Page 26 of Rage’s Rose

I put my hand on my stomach as I hear everything he says and everything else starts to feel like I’m driving through a tunnel. I don’t hear any more of their conversation because I feel like he just pulled my heart out of my chest and stomped on it. I feel the need to go home and scrub myself raw. Or better yet, I think I need my mama. I can’t deal with all this. How could I have been so blind, I thought because he was with me all those times that he wouldn’t go looking for it from someone else. I should’ve listened to my family. I never should’ve gotten wrapped up in a man like him. I should’ve also really read between the lines when he wouldn’t open up to me about anything. He has so many secrets.

“What a piece of shit. I am going to kill him.” I hear Abby say next to me, but I am too lost in a fog to stop her from rounding the corner.

“You’re a real piece of shit, you know that?”

“What the fuck! Abby? What are you doing here?” I hear Rage ask. “Is Rose here?”

I don’t wait for her to answer, I run towards the exit of the club. I’m pulling my phone out before I even get there and order a ride to pick me up. I need to get the fuck out of here. I need to clear my head and I need to give myself some space. Fuck telling him anything right now. I just learned about this news and I didn’t think he’d be happy about it, but what I just heard rocked everything I knew. I have so many questions. I don’t know how I am ever going to look at someone again.

I don’t wait more than a couple minutes before the cab I ordered gets to the end of the road where I am waiting for them. I hop in the car and look at the driver.

“Can you take me to the airport please? I need to go to the airport.”

“Sure thing.”

I then close the divider and look out the window willing myself not to cry over this man. He isn’t worth a single fucking tear.

I. AM. DONE. with Caleb “Rage” fucking Matthews. He can eat a fucking dick.

Chapter Thirteen

Rage

As soon as the words come out of my mouth, I know that I shouldn’t have said them. None of them were true. I just don’t want anyone to sit here and make me feel worse than I already do. I feel like I’ve cheated on Rose and what I said about us not having that exclusive conversation had been true. We technically never promised each other anything, but everything still felt wrong. It’s only happened a couple of times. I was so fucking drunk. The first time I woke up with Sin in my bed at the clubhouse. The second time I woke up with both Ash and Tiff. I don’t even remember how we got into those positions or what happened during those times, but I know we fucked. I had a trash can full of empty condoms.

I felt so disgusted with myself. The first time it happened I got drunk a couple of nights after that experience with Rose where I felt the shift in everything we felt for one another. I didn’t like how I felt with her and I didn’t understand why the hell I went to her when everything was getting too loud. Sitting there that night I knew that it was because the feelings that I was having for her were greater than I ever expected them to be. My mind is a jumbled fucking mess and I know that if Dragon hadn’t come over here when he did, I would have probably ended up drunk off my ass in bed with another fucking mistake. I hated fucking Kitty. She was a bitch to everyone and for some reason, she had her fucking sights set on me. I have never been able to get her to understand that I want nothing to do with her.

“Wow, Rage, you’re a real piece of shit. If I didn’t know you were drunk, I’d bring your ass to the ring and beat it. I know that your life has been hard, but that doesn’t give you the right to treat women the way you do. Rose is a wonderful woman. I know she means something to you or you wouldn’t be going back to her all the time.”

Before I can respond we hear, “You’re a real piece of shit, you know that?”

My head shoots up and I see Rose’s best friend Abby coming around the corner. My heart starts pounding in my chest as I look around to see if Rose is with her.

“What the fuck! Abby? What are you doing here? Is Rose here?”

She puts her hands on her hips and gives me a look that I’m pretty sure she thinks is lethal, but she’s fucking pint sized.

“Why the fuck do you care? After everything we just heard, she’s nothing to you.”

I stand up at that and I’m feeling surprisingly more sober than I was a few minutes ago.

“What did you hear?”

“Well, we heard everything you said to dear Dragon here.”

“We?”

“Oh yeah, Rose heard everything too.”

Before I can say anything Abby walks towards the corner and looks before she throws her hands up in the air.

“Way the fucking go, she ran. She never fucking runs.” She turns towards me and gets up in my face. “You know, Rose has a pretty shitty track record with men. I’ve known her all my life. I mean when she first told me about you, I thought maybe just maybe her family was wrong about bikers. I thought hey, maybe she finally found someone that was going to treat her right. I mean after all her fucked up relationships. I thought, hell maybe this alpha fucking male is going to do what all those other needle dicks before him couldn’t. I thought this is a man, not some piece of crap that is going to do what they can to destroy her. You have no idea the shit she has been through, you have no idea the way she has hidden everything she has been through from her family because let me tell you if they knew, those fuckers would be dead. If her dad knew the shit that was going on right now, he’d find everyone responsible for making that woman worry and bury them where no one can find them.

She is strong, she is beautiful and for some fucked up reason, I know she loves you. In a way she never loved anyone before. I was worried about all of this. I even told you that one night you stormed into her house and fucked her for hours that if you hurt her you had no idea who you were messing with. If she doesn’t tell them what you’ve done, I sure as fuck will. I know everything there is to know about that woman, we have no fucking secrets and I will not let you destroy her like the other men before you. I will make sure she stays strong through all of this and I will make sure that you never stand a chance to be with her or her baby.”

My heart stops. Literally stops. What the fuck did she just say? I cannot fucking understand the words she said.

“What? What did you just say?” I whisper.