. I was with her all the time. There really wasn’t any time that I wasn’t with her. I told myself that I was just getting her out of my system. That really what I had with her wasn’t anything special. Then the more time passed and I didn’t want to be apart from her. Then the situation with your mama happened. Everything came spiraling back to me. I didn’t see Missy there on the ground, I saw my mother and all the fucking shit from my childhood came rushing back. It was like that wall I put up to keep it all out came tumbling down.

I knew you guys were going through shit, but I felt like my chest was going to explode and that’s why I got out of there. I took off and I don’t know how I ended up at Rose’s. That night something shifted with us. I felt it, I know she did too. When I was lying there after she fell asleep I realized that for the first time I felt safe with a woman. So safe that I could be vulnerable and let my guard down. It freaked me the fuck out.”

I look up at all of them and Sophie is looking at me with I don’t know, understanding on her face and she moves over to sit next to me. She puts her hand on my arm.

“What happened after, Caleb?”

“I left that night before she woke up. I took some time and put space between us. I pulled away. Any time we were together again after that I made sure to lock my feelings down. I made sure that she couldn’t see how much she was affecting me. Then on some of the nights I refused to go over there I got so fucking drunk. There were a couple of times that I got so drunk that I woke up with no memory of the night before and some of the club bitches in my bed. Condom wrappers thrown around the room. I, fuck, I feel like a complete and total bastard. I was sleeping with Rose without protection and then I, shit.” I rub my hand down my face again and take a deep breath. “I fucked those bitches and yes I did obviously wear protection there was proof of that, but I never told Rose that I was fucking other women. She thought that since I was fucking her bare and had been with her for so long that she was the only one I was with.

Her and her friend overheard me say some fucked up shit about her to Cane, making it seem like she was nothing more than an easy lay. She bolted and ran back to Texas. Her friend read me the riot act and it turns out she is pregnant. I mean damn, look at me, I’m another Devil. She went dark. I have really only spoken to her once or twice, I don’t even fucking know. She told me she’s due in April and that basically all communication has to go through her fucking lawyer. I found out about Mason around the same time. Everything has been a real fucking whirlwind.”

“Wow. When you guys fuck up, you really fuck up don’t you?” Sophie says as she stands up and walks over grabbing Leon from the floor mat. “I’m going to make sure you and your brothers know that you don’t treat women like these idiots do. You’re going to be smarter than them. All of my boys are. We won’t have another generation of brothers that mess up like this.” She then kisses him on the cheek and hands him over to Lash. She doesn’t say any more as she grabs Lucas and gives him to Lash as well. “Can you put the boys down? I would help you, but I obviously have to give these men some hard truths.”

“Sure, but can we not put all of us in this category of MC brother fuck ups. I don’t think I apply here.”

“Sure, baby. You are not like that. You have been nothing, but good to me especially when I was at my craziest. I love you.”

“Can you please stop with the mushy shit? We are all falling apart here while you guys practically eye fuck each other and I am currently unable to eye fuck the woman I want.” Dragon says from the chair he is sitting on.

“Um, excuse me brother, but not all of us are falling apart. I have not fucked up with my man or my woman. So thank you very much. I told you that your plan was stupid and you shouldn’t do it, but you don’t listen to me. You always had to think you knew better.” Twister says.

“Why are you even here? Just to make us all feel worse?” Dragon throws back at Twister.

“Can you two please stop arguing in my home? Twister is here to give you emotional support, dipshit. You know since he is like your better half. He is usually the only one that can get through your thick fucking skull and my amazingly smart wife thought it would be nice for you to have him here while she tells you how stupid you are.” Lash says before he leans down and kisses Sophie before taking the twins down the hall to their room.

“Okay, so now boys we are going to talk. I really want you to hear me. I love you both very much and Caleb, you are like a brother to me. Always have been. So you know I’m not going to bullshit either of you and make what you both did, okay. So Cane, you need to get off your ass and go over there and talk to Liza. If she is just some other bitch you’ve fucked around with then great, but she’s still the mother of your child and you need to take responsibility for that. So instead of whining about not knowing what to do, go over there and talk to her.

If you want to have her as more than your baby mama, you still need to go over there and talk to her, but you fight. You fight for her. You show her that you fucked up and you know you fucked up. You explain everything to her, you tell her where your head was at. You need to let her know you were scared. You need to be fucking vulnerable. There is no more of this hiding bullshit. Take responsibility for your actions and if you ever do anything like this again I will kick your ass. Brother or not. You don’t need to be stupid. I get apparently it is in the mind of bikers to fucking mess up with their women. Well, except for my man. He’s perfect and honestly, we both mutually mess up. Anyway, if Toby pulled half this shit you did, he wouldn’t have a wife and kids. So figure out what it is you want.

From what I’ve heard about her, she’s not like the other women you’ve been with. She has two kids and you were with her for a long fucking time. She let you into those boys’ lives and that is not something a mama takes lightly. You fucked up, you fucked up big. Handle your fucking shit.”

Sophie sighs and takes a deep breath before she turns and looks at me. I don’t know what passes over her face before she starts talking to me.