Page 115 of Dark King Daddy

I let her pull me in. I kissed her deeper. My hand slid from her jaw to the back of her neck, my fingers finding the loose hair at her nape, and I gripped—not hard, not yet, just enough to hold her where I wanted her. She made a sound against my mouth. Low. The same sound from the promenade, pulled from somewhere she did not perform.

I pulled back. Her eyes opened. Dark green. The firelight caught them and held.

“I’ve wanted this since breakfast,” I said.

“Since before breakfast.” Her voice was rough. “Since last night. Since the library.”

“I know.”

“Then why do you keep stopping?”

She said it without accusation. She said it with the directness of a woman who had signed an agreement and meant every clause and did not understand why the man who had signed beside her continued to hesitate at the threshold of what they had both chosen.

She took my hand. She stood. She looked down at me on the sofa with her hair loose and her mouth flushed and her hand firm around my fingers, and she pulled.

I followed.

Up the stairs. Her slippers were gone—she had kicked them off at the bottom, the purple fleece abandoned on the hardwood. Her bare feet were quiet on the steps. My hand stayed in hers. She led me down the hallway to her suite and unlocked the door and brought me inside.

Her bedroom was warm. The lamp on the nightstand was on, casting low amber light across the bed.

She turned to face me beside the bed. Her hands came to my chest. She looked up at me with the confidence that had undone me in the library—the woman who knew what she wanted and intended to say so.

“Ksyusha.”

She waited.

“Slow down.”

Her hands stilled on my chest. Her eyes searched my face. I watched her receive the words and sort through them — not for offense, not for rejection, but for meaning.

“I want you,” she said. “You know that. I’ve been clear.”

“I know.”

I had expected to understand this part of our marriage. I had expected desire and discipline and the clean architecture of consent to carry me through the first time I took her to bed. I had expected to be the man who commanded and was obeyed, who held the structure, who made the decisions.

I had not expected her.

“Being close to you has become something I cannot approach casually.” The words came slowly. Each one cost me something. “I expected to want you. I did not expect to—“

I stopped. The sentence had somewhere to go, and I was not ready to take it there. Not yet. Not standing beside her bed with her hands on my chest and her eyes holding mine.

“I want our first night together when we have the energy to enjoy it fully. Not after a day of funeral admin and investigation and Little space. Not when we’re both running on soup and apple cake and four hours of sleep.”

She looked at me. The disappointment arrived—I saw it, the faint dimming behind her eyes, the small retreat of her hands from my chest. She did not hide it. She did not perform acceptance she did not feel. She let it show, and I respected her for it more than I could say.

“You’re turning me down,” she said.

“I’m asking you to wait.”

“For what?”

“For a night that belongs to us. Not to the day we had before it.”

Her jaw tightened. She looked at the bed. At Misha on the pillow. At the lamp and the cream blanket and the room she had offered me.

“Stay anyway,” she said.